It is widely rumored that Ji Xianlin Ji Lao's "Tsinghua Garden Diary" does not seem to be written by a generation of Chinese studies masters, but more like the gossip of hooligans and angry youths.
The words he used were not shy. When his manuscript was not published, he wrote, "My manuscript hasn't been published yet, damn it." It all hurts." Under the stimulation of hormones, the boy's unabashed thought "I just hope I can have more women" shows us a young, frivolous, restless and rebellious Ji Xianlin.
Long before the manuscript was published, the editor felt that this part was somewhat inappropriate and asked Mr. Ji for advice on whether it should be deleted.
Ji Lao refused.
He later recounted, ""Should these words be deleted? I thought about it and decided not to delete it. I kept it as it was without deleting a word. I was not a saint seventy years ago, I am not a saint today, and I will not become a saint in the future. I don’t want to go to the Confucius Temple and eat cold pork with me. I exposed myself to the broad daylight."
Mr. Ji didn't seem to worry at all about "not being able to guarantee his safety at the end of the festival". He brought his young self naked to the public, letting everyone see Ji Xianlin who could say dirty words, do stupid things and be embarrassed. For this reason, everyone was very tolerant of the occasional inappropriate and inappropriate words and deeds in the diary, and only praised Ji Xianlin for not being pretentious, not trying to be a saint, but for being himself.
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If the realm of life is divided into three levels, the first level is the pursuit of utility, "seeking profit requires the benefit of the world, seeking fame requires fame in the world"; the second level is the pursuit of virtue, " There are tens of thousands of vast buildings, and the poor people in the world will all be happy." The third level is to seek oneself, to have a clear and magnanimous mind, "to be free from all things, and to be content all year round." Then Ji Lao, who refuses to eat cold pork without deleting or subtracting, must be the third level.
Ji Lao himself has exported many excellent ideas and works, and has been called a "national treasure" and "a leading figure", but he is not limited to these titles. He was not a saint seventy years ago, but now When you become a master, you don't hide your true feelings, and you don't want to be a fake defender.
Don’t be burdened by external things, don’t be trapped by fame, and don’t want to set up any persona for yourself. Because Ji Lao understands that everyone has a mundane side. A true self that is free to laugh, curse and scold is the most real, and a person is valuable because of his authenticity.
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It is not easy to avoid deleting or changing, keeping all the true characters, just the eight characters. We always oscillate between the eyes of others and our true selves, fearing what others say and trying to gain a good reputation and good image.
A friend’s colleague, with a salary of 4,000 yuan, buys “famous brand” bags and wears the same styles as Internet celebrity stars. Every selfie in the circle of friends takes a long time to post. The breakfast pictures must be milk and bread. Served with a few pieces of fruit, the soy milk she drank and the pancakes she bought never had the chance to appear on camera, because these detracted from the style.
Recently, she was renovating her home, and she was thinking about how to look tall and not lose the battle. Her friend advised her to just live in a comfortable house by herself. Not so for that colleague, because she needs to be perfect, excellent, and flawless at all times.
In the hearts of these people, the real self is disgusting to the point of self-loathing. Seriously, as long as other people are around, he can't be himself. He is always vigilant and perfect, like a clockwork actor, wearing a mask and working tirelessly.
Acting perfect in your own world, but the truth is hidden. A person who is good at disguising himself may flatter everyone and be liked by everyone, but at the same time he is also afraid of being exposed.
3
Crab, Owl and Bat felt that they had many bad habits, so they went to bad habits cram school together. They study very hard and pass many exams. A few years later, they all successfully graduated and received doctorates.
However, crabs are still rampant, owls still sleep during the day and are active at night, and bats still hang upside down.
Some things cannot be changed, and some things do not need to be changed. It is better to accept yourself. Just like someone who speaks with a local accent, you can learn Mandarin, but there is no need to deny yourself the dialect.
In the popular drama "Hello, Old Time", there is a transfer student named Xin Meixiang. When she first came to school, her English with a strong local accent made people laugh. Yu Zhouzhou, a child from the city, taught her the "Protagonist Game", which basically means that if you work hard, the people around you will like you, and then you will be the protagonist.
So Xin Meixiang changed her Western name to Xin Rui, tried her best to imitate Yu Zhouzhou, studied hard like her, treated people like her, and liked the same boy, but in the end she was still unhappy. She asked Yu Zhouzhou: Why did I do it like you, why am I still jealous? Yu Zhouyi put it bluntly: The protagonist's game is to be yourself, but you have even lost Xin Rui.
Why can’t you accept your truest self? Rather than being like a thief and enjoying the moment of satisfaction obtained by pretending, it is better to be calm.
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Like Ji Lao, face yourself frankly and sincerely, and become noble after being satisfied. It's not like Xin Rui, although she works hard, she still can't be the protagonist of others and even loses herself.
Ryunosuke Akutagawa once said, “If I delete any moment in my life, I cannot become who I am today.
"Similarly, if you hide the traces of your past life, your life will not be truly complete; people who are unwilling to mention the past are essentially unwilling to accept their current selves. People who are unwilling to accept themselves are destined to miss the protagonist.
Ji Lao understands better than many people that he can delete or keep these things. He chose to keep them without changing them, allowing us to see his arrogance, arrogance and the petty tricks every boy has through hormones.
As said in "Amore's Tea Time", "The ultimate in being a human being is to be the best version of yourself. So, if I still can't make you like me today, then I'm sorry. Because I'm just learning to be the best version of myself, and I won't make do with others at will during this period."
The best thing about Ji Lao is that he can hide those rash and frivolous things without doing so. In modification Between living your life for others to see and being yourself without any details, choose the latter, have the courage to do things, and have great wisdom in life. This is what Mr. Ji is, and each of us should have such awareness and self-confidence.
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Someone said: "Never say things that cannot be said publicly, and never post comments that cannot be made publicly. Even in private, you never know when it will be made public, and having your true thoughts seen by others is even more terrifying than being exposed. "
Of course, no one is perfect, and I am not a saint. It is indeed difficult to expose your true self to the sun for others to talk about. But I still hope that you will face yourself and accept who you were. , whether you are ignorant or embarrassed; be kind to who you are now, be brave and peaceful, and stretch freely and truly in your own position.