She learned to write when she was three years old. She thought the word "Mao" in her name was too difficult to write, so she removed it without authorization and claimed to be. Father corrected it several times to no avail, and finally followed her. "Then you can call Chen Ping."
Chen Ping likes reading since childhood. The Wandering of San Mao by Mr. Zhang Leping is the first book she read. Because she liked that naive Sanmao, she later gave herself the pen name "Sanmao".
Sanmao's maverick character was revealed at an early age.
When she was seven or eight years old, her parents took her to a photo studio to take pictures. She made a strange gesture in front of the camera-her feet spread out, like a clown in a movie. Shoulders tightly, without a smile on her face, revealing Yin Zhiqi's strange expression. Father wants to tear up this ugly photo, but San Mao doesn't agree. She pointed to the photo and stressed that this is the real her.
Composition assigned by primary school teachers: my ideal. San Mao handed in an article "I want to be a scavenger":
"Scavengers can breathe fresh air, they can wander and play in the street, play games while working, and be as free and happy as birds in the sky ..." The teacher was very angry after reading the article, so Sanmao had to follow the crowd and changed her ideal into a doctor.
But being a scavenger was indeed her most sincere wish at that time. Fortunately, her parents are very open-minded, democratic and knowledgeable, and they also give her a lot of tolerance and love.
For San Mao, scavenging is a kind of romance. She likes withered branches and leaves. When she saw someone digging a tree to build a house in the street, she felt sorry for the death of that tree and dragged the remaining roots back to collect them. Her parents didn't blame and laugh at her, but helped clean and dry, and then moved to her bedroom.
Sanmao likes all kinds of stones. When her parents go to the seaside, they will carefully select the most special stones and bring them back to her.
Sanmao, who grew up in love, was dazzled by the free and easy sunshine.
When Sanmao was in junior high school, he was seriously partial to subjects. He was good at Chinese and poor at math. She stumbled upon a trick to do well in math-almost all the questions given by the teacher are exercises after the math textbook, and you can get high marks by memorizing them. According to this trick, Sanmao scored six points 100.
The teacher thought Sanmao cheated in the exam and called her to the classroom to finish a new paper on the spot. Sanmao was blindsided when she saw the test questions. What should she do?
Sanmao got zero in the exam. The teacher decided that she was cheating and drew two big circles around her eyes with ink and brush, which means Sanmao only got a zero. That's not enough. Let her carry these two big circles around the playground. ...
Because of this, Sanmao got autism.
Unwilling to enter the classroom again, his parents had to let Sanmao drop out of school. By chance, she worshipped the painter Gu as a teacher and learned painting from him. Sanmao's painting talent is not high, but for her, Gu is a teacher who "polished my eyes and opened my way". Because of him, Sanmao walked out of autism and accidentally discovered her writing talent.
Writing made Sanmao complete a transformation, gave her romance, and made her more frank and brave than before.
After seven years' suspension from school in 2004, Sanmao, aged 19, returned to school and became an auditor in the Philosophy Department of the Culture University. At this time, she fell madly in love with Liang Guangming, the male god of drama department.
Just like a moth to a flame, San Mao follows Liang Guangming wherever he goes. But Liang Guangming is always cold and unresponsive to San Mao's kindness. Until the end of a banquet, San Mao took the initiative to boldly leave his phone number in the palm of his hand. They are in love. This love was hot and crazy, but it only lasted for three years. Three years later, because Liang Guangming refused to agree to marry Sanmao, Sanmao chose to break up.
In order to heal the pain in her heart, Sanmao went to distant Spain alone.
Why Spain? Just because she listened to a Spanish classical guitar record, the beautiful music aroused her endless reverie: blue sky, white clouds, sunshine, grass, houses with courtyards and endless vineyards. "I've been thinking about whether I should go once and get rid of the philosophical pallor."
In Spain and Madrid, Sanmao met the love of her life, Jose.
San Mao was 26 years old that year and was a junior at the University of Madrid. Jose 18 years old, senior three. When San Mao first met Jose, he thought he was a rare boy with handsome appearance and precious childlike innocence. The boy fell madly in love with her and said to her seriously and firmly: four years of college, two years of military service, six years later, I must marry you!
How can San Mao believe it? Think of it as a child playing. She introduced her real boyfriend to Jose. Jose was sad, but she left him alone.
In the following six years, Sanmao returned to Taiwan Province Province and talked about several boyfriends, but none of them succeeded. 1972, she met a German professor, and they fell in love and were going to get married. But her boyfriend had a heart attack and died in her arms on the eve of the wedding.
Broken-hearted San Mao returned to Madrid to heal, but reunited with Jose.
Sanmao: If you insist on that day, I will definitely compromise. I'm still a good person. I came back today with a broken heart. "
Jose: A broken heart can be stuck together.
Sanmao: There are still cracks after pasting.
Jose: Here's another one, made of gold. Take yours, let's change it! A broken heart and a heart made of gold are closely linked.
05 1973, Sanmao fell in love with the Sahara desert because of the attraction of a geography magazine. "I found my homesickness like a memory of my past life in a trance and felt that I should give myself to that strange land."
When she told her friends about her desire for that land, everyone objected to her going. Only Jose, he didn't say anything.
Jose disappeared for a long time, and then sent a letter to Sanmao, which wrote: I have found a job and rented a house in the Sahara.
Jose, a senior diver by profession, will have a decent job and a high salary if he stays in Spain. But Jose has a big advantage. What San Mao did was crazy to others, but it was taken for granted to him.
True love in the world is generally like this. I will try my best to give you what you want. Even if others think I am too impulsive, too risky and too naive.
Sanmao and Jose are married. Their wedding in the Sahara desert is also an anecdote.
On the wedding day, Jose trimmed his beard and wore a dark blue shirt. Sanmao let her hair hang freely, wearing a light blue linen dress and a wide-brimmed straw hat. There was no lace on the straw hat, so she went to the kitchen and pinned a handful of coriander on her hat.
So they went to the town to get married. There are only two small figures under the endless yellow sand and boundless sky.
Jose wants to give Sanmao a wedding present. He took out the box in his hand, and Sanmao guessed while holding the box: "Is it a flower?"
Where can I buy flowers in the desert? Jose was a little injured, but the next second he heard Sanmao scream, "camel skull!" " "
Pale bones are piled together, and a row of teeth are twisted. If other women see this skeleton, they will be frightened, but Sanmao is very happy. She asked where Jose came from, and Jose said that he came from the desert to "scavenge", which is San Mao's favorite thing to do.
Sanmao later wrote in the book: I didn't love him madly before I got married, but when I got married, I had such great confidence that I put my hand in his hand. Later, I found that my decision was right.
San Mao and Jose's home, called home, is actually just a shabby little house, opposite a huge garbage dump. There is not even a decent piece of furniture in the room. The floor is concrete and uneven, and the wires are full of flies. ...
San Mao is still a romantic after all, and all the desolation has inspired her love for life.
Use the picked-up car tires to lay flat on the mat, with a red cloth mat inside, just like a bird's nest;
Abandoned soda bottles, painted with patterns similar to India;
Rotten sheepskin, pickled with salt and alum, becomes a mat;
There is still a lack of green plants at home. She and Jose sneaked into the low wall of the Governor's Office at night and risked their lives to dig five flowers and bring them back. ...
Once, San Mao and Jose saved a reporter whose car was stuck in the desert. The reporter went home afterwards to thank him.
When he walked into San Mao and Jose's home, he couldn't help sighing: "Oh, my God! Are we in the Sahara? Oh, my God! "
"This is the most beautiful desert family I have ever seen."
Sanmao and Jose lived together in the Sahara desert for six years, which was steaming and wonderful.
Sanmao has read some books on traditional Chinese medicine, and the small medicine bag she carries with her makes her a famous doctor in the desert. Can you imagine her filling her neighbor's teeth with nail polish?
The two spent 40 yuan watching others take a bath and were almost regarded as perverts; Run to the seaside 100 kilometers to pick up the fish and sell it on the street; On a whim, he went to the desert to look for fossils. Jose is not mired in the mire. Sanmao went to ask for help but was almost raped by three strange men. In the end, they escaped from danger and rescued Jose. They even agreed to look for fossils the next day. ...
Looking at the lives of San Mao and Jose, you can't help feeling that some people live a day, which is really 61 or 10 years later than your step-by-step nine.
On one occasion, Sanmao's parents came to visit them. Sanmao nervously does his homework for Jose: According to China tradition, you should call them parents. Jose, a westerner, thinks it is disgusting to call his parents. He should call them by their names. After Sanmao's parents came, Jose was very stiff and didn't know what to call or say.
San Mao was washing dishes in the kitchen at night when he suddenly heard Jose say to his father, "Dad, can you tell Echo to let me buy a motorcycle?"
Sanmao couldn't help crying.
The word "affectionate" is the most appropriate word to describe San Mao Jose. 1979 On September 30th, Jose died unexpectedly while diving.
The heart made of gold has completely fallen.
"Every time I miss you, a grain of sand falls from the sky, and the Sahara has been formed since then." With Jose gone, San Mao's thoughts and pains become endless.
She often thinks of a scene. At that time, she and Jose lived on an island in the Atlantic Ocean, which coincided with their unemployment and financial difficulties. When there was a street in the sky, Jose secretly bought her a bunch of lilies to surprise her. But Sanmao lost control and shouted, "What time is it? What economic ability? Are you still going to buy flowers? ! "
Seeing the lilies in the coming season, Sanmao seemed to see her husband bending down to pick up the flowers on the ground.
She said, "I won't scold you if you send flowers in the next life."
Perhaps since childhood, the preference for scavenging has already predicted that Sanmao's fate in this life is wandering. San Mao thought that since there was no Jose, he would travel around Qian Shan alone.
She regards vagrancy as the process of finding the final destination.
Through the northwest wilderness, through rainy Mexico, through the majestic Machu Picchu, through the wild Argentina ... Sanmao's life, around the earth 15 weeks, footprints all over the world in 59 countries.
Well, my wife used to have one. Now, although heaven and man are separated forever, love is eternal. Qianshan has traveled all over the country, and few people can be so free.
Love and freedom are San Mao's lifelong pursuits, and she has also realized them.
San Mao once said to his sister Sophie, "Sister, your life has been in vain, and my life is ten times as long as yours."
For her in the world, this time she walked vigorously and drizzled.
So her departure is also certain. 199 1 year 65438+1October 2, Sanmao hanged himself on the hook of the drip stand in the hospital with nylon stockings.
10 writer Liang Yusheng commented on San Mao: Some nouns with beautiful meanings become vulgar when used too much. Talented people and talented women walking around the street is an example, as is the strange girl who frequently appears on the screen. Originally, I didn't want to put this tacky title on Sanmao, but there is no more suitable description. Let's call her a strange girl. The positive meaning of "strange" should be "maverick". According to Ci Hai's explanation, it is also called noble and unwilling to go with the flow.
The strange girl Sanmao only lived to be 48 years old. But she was loved and spontaneous all her life. The world of mortals was thrown into the vast sand sea by her, and her heart was always sincere and naive.
This short life is worth several lives of others.