1. Translation of "The Legend of Hongxian"
The maid of the Xue Song family, the governor of Luzhou in the Tang Dynasty, was named Hongxian. She was good at playing Ruan Xian and was familiar with classics and history books.
Tian Chengsi, the governor of Wei Bo, wanted to annex Luzhou. After Xue Song heard the news, he was worried and depressed day and night, unable to think of any good countermeasures.
Hongxian said: "For a month, the master has not even had time to sleep and eat. Isn't it because of the affairs in the neighboring state?" Xue Song said: "The matter is related to the safety of Luzhou. You can't predict it. You can imagine it." Hongxian said: "I am indeed from a humble background, but I am also someone who can relieve the master's worries." After hearing what she said, Xue Song thought she was weird, so he told her about it. She said: "I inherited the property left by my ancestors and fathers, and enjoyed the emperor's kindness. Once I lose this territory, hundreds of years of achievements will be reduced to ashes." Hongxian said: "This matter is easy to deal with. "It's not worth bothering and worrying the master.
I will be on the road at the first watch today, and I can report back on the mission on the second watch." Hongxian then entered the bathroom and packed up her travel equipment.
After praying twice, he set off and disappeared immediately. Xue Song then turned around and closed the door, sitting upright with his back to the candle.
Suddenly he heard the dawn horn sounding in the wind and dew falling from a leaf. Xue Song was very panicked and stood up to ask. It turned out that the red thread was back. Xue Song asked happily: "Is the matter done?" Hongxian replied: "I dare not let down the mission."
Xue Song asked again: "You didn't hurt anyone or kill anyone, right?" Hongxian replied He said, "We haven't come this far. We just took the gold box on his bedside as evidence." Xue Song then sent an envoy to Weibo and sent a letter to Tian Chengsi, saying: "Last night, a guest came from Weibo, saying that he was from Weibo. The marshal got a gold box from his bedside. I dare not leave it here, so I sealed it respectfully and returned it to you."
The envoy ran like a meteor and arrived in the middle of the night. Tian Chengsi came out in a hurry, and the envoy handed the gold box to him. When Tian Chengsi received it, he was so frightened that he fainted to the ground.
The next day, Tian Chengsi specially sent an envoy with 30,000 pieces of silk fabrics, 200 famous horses and various rare treasures to present to Xue Song, saying: "My head is tied to On your behalf, please give me the opportunity to know my fault and correct it, so that I will no longer cause trouble to you."
From then on, messengers from Hebei and Henan came to each other. Suddenly one day, Hongxian said goodbye and left.
Xue Song said: "You were born in my family, where are you going now? We need you now, how can you say go?" Hongxian said: "I used to be a man, studying in the world. , read the book of divine pesticides and cure the diseases of the world. At that time, a pregnant woman in the village suddenly suffered from intra-abdominal worms. I gave her genkwa wine to drink. As a result, the woman and the two children in her belly died. .
My wrong move killed three of them. The power of ghosts and gods punished me and made me a woman, making me a humble slave.
Fortunately, I was born in the master's family. It has been 19 years now. It has reached a very high level. I went to Weibo some time ago to repay my kindness.
Now the two places have saved their lives, and the rebellious officials know that they have integrity and ambition. When people seek stability, for a woman like me, the contribution is not small. If I can atone for my previous sins and restore my original appearance, I should hide in the world and put my soul outside of the world. The chaotic energy in the heart can be clarified in order to live forever."
Hongxian knelt down and cried, and (after a while) he didn't know where he went. 2. The full text of "Hongxian Zhuan" is translated word for word.
In the Tang Dynasty, a maid named Hongxian from the family of Xue Song, the governor of Luzhou, was very good at playing the pipa and knew the Four Books and Five Classics.
Xue Song asked her to manage various documents, which was called the internal records room. At a military banquet, Hongxian said to Xue Song: "The sound of this drum is very sad. The drummer must have something on his mind."
Xue Song also knew music and said: "You can tell That's right." So, when he asked the drummer, he said, "My wife died last night, and I didn't dare to ask for leave." After hearing this, Xue Song asked him to go home. This was during the reign of Emperor Suzong of the Tang Dynasty, and Henan and Hebei were very uneasy.
The imperial court ordered Xue Song to guard Ganyang and control Shandong. Just after the war and the military government was first built, the court ordered Xue Song to marry his daughter to the son of Tian Chengsi, the military governor of Weibo, and to marry his son to the daughter of Linghu Zhang, the military governor of Huabo.
The three towns of Ganyang, Weibo and Huabo were united in marriage, and envoys were often sent to communicate with each other. During the Wei Bo Festival, Tian Chengsi fell ill with lungs and became seriously ill due to the hot weather.
He often said: "If I were stationed in Shandong, where the weather is cooler, I could live a few more years." So he selected three thousand warriors from the army, called otakumen, and gave them generous salary treatment.
He ordered 300 people to be on duty at the yamen gate and in the courtyard, and chose the right time to annex Luzhou.
After Xue Song heard the news, he was worried day and night, often talking to himself, but could not think of a good solution.
One night, the gate of the military camp was closed. Xue Song walked to the courtyard on crutches, with only the red line following him. Red Line said: "You have been restless for more than a month, and you seem to have something on your mind. Is it because of Tian Chengsi's matter?" Said: "Although I am a slave, I can relieve your worries." Xue Song heard that her words were unusual, so he said: "I know you are not an ordinary person, and I know it well."
He then I told Hongxian the details. I inherited my grandfather's great cause and accepted the country's favor. Once I lose the territory I guard, all the achievements I have made over the past few hundred years will be lost. Hongxian said: "This matter is easy to handle, no need to worry about it.
Please let me go to Weicheng first to observe the situation and explore the situation. I will go in the first watch and I will be back in the second watch.
Please prepare a messenger, a horse, and a greeting letter first, and we will discuss other matters when you get back." Xue Song said, "If this thing is not done well, it will cause disaster. What should we do?" Hongxian said: "I will definitely be able to handle it when I go here."
After saying that, he returned to his room, prepared his belongings, washed himself, put his hair into a black bun, put a golden hairpin in his hair, and wore purple clothes. Wearing an embroidered short robe, a green ribbon around the waist, light boots on the feet, a dragon-script dagger on the chest, and the name of Taiyi God written on the forehead. He bowed to Xue Song and disappeared in the blink of an eye.
Xue Song went back to the house, closed the door, sat with the light behind him, and drank alone. Xue Song was not a good drinker on weekdays, but he drank a lot this night and was not drunk. Suddenly he heard a gust of morning wind blowing, as if a leaf had fallen. He was startled, but the red thread came back.
Xue Song happily asked: "How did things go?" Hongxian said: "How dare I fail to complete the mission." Xue Song asked again: "Didn't you hurt anyone?" Hongxian said: "Use No, I brought the gold box from Tian Chengsi's bedside.
I arrived in Weicheng before midnight. After passing a few doors, I arrived at the place where he slept. I heard the man outside in the corridor. He was sleeping, snoring loudly. The Chinese soldiers were walking around in the courtyard, greeting each other.
I opened the left door and went to his bed. Your father-in-law was lying on the bed, sleeping soundly with his feet exposed. Wrapped in a yellow scarf and pillowed with flowers, there is a dagger in front of the pillow. In front of the dagger is an open gold box with his birth date and the name of the Beidou God written on it, and it is covered with spices and pearls.
Looking at his sleeping appearance, he didn't expect that his life was in my hands. It would be easy to kill him. I was afraid that it would cause trouble. At this time, the candle was about to go out and the incense burnt out. , his waiters scattered, their weapons were thrown together, some touched their heads against the screen, snoring loudly, and some fell asleep holding sweat towels and hair dusters.
I pulled out their hairpins and earrings and touched them. Their clothes seemed to be sick and they couldn't wake up. So I came back with the gold box.
After walking more than two hundred miles from the west gate of Wei City, I vaguely saw the bronze platform on the city wall. The water flows eastward, the moon rises above the forest trees, and the morning rooster crows. I was very angry when I left, but I was very happy when I came back, forgetting my fatigue.
In order to thank you for your kindness, I went back and forth in the middle of the night. Hundreds of miles, not afraid of danger, walked through five or six cities, hoping to reduce your worries, how dare I say hard work?" So Xue Song sent someone to Weicheng and sent a letter to Tian Chengsi, which said : "Someone came from Weicheng last night and took a gold box from your bedside. I didn't dare to keep it, so I sent a special envoy to return it overnight.
The envoy came to Weicheng in the middle of the night just to find In order to search for the person who stole the gold box, the soldiers were busy knocking on the door with their riding whips. They thought it must be something important to see them at this critical moment. Tian Chengsi came out in a hurry, and the envoy gave him the gold box. Holding the gold box, he almost fainted with surprise.
He left the envoy behind, hosted a banquet in the hall, and gave the envoy many rewards. The next day, he sent someone to bring 30,000 horses. cloth, two hundred good horses, and some precious things, and dedicated them to Xue Song.
And told Xue Song that thanks to him not remembering personal grudges, I saved my life, and I wanted to repent. No longer causing trouble for relatives, I specially sent people to discuss my children’s marriages and asked my son to treat his daughter favorably. I recruited foreigners to prevent theft and had no other intentions. Now I asked them to take off their military uniforms and go home to plant crops. In the next month or two, messengers from Hebei and Henan came and went frequently.
Suddenly one day, Hongxian wanted to say goodbye. I still have to rely on you, how can you leave? "Hongxian said: "I was a man in my previous life. I traveled around in search of knowledge, read Shen Nong's medicinal books, and treated people's diseases and eliminated disasters.
At that time, there was a pregnant woman with worms in her belly. I gave her genkwa wine, and the woman and the twins in her belly died. I killed three people at one time. To punish me, the underworld turned me into a woman and demoted me to a slave.
Fortunately, I was born in your family. I am already nineteen years old. I wear enough silks and satins and eat all the delicious food. You are particularly fond of me and give me a lot of honors. Now that the territory under your jurisdiction is peaceful and people live and work in peace and contentment, I should stay here, but this goes against God's will. I went to Weicheng yesterday to repay my kindness.
Now the cities in both places have been saved, and people's lives are safe. Rebellious ministers know to be afraid, but strong and upright people are protected. For me, a woman, the merit is not small. It can atone for my previous sins and return me as a man. I want to leave the world, become an immortal, and live forever. .
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Xue Song said: "You can't do this, you are a young lady. 3. Please read the red thread biography in the legend of the Tang Dynasty ~ no vernacular writing
The man in the red thread of the family of Xue Song, the Jiedu envoy of Luzhou in the Tang Dynasty, was good at playing Ruan Xian, and he was also familiar with the classics and history. . At that time, there was a big banquet in the army. Hongxian said to Song: "The sound of Jiegu is very sad. Whoever hits it must be in trouble." Song Su knew the music and said: "It's just like what you said." He called him and asked, saying: "Someone My wife died last night and I dare not ask for leave." Song immediately sent him back. At that time, after Zhi De, the two rivers were not at peace. With Ganyang as the town, Song was ordered to stick to it and control Shandong. After killing and wounding, the military government was destroyed. The imperial court ordered a Song girl to marry Wei Bo's Jiedushi envoy Tian Chengsinan, and also sent a Song man to marry Hua Tai Jiedushi envoy Hu Zhangnv. The three towns became concubines in marriage, and their interests were connected. ?
Tian Chengsi often suffered from lung qi, which worsened in the summer. He said every day: "If I move to Shandong and enjoy the coolness, I can prolong my life for several years." He was ten times as brave as the soldiers he recruited. If you get 3,000 people, you will be given a generous salary. He often ordered three hundred people to stay in the house at night. On a good day, I want to merge with Luzhou. When Song heard about it, he was depressed day and night, talking to himself aggressively, and had no plan to come up with. At night, the leaks were deep, and the camp gate was closed. The stick is used to eliminate the court, but the red thread follows. The red line said: "My lord, for a month, I will not miss sleep and food. I have a place to belong to, isn't it a neighbor?" Song said: "It's a matter of safety and danger, and you can't predict it." The red line said: "A certain honest and humble person. It can also relieve the lord's worries. Song said, "I don't know that you are a foreigner. You are really ignorant." Then he told him, "I inherited the legacy of my grandfather and received great favor from the country. Once I lose my territory, I will lose it." A hundred years of achievements have been completed. "Hongxian said: "This is not enough to worry about it. I will go to Wei for a while to see if it is possible. I will be on the way for the second watch. Please make a decision first. One of the messengers left with a greeting, and the others were waiting for him to return. "Song said, "If things don't work out, what will happen if it happens quickly?" Hongxian said, "This trip will not help." It's a person's boudoir, ordering his travel equipment. He wears a black bun, a gold phoenix hairpin, a purple embroidered short robe, light shoes made of black silk, a dragon-patterned dagger hanging on his chest, and the name of the god Taiyi written on his forehead. He bowed again and walked away, but suddenly he disappeared. Song Nai returned and closed his door, sitting in danger with a candle on his back. He often drinks alcohol, but only a few glasses, and he can hold a glass of wine for more than ten years without getting drunk. Suddenly I heard the wind singing in the morning corner, and a leaf fell into the dew. I was startled and asked, and the red thread came back. Song was happy and expressed his condolences, asking if the matter was harmonious. Hongxian said to him: "Fortunately, I did not disgrace my life." He asked again: "No harm?" He said: "Not really. But I took the gold box on the bedside as a letter." He also said: "Three quarters before a certain night, I arrived. In Weicheng, after passing through several gates, he came to his dormitory. Hearing that the children outside the house were sleeping in the corridor, they saw thunderous sounds of sleeping. He saw the soldiers in the middle walking under the court, calling for wind, and sent them to the left door to reach their sleeping tents. Tian's father-in-law rested in the tent, sleeping soundly, with his head resting on a rhinoceros, and a seven-star sword was revealed in front of the pillow. In front of the sword was a golden box, with a body armor and the name of the Beidou God inside. . He was showing off his majesty to the jade tent, but his heart was still in his lifetime. He was sleeping in the orchid hall, not realizing that his life was hanging by his hands. He would rather work and grumble, but the candle smoke was dim, the incense burnt, and the attendants were around. The soldiers were fighting with each other, either with their heads touching the screen and snoring; or with the brush in their hands, they stretched out their arms while sleeping. After leaving the west gate of Wei City, we will travel two hundred miles, and we will see the bronze platform raised, the Zhang River flowing eastward, the morning bell moving in the field, the setting moon in the forest, and the joyful return, suddenly forgetting about the service, and feeling the reward. , chatting with the counselor. He traveled seven hundred miles at three o'clock in the night. He passed through five or six cities along the way, hoping to reduce his worries. "Song Nai sent an envoy to Wei, and he inherited the book: Last night, a guest came from Wei Zhong. Yun got a gold box from the Marshal's bedside. He didn't dare to stay, so I wanted to accept him. "The special envoy Xingchi arrived in the middle of the night. When they saw the gold box being searched, the army was worried and suspicious. The messenger used his horse to beat on the door of Laos, asking to see him at an unexpected time. Chengsi came out suddenly, and the envoy gave him a gold box. When he held it, he was shocked and fell down. So he left the envoy in the house, held a private banquet, and received many gifts from him. Tomorrow, he will send an envoy to bring 30,000 pieces of silk, 200 famous horses, and rare treasures to Song, saying: "The leader of a certain person is tied to personal favors. It is easy to learn from one's mistakes and mend one's ways, so as not to harm Yi Qi any more." Special instructions, dare to discuss marriage. Xun Dang came with a drum and a carriage in front of his whip and horse. The children outside the house were placed in order to prevent others from being stolen. It was not a different plan. Now they took off their armor and clothes and released them. There are acres of land." Within two months, the messenger arrived in Hebei and Henan. ?
Suddenly one day, Hongxian resigned. Song said: "You were born in my family, where will you go now? It depends on your strength, how can we discuss it?" Hongxian said: "A certain man traveled around the world, read books about divine pesticides, and saved the world from disasters. There was a pregnant woman at that time. , and suffered from Gu disease, someone mistakenly drank genkwa wine, and the woman and her two sons died in one act. When the Yin Division saw it, she became a woman, and she was a lowly servant. Fortunately, he was born in a public family in the 19th year. His body is disgusted with Luo Qi, his mouth is poor and sweet, he is favored, and he is very prosperous. The country is peaceful and has no boundaries. , to repay the favor. Now the two places protect their cities, and save the lives of all the people, so that the rebellious officials will be frightened, and the soldiers will seek peace. It is not a small achievement for a certain woman. It can certainly redeem her previous sins and restore her true appearance. , Just hide in the dust, live outside the heart, and be clear about life and death. "Song said: "Otherwise, I will live in the mountain with a thousand gold coins." Hongxian said: "It's about the next life, so I can plan ahead." Song said. When he stayed, he held a farewell ceremony and gathered all the guests and officials for a night banquet in the middle hall. Song sent red wine with songs. Invite the guest Leng Chaoyang to write a poem, which reads:
Picking up Ling song and complaining about the Mulan boat, seeing off the guest's soul at the Baichi Tower. ?
It's like Luo Fei riding the mist, and the blue sky is boundless and the water flows forever.
The song is so sad. The red line bowed and took the seat, pretended to be drunk and left the banquet, whereupon he died.
4. Please read the original text of "Red Line" written by Sun Mengjie in "Minimal Studies" in July
"Red Line" by Sun Mengjie It's not the pull of fate, it's just the intention of "trying it out".
From such a specious beginning, a relationship has grown for more than a year. I don’t know whether this is luck or misfortune. I couldn’t guess Zoe sitting opposite me or his heart.
People say that men and women are different creatures, and they have different ways of thinking and behaving. Women are twists and turns, struggling to the end; men are rampant, hitting the vital point.
I clearly knew that I was thinking wildly, but I still couldn’t calmly think, “Let’s just go on like this.” But people only talk about irrelevant topics, and the more they need it, the less they know how to care about me.
"It takes you a long time to drink a cup of coffee. And you don't talk."
Zoe muttered. From black to brown, from a smooth forehead to layered bangs, from the boy I loved who would giggle when he saw me to someone who is now talking to me with his legs crossed and frowning.
My heart felt like being thrown into the cold sea water, sinking deeper and deeper, gradually becoming more and more disappointed, and eventually it turned into a roar with bared teeth and claws, but no one responded. "Zoe."
Unlike the previous few times where I tossed coins at home and struggled with whether to compromise my feelings or myself, this time I was completely determined to cut off the relationship with him. connect. But the entire chest was still the same as the previous times. Because I couldn't bear the sudden increase in pressure, I felt unprecedentedly weak and couldn't speak.
"What are you going to say?" He still didn't stop stirring the coffee spoon in his hand. "Should we break up and see?" I held my breath and said tremblingly.
"What did you say?" I didn't dare to look up at his face. I knew he looked sad and embarrassed, but I never knew or wanted to see him angry. But unexpectedly, he acted like he didn't hear clearly.
Maybe I’m used to it. "I said let's break up.
I'm serious. Let's break up."
"Is this it again?" The air conditioner seemed to be turned on too low, so low that it could only be left on After a few minutes of coffee, it was cold enough to frostbite my lips, and the song "Gorgeous Adventure" by Chen Qizhen was playing on my head at an inappropriate time. What a damn cafe.
Hey Zoe, you must be tired of this too. We have no reason to separate, but apart from love, there is no reason to stay together.
Zoe has had enough of my willfulness, my unreasonableness, and my inexplicability. I have had enough of his indifference, his indifference, his lack of tenderness, care, and understanding. He has had enough of the endless I've had enough of the arguments and tears. But at first, it wasn't like that.
When we started dating, he would come to me every weekend from school on the other side of the city. Even though I have to change trains twice and have to do nothing alone for two and a half hours, every time I wait for him at the school gate, the first thing I see is his unchanging smile.
The journey was so bumpy that my lips turned white, but I still didn’t want to show any signs of exhaustion. In the summer, he would take the cold water bottle from my hand, and in the winter, he would reach into my arms to get the hot water bottle I was holding on my belly, then hug me tightly and stay still for a few seconds.
Just these few seconds, maybe what girls need is just these few seconds. Regardless of the flow of people around him, whether it is raining or iron falling, whether he is sweating or shivering, he will come all the way just to hug me for a few seconds.
But boys are not always thoughtful, romantic and egoless creatures. Soon he started complaining about being burdened with homework, club activities, and interpersonal transactions.
If you had known that this day would come, don’t be so nice to me from the beginning. I will compare you at the beginning with you at the end. I really wanted to yell at him like this, but I couldn't say the words.
Because if he was not nice to me from the beginning, I would use this reason to blame him. I was such a nagging person, but I didn’t know I was so despicable at the time.
At that time, I could only cry and say at the top of my voice: "You don't like me anymore, why don't you like me anymore" under the influence of alcohol, and then beat his thin chest, a little bit He tore off his buttons without hesitation, wiping tears and snot from his shoulders. Zoe could only hold my head with one hand in distress, while the other hand hung down miserably, without any struggle to avoid it.
Every time, he didn't speak. Occasionally I looked up and caught a glimpse of him biting his lip with a blue face, and I realized that he was being patient and forcing himself to tolerate me. I couldn't tell whether I was feeling lucky or sad at that time.
Zoe is going to hate me one day for being so difficult and willful. But I couldn't help it, I couldn't help but want to confirm again and again what height I was in his life, I couldn't help but want to ask for more of his care for me, I couldn't help but want to ask him to be more perfect.
The first time we met was at a bachelor party organized by the club. It was an old-fashioned part, like two people stepping on balloons and three legs.
I was assigned to be with a senior boy who had a beer belly hanging down to his knees, so the excitement of the freshman girl who had just entered school and was full of anticipation for her destiny to appear was immediately extinguished.
I played through those games with a droopy face and was disappointed, so much so that later at the so-called celebration banquet, when my senior sister came to invite me to have dinner with me, I still couldn’t bring myself to get excited. It wasn't until during the dinner, when I was stuffing my mouth full of fish as if I was in a state of anger, and I was enjoying my meal, when the *** suddenly rang, that I noticed the clean and fair boy opposite me.
When everyone was gossiping or something, he was always smiling shyly. He didn't talk to each other but didn't appear obtrusive or inconspicuous. Instead, his clear outlines and distinct facial features attracted me. Afterwards, we played the game of kings, with the seniors cheering on us, and we were chosen to interlock our fingers for three minutes.
Actually, I didn’t mind anything, because in my eyes at the time, the appearance of this young boy catered to my vanity of appearanceism, and it also made up for the previous one who couldn’t leave good memories. party. So when I held his hand, I didn't hesitate at all and responded to everyone's booing with a smile.
But what surprised me was that the moment our hands touched, I felt a slight tremble from him. I looked at him in disbelief, and he lowered his head as if He didn't dare to look in my direction. Ever since he stiffly walked over and sat down on my left hand side, he hadn't looked at me in the eyes. I didn't think much about it at that time, but now I felt suspicious.
While I was staring at him suspiciously, his cell phone *** happened to ring again. He hurriedly let go of his hand and glanced at his senior sister with an expression as if he was relieved of a heavy burden. 5. Please read the original text of Sun Mengjie's "Red Line" published in July's "Minimal Studies"
"Red Line" by Sun Mengjie It's not the pull of fate, it's just the intention of "trying it out".
From such a specious beginning, a relationship that lasted for more than a year grew. I don’t know whether this is luck or misfortune. I couldn’t guess Zoe sitting opposite me or his heart.
People say that men and women are different creatures, and they have different ways of thinking and behaving. Women are twists and turns, struggling to the end; men are rampant, hitting the vital point.
I clearly knew that I was thinking wildly, but I still couldn't calm down and think, "Let's just go on like this." But people only talk about irrelevant topics, and the more they need it, the less they know how to care about me.
"It takes you a long time to drink a cup of coffee. And you don't talk."
Zoe muttered. From black to brown, from a smooth forehead to layered bangs, from the boy I loved who would giggle when he saw me to someone who is now talking to me with his legs crossed and frowning.
My heart felt like being thrown into the cold sea water, sinking deeper and deeper, gradually becoming more and more disappointed, and eventually it turned into a roar with bared teeth and claws, but no one responded. "Zoe."
Unlike the previous few times where I tossed coins at home and struggled with whether to compromise my feelings or myself, this time I was completely determined to cut off the relationship with him. connect. But the entire chest was still the same as the previous times. Because I couldn't bear the sudden increase in pressure, I felt unprecedentedly weak and couldn't speak.
"What are you going to say?" He still didn't stop stirring the coffee spoon in his hand. "Should we break up and see?" I held my breath and said tremblingly.
"What did you say?" I didn't dare to look up at his face. I knew he looked sad and embarrassed, but I never knew or wanted to see him angry. But unexpectedly, he acted like he didn't hear clearly.
Maybe I’m used to it. "I said let's break up.
I'm serious. Let's break up."
"Is this it again?" The air conditioner seemed to be turned on too low, so low that it could only be left on. After a few minutes of coffee, it was cold enough to frostbite my lips, and the song "Gorgeous Adventure" by Chen Qizhen was playing on my head at an inappropriate time. What a damn cafe.
Hey Zoe, you must be tired of this too. We have no reason to separate, but apart from love, there is no reason to stay together.
Zoe has had enough of my willfulness, my unreasonableness, and my inexplicability. I have had enough of his indifference, his indifference, his lack of tenderness, care, and understanding. He has had enough of the endless I've had enough of the arguments and tears. But at first, it wasn't like that.
When we started dating, he would come to me every weekend from school on the other side of the city. Even though I have to change trains twice and have to do nothing alone for two and a half hours, every time I wait for him at the school gate, the first thing I see is his unchanging smile.
The journey was so bumpy that my lips turned white, but I still didn’t want to show any signs of exhaustion. In the summer, he would take the cold water bottle from my hand, and in the winter, he would reach into my arms to get the hot water bottle I was holding on my belly, then hug me tightly and stay still for a few seconds.
Just these few seconds, maybe what girls need is just these few seconds. Regardless of the flow of people around him, regardless of whether it is raining or iron, whether he is sweating or shivering, he will come all the way just to hug me for a few seconds.
But boys are not always thoughtful, romantic and egoless creatures. Soon he started complaining about being burdened with homework, club activities, and interpersonal transactions.
If you had known that this day would come, don’t be so nice to me from the beginning. I will compare you at the beginning with you at the end. I really wanted to yell at him like this, but I couldn't say the words.
Because if he was not nice to me from the beginning, I would use this reason to blame him. I was such a nagging person, but I didn’t know I was so despicable at the time.
At that time, I could only cry and say at the top of my voice: "You don't like me anymore, why don't you like me anymore" under the influence of alcohol, and then beat his thin chest, a little bit He tore off his buttons without hesitation, wiping tears and snot from his shoulders. Zoe could only hold my head with one hand in distress, while the other hand hung down miserably, without any struggle to avoid it.
Every time, he didn't speak. Occasionally I looked up and caught a glimpse of him biting his lip with a blue face, and I realized that he was being patient and forcing himself to tolerate me. I couldn't tell whether I was feeling lucky or sad at that time.
Zoe is going to hate me one day for being so difficult and willful. But I couldn't help it, I couldn't help but want to confirm again and again what height I was in his life, I couldn't help but want to ask for more of his care for me, I couldn't help but want to ask him to be more perfect.
The first time we met was at a bachelor party organized by the club. It was an old-fashioned part, like two people stepping on balloons and three legs. I was assigned to be with a senior boy who had a beer belly hanging down to his knees, so the excitement of the freshman girl who had just entered school and was full of anticipation for her destiny to appear was immediately extinguished.
I played through those games with a slumped face and was disappointed, so much so that later at the so-called celebration banquet, when my senior sister came to invite me to have dinner with me, I still couldn’t bring myself to get excited. It wasn't until during the dinner, when I was stuffing my mouth full of fish as if I was in a state of anger, and I was enjoying my meal, when the *** suddenly rang, that I noticed the clean and fair boy opposite me.
When everyone was gossiping or something, he was always smiling shyly. He didn’t talk to each other but didn’t appear obtrusive or inconspicuous. Instead, his clear outlines and distinct facial features attracted me. Afterwards, we played the game of kings, with the seniors cheering on us, and we were chosen to interlock our fingers for three minutes.
Actually, I didn’t mind anything, because in my eyes at the time, the appearance of this young boy catered to my vanity of appearanceism, and it also made up for the previous one who couldn’t leave good memories. party. So when I held his hand, I didn't hesitate at all and responded to everyone's booing with a smile.
But what surprised me was that the moment our hands touched, I felt a slight tremble from him. I looked at him in disbelief, and he lowered his head as if He didn't dare to look in my direction. Ever since he walked stiffly and sat down on my left hand side, he hadn't looked at me in the eyes. I didn't think much about it at that time, but now I felt suspicious.
While I was staring at him suspiciously, his mobile phone *** rang again. He hurriedly let go of his hand and glanced at his senior sister with an expression as if he was relieved of a heavy burden.