After Lu Xiaoman's death, his stepson received a letter, replying to three reasons, leaving his stepmother with nowhere to die.

195 1 year, Weng's wife Chen died, and his eldest daughter Weng Xiangguang ran to Lu Xiaoman's house with red eyes.

When he entered the room, he saw his father Weng Wurui. Weng Xiangguang couldn't restrain his anger and shouted at his father, "Why didn't you divorce your mother earlier? If she divorced early, she could still find a good family and live comfortably for a few years! "

Weng Wurui stood there and made no answer. Looking at the father and daughter standing silently, Lu Xiaoman, dressed in plain clothes, stood by, embarrassed and didn't know how to deal with it.

Without an answer from his father, Weng Xiangguang turned to Lu Xiaoman angrily and asked, "Why are you clinging to my father? Why? Why? Go ahead! You say it! "

These questions have been buried deep in Weng Xiangguang's heart for 20 years. Now that my mother has died alone, she can't consider her seniority, just want to ask the truth for her poor mother.

193 1 year, she is only 12 years old. Newspapers and tabloids in Shanghai all reported the news that the poet Xu Zhimo died by plane in a prominent position.

She knew it was her father's friend, but she didn't expect that the death of this friend would completely disturb her home.

At that time, in order to marry Xu Zhimo, pregnant Lu Xiaoman did not hesitate to abort Wang Geng's child and signed a divorce agreement. However, the abortion operation made Lu Xiaoman lose her fertility and left the root of the disease.

Worried about Lu Xiaoman's health, Xu Zhimo prayed to heaven again and again in his married diary, and asked people to look for famous doctors everywhere.

When he learned that Weng Wurui was a disciple of Ding Fengshan, the founder of Yizhichan Tuina, and his medical skills were brilliant, he invited him to treat his wife at home.

Lu Xiaoman fainted several times, but Weng Wurui arrived in time and saved her from danger. To this end, Xu Zhimo thanked Weng Wurui very much and made friends with him.

In addition to his excellent medical skills, Weng Wurui likes to sing Peking Opera and Kunqu Opera, and he shares the same interests with Lu Xiaoman. The two often discuss opera together and perform together.

1927 65438+On February 6th, the famous drama "Yu Tang Chun" was staged at the Summer Park Cinema on Jing 'an Temple Road in Shanghai. In this play, Lu Xiaoman's civilian and Weng's Shanshanlv went through a lot of hardships and finally tied the knot. Xu Zhimo, who doesn't understand traditional Chinese opera, went on stage as a walk-on to please his wife.

Tang Ying, a Shanghai celebrity, commented that Lu Xiaoman's performance that day was excellent in both dressing and singing.

Writer Chen Xiaodie called Weng Wurui fresh and elegant, and praised his tacit cooperation with Lu Xiaoman for making the stage colorful.

Compared with Weng Wurui and Lu Xiaoman, Xu Zhimo is much inferior. In that month, Shanghai Pictorial even commented that Xu Zhimo walked like a robot, which made people laugh.

Xu Zhimo didn't take gossip to heart. He believes that there is love between husband and wife and affection between friends. Since the love between men and women is so different, a husband should not forbid his wife to have a boyfriend.

193 1 year1September 19, Xu zhimo went to Beiping to attend Lin's lecture. Because he was worried about Lu Xiaoman's health, he specially asked Weng Wurui to take good care of Lu Xiaoman before he left.

I didn't think about it. This entrustment became Xu Zhimo's last concern.

A few days later, the news came that Xu Zhimo died in an air crash. Lu Xiaoman was so sad that he fainted on the spot. Yu Dafu still remembers this scene deeply after many years. He said that Lu Xiaoman, who received the bad news of Xu Zhimo, saw the deepest sadness, that is, he froze for an instant, followed by crying.

You woke up, Lu Xiaoman was in tears, struggling to pick up Xu Zhimo's body.

However, she has been weak. At this time, she has collapsed to the difficulty of walking, and her family members have come forward to discourage her. Finally, Zhang Youyi, Xu Zhimo's ex-wife, arranged for Xu Jikai, Xu Zhimo's son, to pick up the body.

After going to Lu, Weng also rushed to the scene of the air crash on behalf of Lu Xiaoman to help the Xu family arrange the funeral.

Chui fook blamed Lu Xiaoman for his son's death and refused her to attend the memorial service. She can only silently send elegiac couplet.

Since then, Xu Jiaren has almost cut off contacts with Lu Xiaoman, while Xu Zhimo's friends have a lot of resentment towards her before his death, and less and less contact with her. Lu Xiaoman has fallen into an unprecedented isolation.

Lu Xiaoman didn't want to argue, so he closed the door and silently endured criticism and supercilious look.

When Weng returned to Shanghai, Lu Xiaoman, who was in Izek, was weak and in a trance. He was only accompanied by friends such as Qian Shoutie, Li and Li. He visited her every day to treat her, carefully enlightened her, and stayed at home at night.

As for how the two men developed into a cohabitation relationship, Chen Julai later recalled that one day, when the car broke down, Weng slept in the smoke on the second floor of Lu Xiaoman's house. Since then, whenever it is inconvenient to go home late at night, he sleeps on the second floor and the smoke collapses.

When Xu Zhimo was alive, Weng Wurui lived on the second floor. Lu Xiaoman got used to it, so he went back to the bedroom on the third floor alone and let him sleep on the second floor.

Weng Wurui and Lu Xiaoman think they are very open-minded, but Lu Xiaoman is too famous. Their cohabitation has become a hot topic after dinner. Xu Zhimo's father, Xu Shenru, was so angry that he warned Lu Xiaoman to stop monthly funding.

After receiving the warning from Xu Shenru, Weng Wurui was furious and moved to the third floor. Since then, Weng Wurui has taken full care of Lu Xiaoman's life while supporting his wife and five children.

Every time Lu Xiaoman is ill, he is a doctor's servant, taking medicine and decocting medicine, and serving tea and water.

She has something she wants to eat, even if she has to stand in the hot sun and cold wind, he will queue up to buy it home.

She doesn't drink milk, only human milk. He invited her back to her wet nurse.

She was determined to learn painting, and he spent a lot of money to hire a famous teacher for her.

When she was short of money, in order to maintain a high-quality life, she did not hesitate to sell the calligraphy and painting antiques handed down by her ancestors.

If companionship is the most lasting confession, then Weng Wurui is absolutely infatuated with Lu Xiaoman.

However, Xu Zhimo has become the Zhu Shazhi of Lu Xiaoman, and Weng's deep affection is doomed to be wasted.

Although Weng Wurui lived in Lu Xiaoman's house and took good care of her, Lu Xiaoman insisted on sharing a room and sleeping in different beds, and made three rules with him: never abandon his wife and never marry himself.

During the period of cohabitation, there were photos of her and Xu Zhimo in different periods in her reception room, but none of them belonged to Weng Wurui. Her bedroom has always been hung with a huge portrait of Xu Zhimo, and a bouquet of flowers is presented every day.

Determined to live the life that Xu Zhimo expected, she lived in seclusion, immersed herself in painting and lived in plain clothes all her life.

For the rest of her life, her only concern is compiling the complete works of Xu Zhimo. In order to collect all Xu Zhimo's works, she dragged her seriously ill body, wrote letters to Xu Zhimo's relatives and friends over and over again, visited the library and looked for collectors.

She once wrote in an article that in several serious illnesses, the belief that supported her to live was to see with her own eyes the works that condensed Xu Zhimo's life's hard work and published into a book.

After living together for 30 years, Lu Xiaoman's affair with Weng has been talked about by the outside world, but Lu Xiaoman thinks he is aboveboard: "I saw everything I did, and Mo Chi will understand me and won't blame me. Love is not true, not in the face, mouth, but in the heart. In the underworld, in my sleep, I seem to see and hear the praise of Zhimo. "

Lu Xiaoman was immersed in the memory of Xu Zhimo, ignoring Weng Wurui's deep affection for himself.

Weng Wurui ignored it for many years and finally betrayed Lu Xiaoman in his later years.

After the 1950s, a female student came to learn painting from Lu Xiaoman. Because they hit it off, Lu Xiaoman recognized the female student as his adopted daughter. Female students call Lu Xiaoman "mother" and Weng Wurui "father". Unexpectedly, Weng Wurui and her adopted daughter came together and got her pregnant.

After the female student became pregnant, her mother made trouble at home, and Lu Xiaoman was indifferent. When others talked about it, she simply said that she only had feelings for Weng Wurui as a friend, without love or jealousy.

196 1 year, Weng Wurui died of lung cancer. Before he died, he still couldn't let go of Lu Xiaoman. He specifically asked her friends Zhao Qingge and Zhao Jiabi to take care of Lu Xiaoman in the future.

Weng Wurui's children think that their father gave everything to Lu Xiaoman and should be at home in Lu Xiaoman.

Lu Xiaoman refused the Weng family's request and explained:

"Weng Wurui appeared in my house because Zhimo wanted him to treat me. He lived in my house for 23 years to treat me. Weng Wurui is a good friend of my husband Xu Zhimo. I am embarrassed to drive him away, so we are only living together at most, not husband and wife. "

Lu Xiaoman's seemingly heartless response is actually due to his frankness and disdain for disguise. For her, only Xu Zhimo is her husband, and no one can replace her.

Countless talented people admire her frankness, but she is therefore difficult to be understood by the world.

After the death of Weng Wurui, who understood her, Lu Xiaoman was completely lonely.

Although she is now a full-time painter in the Shanghai Painting Academy, and has been rated as a "March 8th" red flag bearer by the National Artists Association, she has lived as a bad karma woman as Xu Zhimo expected, but when she met Wang Yingxia in the street, she claimed that she was living in loneliness as deep as the sea.

1964 During the Mid-Autumn Festival, Lu Xiaoman was admitted to Shanghai Huadong Hospital for emphysema and asthma. The next spring, her condition deteriorated and she coughed badly.

In her last days, she often said, "I often dream of Zhimo, and we will meet again soon!" " "

As a result, she died in April.

On her deathbed, she handed the manuscript of Complete Works of Xu Zhimo to her cousin Chen Congzhou, and never forgot to be buried with Xu Zhimo.

When he died, Lu Xiaoman was wearing a broken cotton-padded jacket with cotton wool exposed. Zhao Qingge, a good friend, can't stand it. When she died, she put on a new set of silk clothes and trousers, retaining her last dignity.

What is even more unexpected is that Lu Xiaoman, who was famous before his death, was particularly deserted in front of the mourning hall. Besides the closest relatives, there is only one friend, Chen Julai, and only one pair of elegiac couplets is given by her students.

After the funeral, her cousin Zhuang Chi wrote to Xu Zhimo's son Xu Jikai, hoping to fulfill Lu Xiaoman's last wish and be buried with Xu Zhimo.

Xu Jikai quickly wrote back and refused, and listed three reasons for refusing:

First, my grandfather never accepted Lu Xiaoman as Xu's daughter-in-law.

Second, my father said goodbye to Lu Xiaoman for the last time, and there was a fierce quarrel. Their feelings are not harmonious.

Third, Lu Xiaoman and Weng Wurui have lived together for many years. Even if my late father were alive, their marriage would not last long.

In the end, Lu Xiaoman was not buried immediately after being cremated, but wrote a number and name on the urn and kept it in the funeral home. Since then, due to years of unclaimed, the funeral home has moved several times, and her urn has gradually disappeared.

China has been paying attention to burying people in graves since ancient times, and "bad fate" can be regarded as the most vicious curse.

Lu Xiaoman, who had a charming smile, was once a peerless beauty who surprised the whole Republic of China, but she ended up in a bad end. This fate is so absurd that anyone will feel sad.

Many years later, the Lu clan tried to find Lu Xiaoman's urn, but it was too old to find it.

Until 1988, her cousins Lu Zongdan, Lu Zongqi and Lu jointly built a memorial tomb in Suzhou Dongshan Overseas Chinese Cemetery. Everything she used before her death was put in the tomb, and a generation of beautiful women finally got a home.

Her tomb is located in an inconspicuous corner of the cemetery, surrounded by mosses and weeds, and the tombstone scrawled "Lu Xiaoman menstruation Memorial Tomb".

She was like a burning rose before her death, with countless admirers, but after her death, she was only surrounded by moss, which seemed a little shabby.

However, since she can't be buried with her beloved, I think she would rather be as quiet and unobtrusive as this moss, just like after Xu Zhimo's death, she wore white clothes and closed the door, thanking her guests for a lifetime.

Wen | An Xin