In 2004, an online song named Lilac touched China. The author and singer of this song named Tang Lei is an online singer. The major media praised him as "the second bottom-up red singer in China after Dao Lang". However, did you ever know that behind this song, there is a more beautiful story than lilacs-"What a beautiful flower, but it can't escape the wind and rain" was once a girl from a bad industry. 1984 65438+1October 26th, she was born in Taishun Town, Wenzhou City, Zhejiang Province, and her father died shortly after landing. She was weak from childhood and soon fell ill. Mother had no choice but to send her to her uncle's house in Dazhou, Sichuan. After hospital examination, Meng Jie had severe pneumonia complicated with abscess. Although he was rescued, his right lung was necrotic. Since then, my uncle has adopted this little girl from a bad business. She calls her uncle "Dad" and her aunt "Mom". Every member of this family cares about Meng Jie. She takes many kinds of medicine every day, which is, in her own words, "barrel by barrel". In this way, she lived "barrel by barrel" to 12 years old.
1996 In the summer, my brother, who was studying in other places, went home to see the teacher of his alma mater. When he came back, he was caught in a thunderstorm. My brother called home for an umbrella. When Meng Jie knew this, he rushed into the downpour with an umbrella. I didn't expect this rain to push Meng Jie to the brink of death. That night, she kept coughing. When she coughed, she vomited blood, and when she coughed, she fainted. Her family immediately sent her to Chengdu for rescue, and her right lung was completely removed, making her an out-and-out disabled person. At that time, Meng Jie was already in junior high school in Dazhou No.1 Middle School, and she fully understood what was going on. She also learned her life story by accident. At first, she was desperate and sad for a long time. After a long time, she looked down on life. She knew she wouldn't live long. Originally quiet, she spent most of her time wandering in the ocean of books under the careful care of her mother. Meng Jie only went to school for half a day, but his grades were surprisingly good, not for anything else, but for "Mom and Dad" to live up to their upbringing. As for going to college, she said, "With the body of the ephemera, I can't pass the physical examination alone. What else can I talk about? " This congenital deficiency often makes her stand on the balcony for a long time, and her sad eyes are always moist. Especially after the results of routine inspection in Chengdu on August 5th, 2002, Meng Jie became more silent. Her chronic disease affected her heart. She knew that "that day" was coming, and she had heard the ticking of the countdown to life. Mom and dad are going to send her to Beijing for treatment, but she strongly disagrees. "Why are you so stubborn? Why not treat the disease? " "Mom" asked. "If you force me to treat the disease again, I will die!" The whole family are afraid to say a word. In fact, everyone understands Meng Jie's good intentions: she doesn't want to cause any more trouble to her family.
In the last few days of her life, Meng Jie couldn't go to school, so she had to stay at home. Hard times are as long as the horizon. My brother loves my sister very much, and Meng Jie's illness is the biggest pain in his heart. Every time he goes home on holiday, he dares not face his sister's sad eyes. My sister is so talented and caring, but she has no future-she is dying. He wants to do something for his sister to make her forget her illness and death. On September 4th, 2002, my brother bought a computer for Meng Jie with the money he earned from his summer job. He told his sister, "There is a colorful world in it. Go in and have a look. "
"What a melancholy flower, a sentimental person!" Meng Jie became a netizen. Maybe it's fate. The first time she surfed the Internet, she clicked on the Voice of Blue Sea and Silver Sand Network and came to the famous "Voice of American Literature" recitation hall. There are many reciting artists and lovers here, and many writers and poets also have columns here. Meng Jie fell in love with it at once, and liked the elegant and free atmosphere here. Meng Jie met Tang Lei by chance. At that time, Tang Lei had graduated from Shandong Institute of Building Materials Industry and was assigned to work in Shenshui Group. Engaged in music creation and performance in his spare time, he is an influential online singer among netizens. One day in June, 200 1, 10, he inadvertently came to the "Voice of American Literature", randomly chose a screen name "falling snow and flying flowers" and went in. As it happens, Meng Jie was inside, and his screen name immediately caught her attention. Meng Jie thought "Falling Snow and Flying Flowers" was beautiful, and immediately praised: "Your name is so poetic! Lightweight and free and easy, meaning superb! " Tang Lei was born proud. He may want to test her and ask, "Why? Where is the poetic expression? Where is lightness? Where is morality? " Meng Jie explained with a smile: "There is a saying in the Song Dynasty that' snow is like plum blossom, plum blossom is like snow, and similarities are different'. From the perspective of flat poetry, falling snow and flying flowers are flat, and the pronunciation is clear and clear, which can shock people's hearts and sounds good! Judging from the meaning of the word, this name is thought-provoking and very kind! " Tang Lei suddenly froze, half a day back to god. He naturally understands that there are many "experts" on the Internet, but no one has ever analyzed his pseudonym like Meng Jie. He looked at Meng Jie and wanted to scream loudly, but he couldn't find the right words. Meng Jie spoke again: "I like this feeling very much-such a beautiful scene. A falling snowflake is held in your hand. When you want to look closely, it will turn into a drop of water. It makes people feel palpitation and heartbreak. " From then on, Meng Jie and Tang Lei became friends who talked about everything. Once, Meng Jie and Tang Lei chatted and talked about her favorite flowers. She said she liked lilacs best, but Tang Lei didn't think so. Meng Jie told him that this is a purple flower, which is very beautiful and symbolizes love. Soon, Tang Lei said, "Why not give yourself a screen name? Just call it Lilac." This sentence suddenly awakened Meng Jie. In her life, there is often a dream, in which a beautiful little white horse will appear and keep calling her. Running all the way, a little white horse, brushed the world, bravely trotted to the west in the sunset, and finally the destination was a cemetery full of lilacs. This makes the name "Lilac" suddenly have a sad meaning. She likes the name very much. Since then, Meng Jie has become a lilac with beautiful sadness in the online world.
Lilacs became an expectation in Tang Lei's heart. Almost whenever he has time, he comes to the Voice of American Literature. When he sees lilacs, he will feel a kind of warmth inexplicably. But he never imagined that Lilac was a terminally ill patient, a dying life listening to the countdown of his life. He is still joking with Lilac, laughing and making Lilac laugh happily. In fact, her smile is fake. When the pain was unbearable, cold sweat dripped from her pale face, but she still forced a smile. In fact, Laila fainted in front of the computer many times and coughed up blood on the keyboard many times. Tang Lei also don't understand the meaning of clove, clearly talking, but suddenly cough up, and then inexplicably disappeared. On one occasion, Tang Lei was very unhappy. A record company agreed to sign with him, but it suddenly changed its mind and left him in the dark. He said a lot of grievances to lilacs, and finally asked a dozen "why". Lilac has been listening to his words with a smile and said nothing, but sent him a poem called "Grateful for Everything": "Be grateful to those who hurt you, because he honed your mentality; Be grateful to the person who stumbles you, because he strengthens your legs; Be grateful to those who cheat you, because he has improved your wisdom; Be grateful to those who despise you, because they awaken your self-esteem; Be grateful to the person who abandoned you, because he taught you independence. Be grateful for everything, learn to be grateful, and be grateful to all those who let you grow! " After reading this poem, it seems that a ray of sunshine passes through the window lattice, and Tang Lei's heart is suddenly enlightened. He suddenly had the idea of meeting this wonderful woman like "Lilac". He hurriedly asked where she was. Lilac smiled: "I am online." Tang Lei was helpless and asked, "How old are you?" "I'm as old as you thought." "Then you are an old woman, 80 years old." This sentence made Lilac silent and didn't answer for a long time. She was already in tears in front of the computer. She really wants to live to be 80 years old, even if she lives half of her life, but fate will not give her such a long time. The doctor asserted that she would not live beyond 20. In the later contact, Tang Lei obviously felt that this girl was unusual. When she often calls, she will suddenly stop talking. Tang Lei waited for a long time, QQ sent countless messages, UC also sent countless messages, but there was still no reply. And her QQ and UC have never been offline, and they are still bright there. Tang Lei vaguely felt that something important had happened. After that, lilacs didn't appear on the Internet for a long time and disappeared like a gust of wind. During this period, Tang Lei's singing creation gradually improved. On June 5438- 10, 2003, he represented Shenzhen in the National Campus Music Pioneer Original Song Competition, and also held a solo concert in Shenzhen Yuhua Music Western Restaurant. Record companies often contact him.
"The grave is full of flowers, how beautiful you long for." On October 27th, 2004/KLOC-0, at 65438, Lilac suddenly sent a greeting to Tang Lei on the Internet and asked him shyly where he was. At that time, Tang Lei was in Beijing, recording new songs in the studio. "I want to meet you." Tang Lei was surprised and asked where she was. "I am in the affiliated hospital of Peking University." Lilac is in Beijing? Still in the hospital? A sense of foreboding flooded Tang Lei's mind, and he hurriedly asked, "Are you sick?" "You saw me and everything was clear." Afterwards, Tang Lei learned that Lilac had come to Beijing to look for him. Originally, she did not agree with her parents to send her to Beijing for treatment. Later, she heard that Tang Lei went to Beijing to record songs, so she listened to her parents' wishes. In fact, when she arrived in Beijing, she just wanted to see Tang Lei in the last few days of her life. Meet in the ward full of lilacs, no hugs, no intimate greetings, no shyness at first sight. They shook hands like long-lost friends. Lilac pale face with a faint smile, beautiful eyes clear. Tang Lei looked at her, mixed feelings, heart has its own words, but I don't know where to start. Laila's mother quietly told Tang Lei that Laila was dying, and the doctor gave a critical notice, and death came in these days. Looking at Lila's smiling face and clear eyes, Tang Lei felt a pain in his heart. As if talking to herself, Laila comforted Tang Lei: "I'm not afraid to die for a long time. Today, everything is like water. I will go to heaven because I have your blessing and your song. " This sentence made Tang Lei burst into tears.
In the next few days, Tang Lei went to the hospital to visit Laila as soon as he was free. At that time, he was planning his first solo album, and many plans were not ideal, especially the title song of the album had not been made, and he was as busy as a bee. Laila is very distressed by Tang Lei and worried about him. She asked her father to go to the bookstore to buy many books, hoping to provide some inspiration for Tang Lei's brother. One day, she found a story in a couplet book. After reading it, she was very excited and called Tang Lei at once. She told the story in the book: In ancient times, a young scholar fell in love with a shopkeeper's daughter on his way to Beijing to take an exam, and they hit it off at once. I didn't expect the shopkeeper to scold her daughter for ruining the family style. The girl cried and said that they really loved each other and asked her father for help, but the shopkeeper refused. The girl was strong-willed and died immediately. The shopkeeper regretted it and buried his daughter on the back hillside. Soon, the girl's grave was covered with lush lilac trees, full of flowers and fragrant. The scholar was surprised and watered the flowers every day, never stopping, accompanied by lilacs all his life. After telling this story, Lilac cried, "Aren't you worried about the title song?" ? It's located on a sad and beautiful place, with flowers and people, accompanied by acoustic guitars, showing' melancholy',' dreams' and' feelings' ... In fact, simplicity is the best. "This sentence let Tang Lei wake up from a rude awakening. Yes, simplicity is the highest state. How nice it is to have an acoustic guitar, a campus folk song and a sad story! He grabbed Lila's hand in excitement and shouted, "You know me, Lila! The title song of my album is Lilac. I must write it down for you. "
In the long night, Tang Lei forced himself to calm down by a lonely lamp. His communication with Lila is as clear and broken as a black-and-white movie. He can't imagine a girl's mentality when she "hears the ticking of the life clock". Life should be bright for her, but she can only smile, calm, and even greet death a little casually. Thinking about thinking, Tang Lei's tears rolled down again and again. At dawn, Tang Lei was deeply moved and wrote a beautiful and mournful "Lilacs" in one breath:
You said that you love lilacs the most/because your name is it/what a melancholy flower/sentimental person/when the flowers wither/when the picture is frozen/what a delicate flower/but you can't escape the wind and rain/the ups and downs of life/how many beautiful dreams come to nothing/come in such a hurry/leave me with a lifelong concern/when the grave is full of flowers/watching the mountains and plains/are you still thinking?
Listen to a person singing your favorite ballad/What's the trouble between cities/Don't worry about it anymore/The days are full of lilacs/The most beautiful flowers are blooming/I'm here to accompany her/protect her for life.
The warm winter sun shone into the ward, and Tang Lei gently plucked the strings to sing for lilacs, touching each other's hearts. At that moment, the music calmed the sadness. "Lilac" was quickly recorded successfully, and the simple orchestration captured the hearts of the audience. Tang Lei put this song on the Internet, and it immediately became a hit. At that time, the whole Internet was lilacs, and "lilacs" became popular in China. When singing this song, the time came to February 2004 14. That night, the lilac in the hospital bed went into shock many times. Somehow, she heard the ticking of the life clock again. She knows that when tomorrow morning comes, the fresh sun no longer belongs to her. It turned out that she promised to let Tang Lei's brother hold his hand and go to Beijing Xishan to see lilacs. She said that the sound of lilacs blooming is the most spiritual song in the world. But she can't wait. In the middle of the night, after a severe cough, she sprayed a little blood on the sheets. She felt dark, weak and sweaty on her pale face. She said to Tang Lei, "... I have no strength ... I can't hold on, forgive me ..." Then she closed her eyes.
There is no wind outside the window, and the whole world seems silent. The moonlight is desolate, and the elegant little white horse in the dream growls and rushes to the cemetery full of lilacs. Lilac once said that she would write a lyric for Tang Lei's album. It was a love song, but she left in a hurry before she started writing. Before the funeral, Tang Lei wanted to touch Laila's beautiful face and comb her hair. When he finally stared at Lila, he found that there was still a crystal tear in the corner of her eye ... "Lilac, my album will be published soon. It's called lilac. Can you hear it in heaven? "