The breakup letter to my boyfriend is as follows:
Baby:
Maybe this is the last time I call you that. Please read the letter patiently! Maybe we won't meet again!
We have been together for ten months, and I thought I would go on with you. I don't care about anything else, as long as you love me, but things are not as perfect as we thought.
I still remember your attitude towards me when I was with you. Every time you leave, I can't stand it. But now, every time I leave, I just get off in a hurry. I can't adapt to these attitude changes for a while!
After being with you, my mood will always be with you. I feel uneasy, anxious and absent-minded when I can't see you, but as long as I get a call from you, I will get carried away and laugh uncontrollably.
My friends say I can't live without you. To tell you the truth, I never thought I would be like this from the beginning when I was with you. I've never loved anyone so much. I don't know if we love each other like this!
You can call me anytime, anywhere, as long as you are happy, even in the middle of the night, I can't help answering your phone, I can't answer your phone very late, I can't turn off my phone, otherwise I will only be scolded! But what about me?
I can't call you in the morning and late at night, I can't call you regardless of time and place, you can not answer my phone, you can turn off your cell phone when you are bored, and there is nothing I can do about it.
And this helplessness can only be transformed into helplessness. When helplessness becomes a habit, it is only disappointment. I don't expect you to see me every day. I just want your concern and care, even if there is only one phone call every day. Of course, you don't scold me when you call, hehe, but you care about me a little.
Seeing that I always scold me and dig at me, I am used to it. what can I do? Resist Every time I say anything, I steal food to find a man. What's more vicious is that you said that I went out to sell and that I didn't have the ability to make money. But, I admit, I don't have your skill.
But when I travel, I earn clean money. I don't want to keep spending your money. I want to be independent, I want you to respect me and prove to you that I am not the parasite you think! You asked me where I got the money and said I earned it by sleeping with others. I'm speechless. My money is earned by myself, and it is not as dirty as you think.
You are insulting me and hurting my self-esteem, but I can't argue with you and I can't compete with you. Think what you want. I really just want to live a normal life with you, but you said you have a family, which is undoubtedly a warning not to get too close to you. Actually, you don't understand how much I love you.
I can't live without you. How can I go out and find someone else? I also said that I stole a bite. I'm not that addicted. I am not the kind of woman they like. I'm not the kind of person who can't control myself when I see a man. I thought we had been together for so long that you should know me and be comfortable with me. I never thought I was such a restless woman.
I thought I wouldn't be sad and worried after you left. I even gave up my marriage and everything and stayed with you for a lifetime. I am willing to be behind you and give everything for you. I don't want you to do anything for me, nor do I want you to abandon your family. I just want your love. I don't think this is too much. However, I am too naive to believe anything and that you love me!
In fact, I deceive myself every day. When I heard you say you would come to see me, I knew you were perfunctory, but I was still in a good mood.
Knowing that the probability of you coming to me is almost zero, I still comfort myself that you will come, at least you will call me if you don't come. When I want to see you, I don't want to do anything. I just miss you. You say you are tired or something, but you think too much.
I just miss you and want to rely on you to talk to you. It's as simple as that, but such a simple thing is extravagant hope for me. I don't think my request is too much, but you can give me too little affection. I know it's not good, and I know you can only give me a little love.
But I am like a beggar, I just need to keep asking until you want to escape. I don't need your promise, as long as you really love me, even if you think it's vanity or greed, but women are selfish about love, and no one regards love as universal love!
We have been together for so long, I still don't know you, and I can't even guess your temper. I don't know when you will be angry with me and when you will be happy.
I'm nervous when I see you calling. I'm afraid you will scold me for no reason. What kind of person scolds his girlfriend when he is fine? His mouth is so ugly that I almost have antibodies to your scolding. I'm used to it. I have formed the habit of being scolded by you. What a terrible thing!
Now I want to talk about the day when we went to Xi 'an. I just don't understand. I know, you won't take me to play alone, will you? What's more, you want a big bed room. I was in a daze as soon as I entered the room. I know you must have arranged it, but what can I say?
I thought you were joking with me, but I was wrong. You are more devoted than you are with me. I feel sad, I want to cry, you say you love me!
After returning home, that night, I saw the familiar car downstairs in the hotel. I was angry, sad and desperate! When I asked your room number at the front desk, when I stood in front of you, I cried and I cried myself. What role and status do I stand here?
Funny, funny situation, when you told that girl that I was your wife, I was really sad. She said I misunderstood. You have nothing. She's just drunk and resting here. I don't want to say anything, because I am not qualified to say that I know my identity.
Today, on the phone, you scolded me again, because I went to another bar to drink and came home late, and said how I went out with a man. I don't want to be so obedient to you anymore. I didn't do anything. Why should I lie to you? According to yesterday's situation, I can not let you know that I am outside, and I don't need to lie to you. My frankness brought me nothing but abuse. When I can't bear it, I don't need to bear it anymore!
You often tell me not to mess around outside, but have I ever stayed outside? Every day when night falls, I will appear in your slow-heating bar on time. Even when you are not here, I feel your breath and your figure, and I hardly go anywhere else to play.
There is a simple reason. I love you and everything about you except your money. I hate it when you show me your abundant funds and your family business, and I hate it when you say that I want to live a well-fed life with you.
What I want is simple. I even hope that you will become poor, let you stay with me, and let me love and care about you. My friends call me stupid, yes, I am, but money can't bring me happiness, and what I want is exactly what money can't buy!
In fact, we don't trust each other. Maybe what we see is not necessarily true. I'd rather believe that you're probably just afraid of hurting me and didn't mean to lie to me. If you really love me, will you give up?
But I don't want to talk about the truth now, and it doesn't make any sense. I don't want to be your woman anymore, and I don't want to live like this anymore. I need a normal life. I need to guard this dying love like a normal person, not like a dying patient.
At this point, I burst into tears. Although I love you very much, I must give up. I can't waste my youth any more. After all, I am not young. I'm leaving. Only leaving and escaping is the best refusal, because I am afraid that when I see you again, I will lose control of my feelings. I wish you happiness!