to be honest, most of us who go out to work don't want to go back to the countryside, but we can't get a firm foothold in the city. It's really a dilemma.
Sometimes I want to go back to my hometown. After all, my parents are here. I want to find a boy who is honest and dutiful in ten miles and eight villages, so that I will live in my hometown all my life. Taking care of parents, looking after men and taking good care of children will be a complete life.
But such a man is really hard to find. Most boys my age have gone out to work, and there are basically only old people and children left in the village. Sometimes I feel uncomfortable when I go home. To find a husband's family closer to their parents, they usually come halfway through work. Many sisters come out to work and meet their fellow villagers. They think it is appropriate and talk about it almost, so they go back to get married.
I was born in the countryside after the 198s. My parents were very kind to our brothers and sisters. I had food, drink and clothes since I was a child. Although I can't say that I ate well and dressed well, I never went hungry. Considering that my father is still very capable and my mother is very virtuous, she just brought up all three sisters.
When I was a child, I was naughty. Like a boy, I played together and went crazy every day. Childhood is always carefree and innocent. Now think about it, the happiest and happiest years are those of childhood.
From school to junior high school graduation, it's also ordinary. Parents always say that they should study hard, and they can only talk about it. As for whether they can study in it, there's nothing they can do. Study hard, where can I listen to this? I am not sensible and playful. The teaching level in the town is also average. Anyway, only one or two students who have been admitted to the county high school after nine years of compulsory study.
Most students go their separate ways after graduating from junior high school. Those who especially don't want to study, follow their relatives outside and go out to work in Fujian, Guangdong Province. They are under the age of 18 and can only go to black factories or service industries. Some female students stop studying, and some stay at home. Matchmakers pull strings and are generally engaged.
Half of the female students enter the town's high schools. Few people in the town's middle schools are admitted to universities regardless of their study style or enrollment rate, with hundreds of them. Every year, there are more than a dozen undergraduate courses in the college entrance examination, mostly higher vocational colleges.
Many boys and girls began to fall in love, and several couples around them got married as soon as they graduated from high school, and then went out to work together. There are happy people and unhappy people.
I also fell in love for no reason, and then I broke up after graduating from high school. Some people stopped studying when I was in Grade One and Grade Two, and basically went out to work. I don't want to study early, too. My grades are average and my appearance is average. I can only wait until I graduate from high school.
I want to study. I also know that knowledge can change my destiny. Reading is the only way out, but I just can't read it and don't want to read it.
I went to school every day in a daze, and I drifted off to Grade Two. Being deeply hurt by the boy I love, I don't want to study, I don't want to get married in my hometown, I want to go out and see the outside world. I contacted my classmates who had gone out before, but my father didn't agree. In any case, he asked to graduate from high school.
The temptation of high school is also great. Seeing that some junior high school students are married and have children, some live happily, and find a good husband's family, my husband is somewhat envious of himself.
The students who went out to work in the early days came back lavishly, saying that they had found a lot of money. The outside world is wonderful, and there are many wonders in it. They feel that they want to see the outside world, too.
A few female students who play well are similar to me. They try their best to study and finish their homework according to the teacher's requirements, and their grades are the same, just so-so. At that time, I thought it would be just so-so. Anyway, it is not easy to get into their circle if you can't win the exam and get good grades.
People despise each other. Those with good grades look down on us. We look down on those with worse grades. Anyway, they are all in their own circles.
My parents have never forced me to get married, although my mother occasionally mentioned that all the daughters in a certain family are married and have a good life, so I don't want my parents to worry about such things at all.
I also want to get married quickly. If I am lucky, I will marry a good husband's family, which will also save a lot of parents' worry and work. I have been obedient since I was a child, and I do whatever my parents say. Although they haven't finished junior high school, I think they are all for the good of our three sisters. However, my father thinks that I am only eighteen years old, and he also supports me if I want to go out to work. It is good to go out and broaden my horizons.
It is reasonable to say that the whole family is similar. The same parents have the same family and environment. Later, my younger brother and sister love reading, and they are all good. I haven't figured this out yet.
I can only say that I am not the material for reading, and I am used to being lazy at the beginning. Although I am still sensible, I may have no talent or interest in reading.
I came out with my relatives and took a long-distance bus to Shenzhen for more than ten hours. Due to the introduction of my relatives, I was arranged to do "screw" work on the assembly line. Later, I moved to my classmates, fellow villagers and the last person to find a job alone. I have done a lot of things in these years.
The company has arranged a dormitory with eight people. Because the morning and evening shifts are staggered, there are four people for a long time. Like the flowing water seats in the countryside, people come and go noisily, most of them come from all corners of the country without fixed rest time. At first, they all chatted in a dark place, and everyone's situation was similar. They didn't like reading, so they came out, and slowly they didn't have many languages in common.
The turnover of people is too fast. They just tried to have a heart-to-heart talk with a girl. They either went to other factories or found boyfriends, and some of them went straight back to their hometown to get married.
The work in the assembly line is very tiring, and the basic salary is too low. If you don't work overtime, you will get very little money, but you don't care if a person is full and the whole family is not hungry. When they don't work overtime, women with families will complain. They are willing to work overtime every day, so that they can pay more to subsidize their families.
There are too few cases of not working overtime at first. I work for more than ten hours every day and go to bed at the end of work. Every day, I streamline my dormitory life at two o'clock and have no time to play in the city. On holidays, I go shopping together to buy clothes, pants and daily necessities.
In the first year, except for my usual pocket money, I didn't have any big expenses. Most of the money was sent back to my parents, and my mother said that she wouldn't touch any of my money, so she saved it for me. I called them to my younger brothers and sisters, which also lightened their burden. My father was very stubborn, and he couldn't open the pot at home many times, but his mother was still not allowed to touch the money. Later, I simply gave it to my brother and sister, the family, and I came out, which can reduce their burden.
After a long time, this kind of work will make people lose their temper, and when they are almost 2 years old, they will start to be restless. In the first year, when I went back for the Spring Festival, I sold a big box. My grandparents, old and young, brought gifts back.
With some money, my heart began to stir up, so I worked day and night all the year round, working in the night shift for a long time, and suddenly I felt so miserable and lonely outside, and I began to feel homesick and didn't want to go out.
Mother began to sound out whether she had a boyfriend and when to get married. I was a little panicked. I didn't want to do assembly line work since the second year, and I had little chance to meet boys, let alone meet the right one. At this time, several boys in my hometown also had this meaning and idea for me. I talked with one of them for several months, and we all planned to go back and get married together, and then we broke up for various reasons.
Sisters who work together usually work for a period of time, find a suitable boyfriend, and after talking about it, the two of them go back to get married, and the woman gives birth and takes care of the children at home, and the man goes out to work alone. When the children are about the same age, they will be left to the elderly, and the two will come out together, earn three or two years, go back to repair the house and settle down the children and the elderly. Life will get better and better, and when the conditions are better, the wife can take care of the children and support the elderly at home.
If you meet a man with a bad personality, it's mostly girls. Many older sisters who work together are unfortunate. They have given birth to several children to men, lived apart for a long time, and had many family conflicts. Women are at home, and men are also eating, drinking, whoring and gambling outside. What can I say? There are both good and bad men.
I slowly learned to dress up and make up, know how to tidy myself up, and learned some skills of dressing and matching. It's really an old saying: there are no ugly women, only themselves who can't dress up.
Don't tell me. When you dress up beautifully, the rate of turning around is higher, and more boys ask me for my phone number. There was a time when losing weight was popular among girls. I lost dozens of pounds without eating or drinking, and even my face looked good when I was thin.
Well, that's too much. It's far from the point. I've probably talked about my life background and growing up experience.
Didn't you ask me how to eat by my face? I will begin to talk about this part below. Hey, hey, sister ... You're not asleep, are you?
Later, I didn't want to work in the assembly line. I was too bitter, too tired and too depressed, mainly because I was worried that I couldn't get married and I couldn't meet the right person. My heart is also dishonest. I watched my friends, classmates and fellow villagers start to get married. Some found rich people, some went home to get married, some found other provinces, and some never got married.
In a girl's heart, who doesn't want to find a man who is rich, handsome and knows how to care for himself? But this is the reality. It's never such a good luck. Let you take it all by yourself. It is often rich men who are dishonest. Honest men have no money, and those who are handsome and playboy are ugly. It depends on who bows to reality first. Girls, where can they endure it? Men in their 4 s and 5 s can marry young girls in their 17 s and 18 s and replace them with women in their 4 s and 5 s, where can they find boys in their 17 s and 18 s?
Living out to work is too monotonous and boring, which is harder and more tiring than studying. In a closed factory, there are no friends to talk to, and everyone seems to get by, but few people are willing to tell their thoughts.
It didn't take long for me to follow my friends to the downtown area. This time, my eyes were opened. The so-called outside and the world, this is the real world, all kinds of feasting and intoxicating, all kinds of luxury and high-end places are countless.
First, I worked in a brand clothing store in a commercial pedestrian street with my friends. It was quite relaxed. I only worked for eight hours a day. The basic salary plus commission was better than the assembly line, and the salary was good, but I quit after a short time.
Because I know more friends and sisters, I want to work in a place with higher salary. When a good sister is a hotel receptionist, she looks beautiful and has a good figure. The natural advantage of a woman is obvious. If she has a rich family, she will not worry about it for the rest of her life.
I have the same idea. After all, I am not ugly. Girls also study for a good job, earn money, marry a good person and live in peace of mind. How can I put it? Students admitted to college may have a higher probability of meeting good people, but it doesn't rule out that I can't meet good men!
Before long, I jumped ship and sold jewelry. Later, my purpose became clearer. I went to buy high-end watches and really met rich people. I also met several people who felt a little bit about me, and slowly began to associate. At this time, my salary was already several times that of the assembly line, and I was very satisfied. I felt that it was really not astronomical to earn tens of thousands a month.
A few days after I went back in the second year, there were some rumors in the village, saying that I might be a mistress of others outside, kept by a man, or sold. Their reason is that I suddenly became rich, dressed in fashion, wearing skirts and pantyhose in winter, making up to look like ghosts, dyeing my hair yellow, and my face was white and clean, and I suddenly became tall, thin and beautiful.
I really didn't have it at that time. All the money I had was clean and hard-earned salary, which was quite wronged. I cried secretly at home for several days during the Spring Festival. You said this gossip spread quickly, too. A few days after the Spring Festival, all the eight villages in Shili were known. My mother didn't say much, but I was so angry that I didn't eat at home for a few days. It was useless for me to explain it, and the more I explained it, the darker it became.
That was the last time I went home. It's been several years.
I can't stay at home any longer, which makes the villagers look at me strangely for the next few days. I should have gone back to Shenzhen at once, but my dad said that I had to call the eighth day of the first month before I could go out.
There were more people talking slowly, and my parents believed them. They basically quarreled with them for the next few days. After all, the family was still kind when they left.
I was very humbled when I came out this time. I was wronged for no reason, and my reputation was tarnished. It is basically impossible to marry back in the future. Either find someone from other provinces or you can only find one in the city. I really want to meet a man who is kind to me.
I dated a man who bought a watch when I came back from the Spring Festival, and soon I slept together. Although I had some secular purpose, I was still stuck in it and couldn't extricate myself.
I had this idea before, but I just thought about it. After all, how could I touch this kind of job that everyone said was "lying for a living"?
Later, I found out that I became a mistress and was "kept" by him. Even though I cried my eyes out, I decided to leave. I couldn't bear to do anything to destroy other people's families.
Society is really a place with large ripening agents. If you throw them in for a year or two, everything will be understood. Girls are born to learn make-up. By the way, some people point fingers and look around by themselves. I am no different from those beautiful women in the city. When I was studying, I felt that I was ugly, self-abased and conceited. When I went out to work, I slowly recovered my confidence. When I really entered the society, I found that beauty was really a good card. I never played. After this incident, I was ready to play.
Later, I went to clubs, bars, dance halls, and sometimes hair salons. I went wherever I had more money, that is, I worked as a young lady.
There are two kinds of sisters around me, one is really taking this as love, and the other is themselves.