When I was watching "The Story of My Ex", I really cried blindly. Because I brought my own and his story into the plot. I tried to write a story between me and him to answer the question why Rosie was not with Meng Yun.
1. His favorite color is black, which matches his height of 186cm and looks cool.
2. If he had to choose a matching color for black, he would choose red, which happens to be my favorite combination.
3. We met in the postgraduate entrance examination tutoring class. He boldly tapped me on the shoulder and asked for my phone number.
4. I wore a pair of red and black flat shoes that day.
5. That was the first time in my life that I was approached. I thought he was really special, at least more special than those people who sent me anonymous love letters and I don’t even know who they are now.
6. My ex-boyfriend said I had a strong aura, but he said he couldn’t feel it.
7. He has bad teeth and cannot eat too many sweets, but my favorite is sweets. I like tiramisu with a romantic meaning. His favorite is the black forest. I didn’t ask why. , thinking it was probably because his favorite color was in the name.
8. He specially changed seats with the classmate next to me. After that, he sat next to me and slept in every class.
9. I have always regarded him as a good friend, talking about topics and talking about my concerns.
10. One morning he didn’t come to class. I found that my heart was empty. I edited a text message, typed it, deleted it, deleted it, and even asked him where he had been. I couldn’t figure out how to phrase it. Only then did I know , I fell in love with him.
11. After class at noon, I walked outside the classroom alone, but I saw him standing at the door of the classroom, holding two pieces of cake in his hand.
12. Of course it is a piece of tiramisu and a piece of black forest.
13. I ate both pieces. That day I was wearing a white T-shirt with cartoon patterns on it. He said it looked very good and he must take pictures of me. I refused for various reasons.
14. He is very considerate and takes good care of others. He will bend down to help me wipe the dirty water from my shoes, and fill my water glass with hot water after lunch.
15. He gave me a lot of labels that summer. Drink water from Nongfu Spring, throat lozenges from Nian Ci'an, ice cream from Nestlé bananas, and clothes from all kinds of shirts.
16. He did not confess his love to me. Instead, while taking a walk after lunch, he pressed me against the barbed wire fence outside the tennis court. In today's terms, it is called wall banging.
17. He slowly lowered his head. I avoided him with a blushing heart and stepped on his feet.
18. During recess, the teacher would play the songs requested by the students. When I heard the melody of "Nuan Nuan", I suddenly looked up and saw my name clearly displayed on the screen.
19. My favorite female singer is Liang Jingru.
20. He often asked me out, but I refused for various reasons. One day when the tutoring class was on break, he sent me a message saying that he would wait for me at the class place from 1 p.m. until 6 p.m. I ended up not going. At six o'clock he texted me saying he was looking forward to sharing my story with me.
21. He has a girlfriend from a different place. He told me when we had dinner for the first time. So I have been deliberately keeping the distance between me and him, and it has been very hard to do so.
22. At the end of the tutoring class, he kissed my left eye and told me that he would kiss my right eye next time we meet.
23. After school started, he was in Qingdao and I was in Jinan. He is not good at math and often asks me to explain math problems to him via WeChat.
24. He is one year older than me. I joked about being his sister, but he said no.
25. He actually confessed his love to me. I was both excited and sad.
26. I said it is impossible for us.
27. He is very free and easy. We still send WeChat messages every night and only talk about the most common topics, such as his favorite persimmon and my favorite grapefruit.
28. We occasionally talk about relationships, but I find that I don’t want to hear a single word he mentions about his girlfriend.
29. I deleted his WeChat message the next morning after I cried myself to sleep.
30. There is no farewell. The next day, I didn’t reply to his text messages and I didn’t answer his phone calls.
31. He went to an Internet cafe to stay overnight and left a long message on my QQ. The last sentence is, I believe there will be a good day.
32. I finally burst into tears.
33. I couldn’t help but dial his number. He was angry that I deleted his WeChat account and his tone was cold. I cried and said it was wrong for us to do this, but he remained silent and at a loss.
34. I actually have no resistance to him. He said he hated WeChat reminding him again and again that we were not friends. I added him again and promised that he would never delete WeChat again.
35. He doesn’t study hard, but I am just the opposite. I wish I could break an hour into three hours.
36. When I went to the off-campus bookstore to buy books, I ran back and forth, panting from exhaustion.
37. When I ran to the door of the classroom, I received a photo he sent me. It was the sunset that day, soaked in red.
38. I laugh at myself for only caring about the road under my feet, but forgetting to look at the surrounding scenery.
39. He has a bad habit of smoking. I yelled at him to quit smoking for two and a half years, until the last time we met, he lit three cigarettes in just two hours.
40. He likes to call me Xiaodan, Xiaodai, Daidan, and calls me idiot and fool when he is having fun. I call him Juan Juan, Fish Juan Juan, Silly Fish Juan, and when I am having fun and run out of words, I can only say "Roll, Roll, Roll."
41. He said that I would get out. I'll just add one thing, roll back, don't go away.
42. We talk about various topics. One time he asked me if I liked chocolate, and I said I liked white chocolate the best. He was very surprised and said, "What do you like?" and asked about coffee. I said it was okay, I drank cappuccino a lot in high school.
43. He said that he wrote a novel when he was in high school. The hero’s favorites were dark chocolate, mocha and black forest. The heroine's favorites are white chocolate, cappuccino and tiramisu.
44. I often think how great it would be if I could meet him when I was 16 years old, but fate gave us a different romance.
45. He likes Gu Mu, and I like Golden Retriever. He likes white roses and I like red roses. He likes peppermint candies and I like fruit candies. He likes the Portuguese Celtics and I hate football and basketball. He likes to ride horses and swim. I can't ride horses or swim.
46. We have completely different views on love. He thinks it's more important for two people to be in tune than to be suitable together, whereas I think it's the opposite. He said that love is like a moth flying into a flame, but the love I understand should be a steady stream.
47. Our favorite flowers are roses, we both like lemon water, we both like wild sour plums, we say good night to each other every night, and him sending good night is like turning down the light switch, At that moment I could fall asleep peacefully.
48. One night I sent him good night as usual, but there was no response, no WeChat messages were answered, and no one answered the phone.
49. The next day he told me that he was in a bad mood and his phone was muted so he didn’t hear it. I comforted him for a long time. Although he was tired from studying, don't put any pressure on him and just try your best.
50. We discussed a topic when we had known each other for more than two months. I forgot what we were talking about. I only remember that I said that because we didn’t understand each other, I had no right to speak, but he said, "You know me very well."
51. His family is from Lanzhou. He moved his household registration to Qingdao for the postgraduate entrance examination. It is a collective household. After completing the formalities, he told me that his new household registration is in Laoshan District. I checked the address and it is the same as my family’s. The same neighborhood.
52. When I was about to take the exam, I caught a cold. It was quite serious. I was afraid of delaying the exam, so I bought a more powerful western medicine and sent him a picture. He called me back immediately and asked me not to take medicine randomly. After that, he sent me WeChat messages every hour and half an hour asking me to drink water.
53. Looking back at our chat records, most of them were talking about math problems. I can no longer understand those questions. But I still remember those feelings at that time, that feeling of being very happy whether chatting or giving lectures.
54. We met the day after the postgraduate entrance examination. At the beach, he sang "Blue Turkey" and I sang "Children's Songs", and then we hugged each other tightly. He was carrying my bag and I was carrying his gloves. I bounced and told him the story of the little white rabbit and the elephant, like a young couple.
55. The first time we watched a movie together, "囧囧" which I had been looking forward to for a long time, he liked to hold my shoulders, and I would lean on his shoulders and feed him popcorn. I had a low point of laughter and laughed the whole time. His point of laughter was different from mine. He liked to laugh while watching me laugh.
56. He sent me home and kissed my right eye downstairs. I held back tears and walked back three times, and finally squatted down and cried after going up the stairs. He ran up the stairs to help me up and wiped away my tears.
57. I gave him an origami crane made of colored paper. I just wanted to give him six thoughts. He insisted that it was a big yellow goose. I said I thought we would never have the chance to meet again, and he said we would meet.
58. The results of the postgraduate entrance examination were not unexpected. I passed the exam, but he failed.
59. He was particularly disappointed. I think of the days when he was looking at the scenery while I was walking with my head down, and I felt particularly ironic.
60. I asked him if he regretted it, and he said no. He said that he met his brothers and me because of the postgraduate entrance examination, and he felt that he had made a lot of money. He said, "Thank you for accompanying me through the saddest days." I said that you gave me everything I gave you.
61. He said he really wanted to go to a place, Medog. I went to Tibet on my graduation trip and learned that Medog is the only county in China without roads. Although I haven’t gone there, I think I will go to that place one day.
62. I accidentally saw his post on Tieba, recording the hesitation, sadness, longing and sweetness of being apart from my girlfriend for more than half a year. I finally knew what he was doing at night when I couldn't contact him.
63. I got very angry with him. I didn’t understand why we were cheating. And he didn't have any explanation. For the first time in my life I felt sick to my stomach from being angry.
64. But it only took me one day to figure it out. All the happiness we had before was not fed to the dog. He spent such a boring period of time with me, and we are not lovers, so why bother talking about cheating and not cheating.
After 65, he went to Jinan to find a job. His girlfriend had been working in Jinan for half a year.
66. But when he went to Jinan, his girlfriend was seconded to Beijing for a business trip for half a year. He said that he was walking alone on the busy street, but his heart was empty.
67. I returned to Jinan to prepare for my graduation defense, and we met again in Jinan. We changed each other’s WeChat chat background to the big yellow goose.
68. Sometimes he would come to Changqing to fly a kite with me and take me around the campus on a bicycle.
69. He especially likes the pork knuckle cooked in the restaurant outside my school. We sat side by side, and I turned my face to look at the side view of him chewing the pork knuckle. I thought it was cool.
70. When I came back from going to the bathroom, I saw him picking out the meat from the pork knuckle and putting it on my plate with his back to me. At that moment I thought he was even more handsome.
71. Sometimes I would go to the city to pick him up from get off work, wait for him at Zhongshan Park near his office building, wait for him at the corner of the stairs outside his office, and then have lunch and dinner together.
72. He took me to the place where he lived. He put on sunglasses to pretend to be cool and packed his things. I took a secret photo and it felt cool.
73. He doesn’t like to eat onions and garlic. One thing he always says after ordering a meal is “No onions and garlic.” Once after ordering, he went to the bathroom. The waiter came over and told me that the ribs we ordered were garlic-flavored, and did he need to change them? I said no, don’t tell him it’s garlic, he’ll still eat it. The waiter left with a smile.
74. He ate so deliciously that he didn’t notice the smell of garlic at all.
75. He told me he was sorry for that post. He once told me that we should never say sorry to each other. I was thinking silently in my heart, what should I say to be sorry? Even if I said it didn't matter, would anything be changed?
76. He went to the Flower, Bird and Fish Market and bought a turtle and named it Kou Kou. He said he wanted to buy another boy to keep him company, and maybe he could have cubs in the future.
77. I went to the city to accompany him to select turtles, and he asked me which one I liked. I said that I thought I had a good affinity with this one, but unfortunately she was also a girl.
78. He was wearing a green T-shirt and canvas shoes that day. That was the only time I saw him wearing anything other than a shirt and leather shoes in the nearly three years I had known him. I think it looks equally good.
79. He bought the turtle without saying a word. I held her in my hands and she stuck her head out to look at me. He named the little turtle Daidai.
80. From then on, our topics all revolved around Qingkou and Daedai. The buckle is very delicious, and the dullness is very dull. Koukou is sick and needs to apply medicine every day. Daidai adapted to the new environment and became more and more lively.
81. One time we were not very happy while chatting. I ignored him on purpose. He sent me a message saying that he often took out his phone to check but just ignored me. His psychological activity was that you don’t care about me. Don't blame me, right?
82. He likes to expose my pretense. And I love being exposed by him.
83. "To Youth" was released and we watched that movie together. He sang Red Sun with Zheng Wei next to me. Walking out of the cinema, I finally lost my temper.
84. At a busy intersection, we held each other, and I cried and asked what to do. He said that his girlfriend bought all his shirts and all his girlfriend’s bags. He said that she had been with him for four years, which was a girl's youth.
85. He said that he hadn’t hugged someone like this for a long time. Me too. The feeling of saying goodbye and never seeing each other again is still clear. So every hug needs to be very forceful.
86. Later he told me that he also cried when he sent me away that day, but I didn’t feel it at all.
87. When I miss him, I keep a diary and write articles. I write over and over again, wishing you happiness. I felt better as I wrote it down, thinking that maybe one day I could proudly show it to him.
89. I always remember him telling me, "I believe there will be a good day." I believe that sentence. Maybe waiting is also part of love.
90. The night before returning to Qingdao after graduation, he came to Changqing to accompany me. We were eating a pork knuckle at the KTV, and he would stuff the meat into my mouth while I sang.
91. I listen to his "Sing Blue Türkiye". After singing, he gestured to me with his lips and said that this was the last time he sang "Blue Turkey".
92. When he left in a taxi, I cried again. I asked him why every time you leave I feel like we will never meet again. He said the separation was to see each other again, and we would see each other again.
93. I returned to Qingdao and he was working in Jinan. We finally severed all contact. I told him that I was listening to a song recently, "It Will Pass" by Liang Jingru. Other than that, there were no goodbyes.
94. I agreed to the confession of a boy who has been chasing me for more than a year.
95. I am seriously ill. During that time, I didn't dare to go out. I would feel chest tightness, wheezing, and coughing if I walked outside for ten minutes. Later, I had a high fever that wouldn't stop, and I finally went to the hospital after struggling for a few days.
96. I had the most comprehensive physical examination in my life. Electrocardiogram, chest X-ray, blood routine, hyperthyroidism. All indicators are normal.
97. It turns out that I am just depressed. It turns out that I am lovelorn.
98. Love is like a moth flying into a flame. Love is what I can't do without you.
99. After I came out of the hospital, I was determined to change my current terrible life. I bought a bunch of cheese condensed milk butter and started learning how to make tarts and cakes. Doing it yourself is tiring but also very happy. I know that change is never scary. What is scary is not starting to change.
100. I put "Blue Turkey", "Children's Songs", "It Will Pass", "We Are Not Together", "Exaggerated", "Habits" and other songs that we listened to together into a separate Playlist, in order not to hear these songs during random play.
101. We only had one photo together. I saved it on my computer and then deleted it from my phone.
102. I went to graduate school in Qingdao. Occasionally I would go to Tieba to see what other posts he had made, and they were nothing more than football, basketball, Gu Mu and Dota that he liked.
103. One noon, I was sitting in the classroom getting ready for class, browsing the Tieba forum in boredom, and suddenly saw his new post. I don't remember what was said in a long paragraph, I only remember one sentence. I miss Shao Dan.
104. I cried so hard that I scared the classmates around me.
105. Regarding contacting you, I can’t avoid it on a night of drinking and singing, but I can’t avoid it on a deserted street. It was 136 days since I last contacted him.
106. Everything is so familiar. He said that both Guoquan and Dadai were hibernating, Shuang'er spent 5,000 yuan to get himself a tattoo, and his work was still as tiring as before.
107. He said he dreamed that I had a mouth full of cakes and chocolates and smiled at him. He said he missed me.
108. I said that if you are not living well, I will feel that my leaving is not worth it. He joked, "You really deserve to study economics."
109. I think it’s good to have restored contact. At least the happiness he can bring me can’t be replaced by anyone.
110. We chat every day, and the content of our conversations has changed from math problems and hobbies to work and discussions about various TV series, movies, novels and classics. I have given him all kinds of advice and comfort. He said I was his white paper fan.
111. Finally, I have the feeling of being in a dark room with the light of my mobile phone shining on my face before the postgraduate entrance examination, and chatting under the quilt. He said that he would miss me in the dead of night, when he was feeling uncomfortable, and when he was lonely and helpless. He said that I was like a star in his dark night, like a plank in the ocean. Finally he called my name and said, I really want to hug you.
112. Yes, love is never evenly matched. The dominant party often ends up hurting the other party, just like I am his star, but he is my sky.
113. He started his own business and opened his own online store. I named his online store and made some management forms for him. Shuang'er said that I was really attentive to him and I was a little proud. .
114. He and his girlfriend are not from Jinan, but they both work in Jinan. They do not live together. Then they broke up. Because in the middle of the night, he saw another man in the girl's house.
115. He changed his WeChat avatar to the cool one I took of him wearing sunglasses.
116. I became very sad. Yes. Very sad. My boyfriend is impeccably kind to me, but because he is single, he evokes too many thoughts in me.
149. He patiently coaxed me and reasoned with me, like a big brother.
150. He said that you should be good and I will visit you when you return to Hangzhou.
151. My boyfriend and I broke up that day. Just because I found that when I couldn't bear it anymore, the first person I thought of was actually him. I don't want to betray my boyfriend, nor do I want to betray my heart.
152. I feel extremely relaxed, and finally no longer feel guilty about being kidnapped by my sense of morality. But it made him feel sad.
153. He asked Shuang'er if he should go to Hangzhou to see me. Shuang'er said you wouldn't regret it if you did. He's really here. Yes, he didn’t make many promises to me, but as long as he made them, they all came true.
154. He said that several of his brothers said that he should choose to be with me. And all my best friends around me said that I shouldn’t be with him.
155. His junior brother said that we are very suitable together, such as family, education, living environment, life concept, height, constellation, age, three views, etc.
156. I think we are quite ironic. In the end, the boy who prefers the compatible boy starts to consider whether his family, education, living environment, life concept, height, zodiac sign, age, and three views are suitable, while the boy who prefers the suitable one starts to consider. The girl is obsessed with love.
157. Our topics are becoming more and more relevant to life. For example, he would ask me to help him choose gifts for his parents, ask me to help him choose shirts, and show off to me the new watch his parents gave him and how much lucky money he received during the New Year.
158. When I returned to Qingdao, he had finished his half-year field service and returned to Jinan. That was the first time I felt our separation was without sadness. I feel like every tomorrow is full of hope.
When I was at my most vulnerable, I couldn’t help crying when I read any sentence about love. But during these seven hours, I didn’t shed a single tear and I wrote very calmly. In the past three years, I may have only met him for a hundred days, but the details of his life are definitely not something that can be described in ten thousand words. I am not writing this because I still miss him. But even if time passes, I will always remember the past and memories that belong to me.
Maybe the reason why we are not together is not because we are not compatible, not because we are not suitable, nor because we are not destined to be together, nor because we are too familiar to be lovers. It's because there is one of us who is not so firm in the face of all odds.