? When I was a sophomore, I took a course of poetry appreciation. At the beginning of the class, the teacher asked if anyone would like to be the monitor. The noisy classroom suddenly quieted down and the atmosphere was awkward. The teacher looked at everyone with anticipation. I raised my hand vaguely and became the monitor. Every class, I make PPT for the teacher, clean the blackboard, and finally collect homework for the teacher at the end of the class.
? As always, the days are dull, but there are also some different colors, because I met many students from different majors and a "distant you". A classmate in the class grew up with you. In your conversation, he inadvertently talked about me, and you got my contact information through him. Later, we only chatted occasionally, and there was not much overlap.
? May is the sweetest season for cherries. Your school is at the foot of Bailuyuan Mountain, and there is a cherry orchard near the school. You can also get the moon near the water tower, where you can enjoy picking bright red, fresh and natural cherries.
? You asked for my address and sent me two boxes of cherries. Cherry is really sweet. I should never forget the taste of life.
Near the end of the semester, you know that I like to travel around, especially to small buildings in ancient towns, mountains and rivers, etc., so you invited me to travel to Xi 'an. You said that Xi is also rich in history and culture, and there are many ancient architectural sites. Out of trust in you, I agreed. I never thought that this trip would be a "point of no return".
Because time is limited, I only promise you to go for two days. In order to let me experience more things, you made a detailed route plan for me two days in advance. Soon, the date of meeting came as scheduled.
I still remember when we first met, I just got off the train and my face was dusty. When I saw you, I had two huge panda eyes and a sallow face. Maybe you don't know that I didn't buy a berth ticket at that time. In order to save costs, I took a hard seat for one night and came to Xi 'an, but nothing really happened.
After a brief acquaintance between us, you can't wait to take me to know everything about Xi, its museum, Datang Furong Garden, modern bookstore and Big Wild Goose Pagoda. At noon, I was so hungry that I saw stars. Maybe you heard my voice, stopped dragging me forward and found a nearby restaurant to eat.
That restaurant focuses on western food. When exquisite western food is placed in front of me, I have 10 thousand "what" in my heart. For a northern girl who drinks porridge and noodles, she is really not used to cutting with a knife and winding food with a fork. I went to the bathroom in the middle, and when I came back, I put a neatly cut cow on the table, which was really warm by you.
I'll tell you after dinner. Just take me to eat noodles after dinner. Xi 'an has many different kinds of noodles, so let's eat noodles together. A long time later, when I was listening to a book, there was a story called "When did you start? Do you think ta is the one who wants to spend his life with you? "I asked you this question, and you said it was time for me to let you take me to eat noodles. You are really a child with a novel brain.
That day, the weather was not very good, and it began to rain in the gloomy sky. Fortunately, you checked the weather in advance and reminded me to take an umbrella. You are holding an umbrella. Under the crowded umbrella, I seemed to hear someone's heartbeat. The humid air has the spectacle of deer bumping around.
We walked in the deserted hibiscus garden, and in order to avoid each other's embarrassment, we casually found a topic to chat. You suddenly spoke to me in German and asked me what I knew. I just look stupid and tell you I don't know. I just take it as a joke to improve my B-grid. You said "I miss you".
As night falls, you have to drag me to the Big Wild Goose Pagoda to watch the light show, because I was so tired that I refused. How helpless, but can not stand your hard work, or go, unexpectedly, unexpectedly, that is the beginning of your "conspiracy."
After you leave, let me wait for you in one place first, you leave me your umbrella, and then you run away slowly in the rain until you disappear. Soon after, you came to me with flowers in your hand, and then, well, then you were caught off guard. Words tremble. You said something at that time, which is still fresh in my memory. You said, "My smile, I smile on my face, but I smile in your heart. That German sentence is not that I miss you, but that I like you. " You ask, "Can I be your boyfriend?"
? I hesitated for a long time, and there was a war in my mind, which was particularly fierce. On one side, the little angel said, "Wow, love should be beautiful." On the one hand, the little devil is saying, "What about love? You are graduating soon, and there is no long-distance love! " "But looking at your sincere eyes, I really can't bear to say anything to hurt you. I promised you, and then you kissed me without my consent. I was beaten ten thousand times in my heart, and ten thousand "grass mud horses" poured in. My first kiss, my first kiss, is gone.
In this way, we were together the day we met. Maybe it's God's will, or maybe it's because the person you met is you, the person who has been afraid to fall in love, and fell in love. Since then, my air has a little more rotten smell of love.
2. I don't know what I'm doing. I'm crazy about it.
? After the holiday, I started my internship for 10 months, while you continued to study at school. We started a long-distance relationship that can only be contacted by mobile phone.
? I don't have fixed working hours for my internship, and your studies are heavy, so we often chat at different times. But so what, even through the cold mobile phone screen, you will try your best to make me happy. You will say some clumsy sweet words, and occasionally say something that makes my goose bumps fall all over the floor, such as "I want to hold you in my hand and I won't part with you for a second", or omit 10 thousand words here. So you are really a man show.
? I will also receive a courier message every three days. The soymilk maker, steamer and menstrual towel you bought directly resulted in something two or three times faster than others when I finally moved. You boy, you have ulterior motives.
? I remember once receiving something and opening it, it was a pink eternal flower. I remember that when we were in the bookstore for the first time, there were beautiful eternal flowers on the display shelf, and I was fascinated. When did you remember it? I don't know.
After a while, you had a holiday and came to Guangzhou. We had a short meeting. I'll take you to meet my intern friend and my sister. When I first met my sister, I was a little nervous, didn't know what to say, and was silent. When we eat together, the conversation between my sister and you is more of a question-and-answer mode. Just answer silently and give me a dish silently.
? I asked my sister what she thought of you, and she jokingly said to me, "You two are like brother and sister together." Yes, a guy with a big waist and a big figure like me is really complicated. You are thin and I am strong. When we are together, it's like top-grade ribs with some fat pork belly. It is not easy to put good bones in fat.
? I said; "I will lose weight, I will be thinner, and we will look more harmonious together."
? You said, "I like the way you look fleshy, no matter how much you lose." If you lose weight, you may not look good. "
? I once suspected that there was something wrong with this man's aesthetics. Other boys like slim figure, big chest and hips and long legs. It's good to come to you. Why do you like my type? You have to emphasize to me that you are not fat, but rich! Rich! You know, blessed. I can't refute it.
? The time together is very short, and you want to take me to experience a different life. You take me to the Pearl River to feel the cool and humid wind, take me to Shamian to enjoy a moment of peace away from the noise, take me and Xinyi Xiaomei to Changlong to experience thrilling games, take me to Guang Zhouta overlooking the whole of Guangzhou, take me to the Sacred Heart Cathedral of Shishi to appreciate western culture, take me to the bookstore on Beijing Road to read books ... Let's try to seize every minute together to create beautiful things.
? The day of parting is near at hand, and my feelings for you are a little different from before. When I got off work, I received your message, which was the high-speed rail message that you were scheduled to leave on the same day. After reading the information, I was angry and annoyed. I called you directly and asked why you left without saying a word. Why didn't you let me see you off? I stayed in tears. You explained that you didn't want to delay my time and sent it to you specially. The words sound just fell and I found you standing straight in front of me at the hospital gate. Then I burst into tears, and I laughed without anger. I was going to be angry with you, but I was very happy after seeing you.
Later, you told me that after you took me to the hospital that day, you went to the Whampoa Military Academy to have a look, then went back to the hospital and sat in a chair in the emergency hall, waiting and waiting. When you are really sleepy, just sleep in the chair until I get off work. As for the short message you sent me, you made it up to see my reaction. I said, "Are you happy to see that I care so much about you?" You said, "I'm not happy at all, making you cry and worrying you so much." I will never do such a stupid thing again. "
? Maybe love is when you meet someone who knows how to love you, and you also know how to cherish the goodness of ta. One is affectionate, the other is righteous, and they will stay together for life.
3, 20 17 The winter in the north is particularly cold. Fortunately, you gave me warmth.
After we got together, I told you about my father's illness. You listened to me silently, as if the listener were in the story.
? You said that if you loved me, you would love everything about me, good and bad.
? Twenty days before the Chinese New Year, my father's condition suddenly deteriorated. Listening to the critical notice on the other end of the phone, I panicked and I was scared. I explained the situation to the teacher, took a good vacation, went back to the dormitory and simply took something, and then rushed home with my sister overnight. My sister and brother-in-law take turns driving, and it's nearly 1500 kilometers from Guangzhou to Henan, and they can't even sleep. When I got home, the doctor in the hospital said that your father's condition was very poor and there was no therapeutic significance. Let's take him home and try to spend the next year.
? We were silent, and everyone kept his father from getting sick, just telling him that the Spring Festival was coming and I would take you home for a reunion year. Maybe my father has guessed that his illness is getting worse, maybe not, maybe he will feel better without knowing it. Once that tall, burly, fearless father became skinny and miserable under the torture of illness.
? I told you about my dad, and you tried to comfort me on the other end of the phone, but I didn't listen at all. I was almost devastated. You said that you would have a holiday in a few days. That day, I waited for you outside high-speed railway station. When I saw you, I rushed to you and threw myself into your already prepared arms.
? This is your first visit to my house, because you are not familiar with it, and you look a little stiff and shy. You went to see my father and introduced yourself to him. I heard that you were in a military school, so he told you about his joining the army and fighting at that time, and recalled the days when we lived with him with the medals he won at that time. His father became quiet and weak when he spoke because of illness. If he talks longer, he will be very tired. He talked with you for a long time that day, and I can see that Dad likes you very much.
? You like to put a little Chili powder in your rice, but my mother cooks very lightly. In winter, she likes cooking best, that is, stewing cabbage, vermicelli and lean meat together, so she can eat almost one dish in a winter. During the time when you came to my house, it was estimated that you were about to eat cabbage vermicelli, but you said that my mother's cooking was delicious and I liked it very much.
? You can eat noodles three times a day. We eat vegetables and porridge in the morning and evening, and rice or noodles at noon. You like spicy food, but my family eats very lightly. We can warm ourselves on our kang in winter, but there is no heating in our house in winter, and the heating effect of air conditioner is not satisfactory. If you open a door slightly, the heating will slip away at once. In a big cold and empty room. But you don't care. You have the same meal as me and feel as cold as me. You put my hand in your palm and drove away the cold and haze that surrounded me.
? Dad's body is getting weaker and weaker, and he can only lie in bed all day. We will send him three meals a day. If the weather is fine, help him lie on the couch in the yard and bask in the sun. At that time, he seldom talked to us, and when he called us, he just needed us to bring him tea, turn over and pat him on the back.
? One night, he said to his mother, find a chance to solve the two children's problems in the future. The next day, dad called you to him and said to you, "You are old. When you graduate from graduate school, you can get married when you are stable. " You answered: "Good". You look at his swollen lower limbs, and then you sit at the end of the bed and massage his calloused soles over and over again, from the soles to the calves. My eyes suddenly turned a little red. I'm afraid you'll see. I quickly turned away and wiped the tears from my eyes.
? During the few days you were here, I introduced you to my uncle and aunt, told you about my wild childhood, and showed you what I had accumulated since middle school, including beautiful and pure Christmas postcards, ugly and ugly class clothes, some naive birthday gifts and love letters with hazy love.
? When you looked at the photos I took, I secretly hid a photo of my senior who had a crush on me for two years in college. You still noticed my abnormality. Let me show you the photos. I said, don't be angry with me when you see the photo, and you agreed. You looked at that photo for a long time, and then whispered to me, "What should I do? I feel so uncomfortable. " In the photo, you smiled so happily next to that senior, so happy. "I said," that was in my Me Before You. "
? A year ago, a New Year's Eve party was held in front of the school bell tower. I don't think I'll ever see that senior again, so I'd better say goodbye. After the New Year's Eve, I took the only photo with him, and then all my secret loves in the past two years were stored in that photo, and all my feelings could be put down.
? I said, "If you are not happy, I will tear up that photo." You said, "You won't let me do such a stupid thing. These are the memories of your youth. As long as you belong to me now. "
? I used to run in the warm summer, so that sweat and tears were intertwined, which made it easier to cry.
? How many sleepless nights, let loneliness accompany me to sleep, let me take off my seemingly solid armor for a while.
? I once sank into a closed world, so that I couldn't get out and others couldn't get in, thus building a relatively safe self-world.
? But now, I don't need it.
You were there when I needed you.
Dad's condition deteriorated sharply. He hasn't drunk a drop of water for three days. When my mother called me, her voice was hoarse and she said, "Come back, son."
? I asked for leave to go home again. When I got home, there were many relatives sitting in the yard, all wearing white mourning bands and looking solemn.
? When I entered the living room, my sister knelt beside my father, counted three yellow old paper money in the basin and sobbed and said to me, "kowtow to my father."
? I'm still late.
? According to the custom in my hometown, I should wake for the dead. My sister and I stayed by my father's crystal coffin for three days, day and night, but what was more painful than physical suffering was psychological torture. Sorry, this family, father, will be gone forever; I hate it. If I can come back earlier, can I hear him say, "Daughter, Dad is so glad you are back."
? You know the news of my father's death, ask for leave from school, and come to my house again. The day you came happened to be the day my father was buried, but you can't attend the funeral because you are not a real member of my family. My sister and I both abide by the rules set by the older generation. My sister holds my father's ashes and I hold my father's portrait. I visited nine times along the way, turned all my sadness into tears and cried happily. Tears blurred my vision and I stumbled all the way. Five aunts helped me to the cemetery. The wooden coffin landed slowly under the traction of the sling. At the moment when the wooden coffin finally touched the ground, I realized that my father had really gone and would never come back.
? On the way back, I saw a figure in the distance, and that was you waiting for me in the distance. I just know that along the way, you silently followed the funeral crowd. The wind is a little strong, and the sand has lost my eyes. When are my red eyes full of tears?
? In those days, you didn't say much to comfort me, just accompanied me and walked out of that gloomy day with me.
? Later, I learned that we can't escape the wheel of destiny. If life and death are a cycle, if life represents hope, then death means the door to the next cycle. The person who passed away does not really mean leaving, and the traces he or she left will surely be remembered. Some people are born bright stars, they will be worshipped, surrounded, surrounded and remembered by the world. There are many ordinary people in this world. Their lives are dull and they need to work hard to support their families and raise their children. After all, they are just ordinary people, but they will also be remembered, and all their goodness will be remembered in the hearts of those who love them.
? Dad, he is still alive, living in our hearts.
5. Maybe life is not beautiful, but fortunately I have you.
The second time I went to Xi 'an, Xi 'an was still Xi 'an, but I was not myself.
You put me in the guest house of your school and meet me in your spare time. I walk in your campus, and few people come out to walk around. The militarized management mode makes me feel the solemn campus atmosphere.
I came to the playground where you used to train, walked on the boulevard of your school, looked at the grass and trees here, and pursued the footprints you had left.
You take me to meet your classmates, eat together, chat together and tell me their stories.
? Later you took me to your home to meet your parents and friends who grew up together. Your parents are very nice people. Although they don't talk much, they are really good people.
? It turned cold in those two days, and your mother was afraid that I would freeze, so she quickly found me thick clothes to wear. Your family's taste is on the side, and your mother is afraid that I won't be used to it, so she makes the taste of the food weak. There was not enough room in the living room at home, so your father took a quilt and went to live in a small room outside alone.
? You took me to your middle school and told me what you looked like at that time, writing and performing sketches ostentatiously; You took me to eat tofu brain, instant tofu brain and chewy foam that you always liked when you were a child, which may be an indispensable part of your childhood memory; You take me to your playground, you play ball with your good friends, and I watch quietly. I seem to have been together for a long time in a trance.
I don't know when I fell in love with you. But I know I'm afraid of losing you now.
? Later, during your May Day holiday, we met in Zhengzhou. I'll take you to meet my college roommate. We will eat together and play games in the open classroom corridor. We haven't been so relaxed and happy for a long time.
In this way, we gradually integrated into each other's lives and became a part of each other's lives. From acquaintance to love, we have met six times, and the time together is less than 30 days, but it seems like a lifetime.
In the rush of college time, I once liked others and was liked by others, but I never dared to touch the dazzling luxury of love. I feel inferior in my bones, and I stubbornly think that I don't deserve love until you appear, all my shortcomings. I can be plain, I can walk like a man, I can be your brother, I can bend over without temperament, I can be unreasonable to you, I can laugh when I am happy in front of you, I can cry when I am sad, and I can be myself.
? People will meet about 29.2 million people in their lifetime, and the probability of two people falling in love is 0.000049. So, thank you for meeting you. So, thank you for letting me have you.
? May there be no years to look back and grow old with deep affection.