1944 one day in early spring, a middle-aged man was lying on a cane chair reading a magazine on the lawn of a yard in Nanjing. When he saw a novel, he just read the beginning, so he couldn't help sitting up straight and reading it carefully over and over again. This man is Hu Lancheng, whose novel is Zhang Ailing's Blockade.
Hu Lancheng, a native of Shengxian County, Zhejiang Province, was born in 1906. I grew up poor, suffered a lot, and fought the world with my bare hands. He once had a wife, Yufeng. Yufeng died, and Hu Lancheng borrowed money to bury her soul, but she ran into a wall everywhere. In this regard, Hu Lancheng later recalled: "I can't shed a tear, because I can't love the disaster and the world." I cried when I was a child, and now I have returned it to my mother. I have returned to Yufeng as an adult, and my heart has returned to nature! "It is this literati who lives at the bottom of society and rushes into the world alone, losing his personality, dignity and value in the struggle. Therefore, Wang Ching-wei took a fancy to Hu Lancheng when recruiting talents for organizing the puppet government. And Hu Lancheng is also a black-and-white answer, becoming a national sinner.
At this time, Hu Lancheng, who had worked in Wang Puppet Government, was recuperating in Nanjing. When he received Heaven and Earth magazine from Su Qing and read Blockade, he was fascinated. The mutual appreciation between literati made him curious about the author Zhang Ailing. So he immediately wrote a letter to Su Qing, praising Zhang Ailing's novels and expressing his strong desire to know the author. Su Qing wrote back that the author was a woman and got high marks. This is to make Hu Lancheng remember Zhang Ailing. Soon, he received the first 12 issue of Heaven and Earth from Su Qing, which contained not only Zhang Ailing's articles, but also her photos. He wants to know more and more about Zhang Ailing. After returning to Shanghai, Hu Lancheng went to Su Qing to visit Zhang Ailing as an enthusiastic reader. Su Qing declined politely, because Zhang Ailing never meets people easily. But Hu Lancheng insisted and asked Su Qing for the address. Su Qing hesitated before writing to him-Room 65, 6th Floor, Hede Road 192 Apartment, Jing 'an Temple. Hu Lancheng is a treasure. Although at this time, he is already a man with a wife, and it is his second marriage.
Hu Lancheng excitedly went to Zhang Ailing's house the next day. The beautiful garden on Hurd Road where she lives is not far from that on Daxi Road where he lives. But Zhang Ailing really didn't see strangers. However, Hu Lancheng never gave up. She handed a note under the door, wrote down the reason for her visit, home address and telephone number, and asked Miss Aileen to meet her at her convenience. The next day, Zhang Ailing called Hu Lancheng and said that she would go to see him. She will arrive soon. Zhang ailing refused his visit and went to see him herself, and her mind soon changed. In fact, earlier, Hu Lancheng was imprisoned for offending Wang Jingwei, and Zhang Ailing once accompanied Su Qing to Zhou Fohai's house to have sex. Therefore, she knew him. So, that's how we met.
When we really met, Hu Lancheng only said that everything he thought was wrong. On the one hand, he thinks that Zhang Ailing is very tall, on the other hand, he thinks that she is sitting there, naive and pitiful, not like a writer, but like an immature female student. But they talked for five hours. From commenting on popular works to asking about Zhang Ailing's monthly writing income. It's really impolite to ask such a question to a young lady who met for the first time, but "because we know each other, we know each other", and they already have the feeling of knowing each other, so Zhang Ailing doesn't think Hu Lancheng's words are abrupt. Hu Lancheng sent Zhang Ailing to the alley and walked side by side. He suddenly said, "Why are you so tall?" Only this sentence suddenly interrupted the distance between two people. The subtext of "how did this happen" is compared from the perspective of whether two people are well matched, provided that they have been regarded as men and women together. Zhang Ailing was surprised and almost disgusted, but she was really good.
The next day, Hu Lancheng paid a return visit to Zhang Ailing. Her room was so luxurious that it disturbed him. Hu Lancheng described this military spirit when Liu Bei entered the room in The Romance of the Three Kingdoms. On that day, Zhang Ailing wore a sapphire silk coat and trousers and a pair of glasses with bright yellow borders. Years later, Hu Lancheng has a clear memory of these details. After that, he went to see Zhang Ailing every day. One day, he mentioned the photos published in Heaven and Earth to Zhang Ailing. Zhang Ailing took them out and gave them to him, and wrote a few words at the back: Seeing him, she became very low, as low as dust. But her heart is happy and flowers come out of the dust.
This year, Hu Lancheng was 38 years old and Zhang Ailing was 24 years old. But soon, they fell in love. The way they love each other seems to be a continuation of their initial acquaintance. Hu Lancheng works in Nanjing and goes back to Shanghai once a month for eight or nine days. Every time he goes back to Shanghai, he doesn't go home to the beautiful garden, but goes straight to Hurd Road to see Zhang Ailing first. Two people are together every day, whispering endlessly. But at that time, the world didn't understand their feelings, only thought that Hu Lancheng was a traitor, had a wife, and was almost old enough to be Zhang Ailing's father. The whole world feels that such love seems incredible, and they all feel sorry for Zhang Ailing. She doesn't think so.
Hu Lancheng understood Zhang Ailing, the nobility and elegance of her noble family background, and the concept of "eating, drinking and having fun" which resulted from her unfortunate childhood. Only this "understanding" may be the biggest reason why Zhang Ailing fell in love with Hu Lancheng. In fact, after careful analysis, Zhang Ailing is not a secular person, and she does not judge a person by secular values. She doesn't have any political opinions, but regards Hu Lancheng as a person who understands her, not a traitor of Wang Puppet Government. For Hu Lancheng's wife, she doesn't care, because she doesn't seem to think about things that will last forever. She said to Hu Lancheng in a letter, "I thought you could come and go with me in the future." Maybe she only cares about Hu Lancheng's love for her now, and she doesn't want to think about anything else. Hu Lancheng is much older than her, but this may be the reason why she loves him.
Zhang Ailing's lack of fatherly love from childhood makes it easy for her to have special feelings for older men. Therefore, age is not an obstacle. So, she loved him wholeheartedly and fell in love with him in the eyes of the world. Love is so extraordinary.
1in August, 944, Hu Lancheng's second wife filed for divorce from him. This gives the love between Zhang Ailing and Hu Lancheng a chance to sublimate-get married. They got married in this way, without legal formalities, only with a marriage certificate. Because Hu Lancheng was afraid that things would change in the future, her identity would drag on Zhang Ailing. There was no ceremony, only Yan Ying, Zhang Ailing's good friend, was the witness. "Hu Lancheng and Zhang Ailing signed a lifetime contract and got married. May the years be quiet and the world be stable. " The first two sentences were written by Zhang Ailing and the last two sentences were written by Hu Lancheng. In this way, their feelings have a solid and stable relationship-husband and wife.
This period is also the golden age of Zhang Ailing's creative career. Hu Lancheng is helpful to her writing, and they will discuss some literary topics together. And Zhang Ailing's essay "Love" begins by saying that it is a true story. It is indeed a true story, the story of Hu Lancheng's common mother. Maybe he inspired her creation. However, this time is not long.
Time is approaching the end of 44 years, and the situation is obviously changing. Japan's influence in China is deteriorating. As an official of Wang Puppet Government, Hu Lancheng also felt a sense of crisis. One evening, they watched the twilight in Shanghai on the balcony of Zhang Ailing's house. Hu Lancheng told her the current situation, fearing that she would be in trouble in the future. Although Zhang Ailing is not sensitive to politics, at the moment, she knows that this country is really connected with her home this time. There is a saying in Han Yuefu that "the future is a disaster, and your mouth is thirsty, so you should be happy today." It was at this moment that Zhang Ailing really realized the significance of these two poems. Hu Lancheng said, "If Japan is defeated in the future, I will probably be able to escape this robbery, that is, I am afraid I will remain anonymous for the first year or two, and we will not be together again." Zhang Ailing said with a smile, "At that time, if you changed your name, you could call it zhangqian or Zhang Zhao. I hold you and recruit you in the corner of the world. "
That's the real expectation! But the two are really going to separate! 1944 1 1 In June, Hu Lancheng went to Hubei to compile Da Chu Bao, and began his long-term separation from Zhang Ailing. It was a period of frequent alarms and air raids. One day, Hu Lancheng was bombed on the road, and the crowd was in a panic. He knelt on the tracks and thought he was going to die. In despair, he only shouted two words: Aileen! At this time, he is still completely in love with Zhang ailing.
But Hu Lancheng, after all, is an irresponsible person. Soon after he came to Wuhan, he had an indissoluble bond with Zhou Xunde, a nurse of Hanyang Hospital 17 years old. He didn't hide Zhang Ailing from Zhou Xiao, but he clearly told her that he wanted to marry her-just to be a concubine. But Zhou Xiao's biological mother is a concubine, and her reaction is that she can't be a concubine, and her daughter is also a concubine. So Hu Lancheng got married again, and seemed to completely forget the existence of Zhang Ailing. Zhang Ailing knows nothing about this. She wrote to him and told him all the trifles in her life. She still loves him so much.
1March, 945, Hu Lancheng returned to Shanghai from Wuhan. I lived in Zhang Ailing's place for more than a month. At this time, he talked about Zhou Xiao to Zhang Ailing. She was shocked because she saw her love for Hu Lancheng so firmly, but how could Xiao Zhou come out? At this point, Zhang Ailing's heart has been stabbed, but she still loves him. So she had to bear it silently. Two people together, Hu Lancheng is never mention Chou. Maybe he is such a person who only sees in front of him.
Unfortunately, in May, Hu Lancheng returned to Wuhan. As soon as I saw Zhou Xiao, I wanted to go home-he forgot Zhang Ailing again.
The situation is chaotic. 1945, 15 In August, the Japanese army surrendered and the end of Hu Lancheng came. Chongqing will certainly punish traitors like him. So he fled to Zhejiang, under a pseudonym, claiming to be the descendant of Zhang Peilun, Zhang Ailing's grandfather-if his surname is Zhang, he just doesn't call himself Zhang Qian or Zhang Zhao, and lives in Zhuji Temple.
My son Song De is a high school classmate of Hu Lancheng. When Hu Lancheng was young, he lived at home for a year. The master of homesickness died, and he made a living by his mistress. Our family also has an ordinary mother, Fan Xiumei, who is two years older than Hu Lancheng. She once had a daughter with our family. In such troubled times, the Si family arranged for Hu Lancheng to take refuge in Wenzhou Fan Xiumei's house, and Fan Xiumei saw her off. Only in this way, Hu Lancheng seduced Fan Xiumei again. Before arriving in Wenzhou, the two had become husband and wife, and they were also husband and wife to Fan Jia and his neighbors. Hu Lancheng, who just left Zhang Ailing and Zhou Xunde, is now with Fan Xiumei, showing his promiscuity!
However, Zhang Ailing, who had not seen for half a year, found her way to Wenzhou. The triangle relationship between these two women and a man can only be embarrassing anyway. Fearing that Fan Xiumei's neighbors might suspect their relationship, all three of them met at the hotel. One morning, Hu Lancheng and Zhang Ailing were chatting in a hotel, and their stomachs ached faintly, but he endured it. When Fan Xiumei came, she said that she felt sick at the sight of her. Fan Xiumei sat in a chair by the door, but asked how the pain was, saying that it would be good to make a cup of tea at noon later. Zhang Ailing is very disappointed at the moment, because she clearly thinks that Fan Xiumei is a relative of Hu Lancheng, but she seems to be a "third party" or a guest. On another occasion, Zhang Ailing praised Fan Xiumei for her beauty and wanted to draw her. This is Zhang Ailing's specialty. Fan Xiumei sat and let her draw it, while Hu Lancheng watched it. But as soon as she drew her face, she drew her eyebrows, eyes and nose. Suddenly, Zhang Ailing stopped drawing, saying that she didn't draw anything, but she looked very sad. After Fan Xiumei left, Hu Lancheng asked again and again. Zhang Ailing said, "I painted and painted, but I only felt that her eyebrows and mouth were more and more like you. I was shocked, and I couldn't draw any more after a while." This is what the world calls a portrait of husband and wife. Zhang Ailing is really wronged. There is only one man in her heart, but this man has several women in his heart. How can she not be sentimental
Hu Lancheng saw her off when she left Wenzhou. It rained, so it was a godsend. She sighed and said, "You won't. I thought that if I had to leave you, I wouldn't commit suicide, and I wouldn't love anyone else. I would just fade away. " Rain also washed away their once "love of the whole city". Zhang Ailing already knows that the most beautiful love in her life has come to a bitter end, and there is no room for redemption.
After eight or nine months, the two occasionally corresponded. Zhang Ailing will also help Hu Lancheng with her own payment, just for fear that he will suffer in exile.
On one occasion, Hu Lancheng had the opportunity to pass by Shanghai. In danger, he stayed at Zhang Ailing's residence for one night. Instead of confessing his promiscuity, he accused Zhang Ailing of mishandling some details of her life. I also asked her what impression she had on the article "Wuhan Ji" she wrote to Zhou Xiao, and mentioned her love affair with Fan Xiumei. Zhang ailing is very cold. That night, the two lived in separate rooms. The next morning, Hu Lancheng went to Zhang Ailing's bed to say goodbye and leaned over to kiss her. She held him tightly with both hands, and tears welled up in her eyes. In her sobs, she only called "Lan Cheng" and could not speak again.
This is the last time they met.
A few months later,1June, 947, Hu Lancheng received a farewell letter from Zhang Ailing: I don't like you anymore, and you don't like me anymore. This time, I thought about it for a year and a half. He just took a small sum of money at the right time and didn't want to add to your difficulties. Don't come to me, even if you write, I won't read it.
Xiaoji means petty robbery. At this time, Hu Lancheng out of danger, teaching in a middle school, have a stable job. When Zhang Ailing chose everything to be stable, she wrote a farewell letter, together with her own 300,000 manuscript fee. From then on, the two had a legendary love, so they made a painful curtain call. Hu Lancheng once wrote a letter to Yan Ying, Zhang Ailing's good friend, trying to save this relationship, but Zhang Ailing ignored him and Yan Ying ignored him. This relationship is really a curtain call. Zhang Ailing once said to Hu Lancheng: "I am weak." It is not only love that fades, but also literary talent. Since then, Zhang Ailing's creation has also entered a trough.
However, there is another story.
In the early 1950s, Hu Lancheng moved to Japan to live with She Aizhen, the widow of Shanghai rogue Wu Sibao. And Zhang Ailing has also left the mainland for Hong Kong. Hu Lancheng got the news and asked someone to visit her, but she didn't see her, so the man left Hu Lancheng's address in Japan. Half a year later, Hu Lancheng received a postcard without looking up or signing, only with familiar handwriting: If you have a book (except "Years of Mountains and Rivers"), can you borrow it for a few months?
Behind it is Zhang Ailing's address in the United States. Hu Lancheng was overjoyed, thinking that the old love could be reconciled, and thinking that Zhang Ailing still admired herself, she immediately wrote back to the address, with new books and photos attached. When the first volume of This Life was published, he sent a book and made a long letter as a lingering language. Zhang ailing never came back, and finally sent a note:
Lan cheng:
Your letter and book have been received. Thank you very much. I don't want to write, please forgive me. Because I really can't find references to your old works, I took the liberty of borrowing them from you. I'm really sorry if I misunderstood you. If you are not unhappy when the next volume of This Life is published, please send me a copy. Thank you in advance and don't write any more.
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Hu Lancheng a look, completely broken thoughts. At this point, this love really ended.
About this relationship, Zhang Ailing has never mentioned a word. We just need to do textual research from Hu Lancheng's Woman of the Republic of China. It doesn't matter whether this relationship is right or wrong.
As Zhang Ailing said at the beginning of The Golden Lock:
Thirty years ago, we might not have seen the moon. Young people think that the moon 30 years ago should be as red, yellow and wet as a copper coin, like a tear on Duoyunxuan stationery, old and confused. The moon recalled by the old people 30 years ago is happier, bigger, rounder and whiter than the one in front of them. However, looking back on this arduous road 30 years later, no matter how good the moon is, it is inevitably a little bleak.