When I was ten, my parents divorced. I live with my brother and my father. My brother is five years old and my father has no job. Every week when there is no rice or oil, my father forces me to ask my mother for living expenses. If I don't go, my father will beat me and scold me, saying that I am older than my brother. It is natural to ask for living expenses, so I have to.
When I went to ask for money, my mother scolded me every time, saying that I should stop asking her for money and ask my father for money. She has her own family. How could she give me so much money? Every time I finish scolding, I have to pay 50 yuan, and I look dirty.
I live with my brother and my father for 50 yuan a week, which is all the living expenses. Basically, I live on vegetables. When I feel better, I will buy some eggs. When there was not enough food, my father took us to steal food from other people's fields in the middle of the night and stole it several times. Once I was arrested and my father was beaten, so people ignored my father with two children. I was sour and scared. More shameful. At that time, he was eleven years old and his brother was six years old.
I spent my childhood in fear that one day there would be no living expenses and no tuition fees. I feel that my parents have never loved me, and their good thing is to raise me without any warm eyes. They thought it was a great gift to bring me up and send me to school, so that now I want to open my mouth and shut up to repay them.
They didn't participate in my childhood and adolescence, nor did they fulfill their parents' obligations, so I chose to break with them.
Isn't the result of breaking up just for a better life? On that day, I can't break my promise.
We haven't contacted each other until now. It's good. It feels good to be free!