-Dunzhe Ling
If I could live to be 9 years old, I would have traveled one third of my life by now. In fact, I have been weak since childhood, and it is not bad to exercise the day after tomorrow, but 9 years old is still an unattainable mountain for me.
besides, I don't think living long is a good thing. But human beings do feel that in the long universe, we are just a little moment. But for such a little moment, for many of us, we don't know the exact meaning and value.
that's true. Just pull a person on the street and ask, "What is the meaning and value of life?" Most people won't answer. They will laugh without saying a word. Or contribute to society, and so on.
whether it's a thinker or a person who doesn't know much, the destination is of course the same. So I sometimes say that people who don't know much are very happy to live.
I walked a third of the way, and I didn't say until today that I just learned to live. Just yesterday, I cleaned the range hood by myself. The range hood has not been cleaned for almost three years.
you can imagine how lazy the person who lives in it is. Yes, I have always been known for being lazy at home.
I was born in the countryside and stayed in the countryside for 12 years. I have cultivated land with my parents, cut firewood, raised livestock such as sheep, and even helped my family to dig toilets several times. By rights, I should not be a spoiled child. I always thought so, even in the city, at first I was disgusted with those spoiled classmates.
at that time, when I first met my fourth-grade primary school classmates, I found it incredible that my family members came to pick me up after school. Because in the countryside, we passed the kindergarten and signed up by ourselves. Few parents go to school, but all parents are busy in the fields.
and whose parents will be laughed at when they go to school. It's like I'm not weaned. I am like this myself. Once I had a fight with my classmates and was beaten into a painted cat. My mother was going to school to find a teacher. I won't go anyway, but I feel humiliated.
I also have a rough face, which looks older than my actual age. So I should not be spoiled. But I left the county town, went to the university, went out of the university, went to the society, and cleaned the range hood today, only to find out that I am actually spoiled, in fact, I will not live.
read the instructions, remove the range hood and wash it one by one. It's very dirty. It is the dirtiest range hood I have ever seen. As a matter of fact, we didn't use a range hood before, all of them were chimneys.
the oil stain is so thick that it can't be removed with detergent at all, and neither can the steel ball. Finally, you can only scrape with a knife. I've been scraping and I've got a lot of scratches on my arm.
finally, change the chimney. It's yellow. I really can't stand it. So after removing the ceiling and installing the chimney, another person installed the ceiling.
The whole process, about 3 hours, finally looked at the clean smoking machine, and I sat on a stool to have a rest. Needless to say, tired. I don't want to eat after I am tired, so I sit alone.
it occurred to me that I don't usually cook much, but there are so many oil stains on the smoking machine. Apparently, it was caused when the ex-girlfriend was around. This reminds me that I have never washed dishes or cooked before I met my ex-girlfriend.
it was she who taught me to wash dishes. Now I take the initiative to wash the dishes after dinner. But before, because of washing dishes, we had many quarrels. Putting shoes, turning off lights and other trivial things in life are all like this.
because I was in the countryside and in the county. There is only one light bulb at home. There is no shoe cabinet for shoes. This is a habit.
On second thought, after I transferred from the countryside to the city, my parents hardly asked me to do housework. Cooking, washing dishes and cleaning the house are all done by the mother. They only ask us to study, study and study again.
At that time, most quarrels at home were due to study. So slowly I feel that I am studying for the sake of studying. Rebellion is inevitable.
it's not just that. For example, there is such a scene. After I studied chemistry, I became interested. Just use the waste wires at home with my brother, connect the electricity, and insert them into the water, of course, to decompose oxygen and hydrogen.
while my brother and I were working hard, my mother came. Opening your mouth is criticism. First of all, she said that you are desperate, and electricity is an electric tiger. We said nothing. We have insulating gloves and are doing research.
she said, don't be embarrassed or something. People have specialized personnel studying it, and they want you two sons of bitches to fool around here. Say that finish is to pick up the guy to beat. We can only run away. When you run, you have to retort loudly: "You are illiterate! Long hair and short knowledge! People in China think so, so is there any research? " If you wait.
in retrospect, I just laughed it off. Neither my mother nor I are actually wrong. It's just that none of us understand each other.
Because of poverty, my mother always said, "I don't know that tea, rice, oil and salt are expensive. When you become parents, you will understand our hearts now. "
I sat on the stool and kept thinking, and I remembered my first business trip. When I saw a female client stuttering, I couldn't speak. I'm in a hurry all day.
later, later, later, until today. I seem to have learned a lot. Washing dishes, simply cooking, buying clothes, talking about customers, making plans ... stuttering has become better, it is easier to understand others, it is easier to understand parents, and I don't want to argue with others, and I don't want to be so anxious anymore.
just like today, I can be patient and clean the range hood myself without spending money. I usually want to eat and cook by myself. The house is dirty, clean it yourself. What happens at home, I will also advise my parents not to worry. I have learned to live. Real life.
in this process, I met many people. They taught me this. So I said that poetry is not life, life is poetry, and it is a real feeling.
the difference between the countryside and the city is the environment. But a person can adapt quickly in an environment. This is a man who knows life.
people who really know how to live are approachable wherever they go. Be a city dweller in the city and a village dweller in the village. It's not about nobility or inferiority. Just like some rural people go to the city to go to the toilet without flushing. In fact, it's not a matter of morality, it's really forgotten. Habit problem. Just like I hated spoiled classmates at first. Think they are too melodramatic. But from the perspective of a city dweller, I am envious and jealous.
I myself am an example of going from the countryside to the city. I fell in love with girls in the city, and there was a lot of friction, and of course there was a lot of happiness. Now the process of urbanization is still going on, with more than 1 million farmers in the metropolis.
so the times are developing rapidly, and we came in. But I didn't adapt in time. So city people should be tolerant. They will learn a lot, such as flushing in the toilet, watching red lights and saying thank you ... What I can't accept most is that they used to be rural people, but now they are city people. Seeing that the rural people have made mistakes in their living habits, the city man showed a sneer. Such a person will never learn to live.
So life can be wrong, but you must learn to forgive; Life can be tiring, but you must learn to laugh; Life must also be self-care and self-esteem, but you must feel that you are in a group.
so I didn't learn to live until today. But it is not yet learned to live meaningfully and worthily.
Perhaps, as Mr. Ji Xianlin said, "The value and significance of human beings lies in their sense of responsibility for connecting the past with the future."
so this is something from the inside out, and people with narrow hearts will definitely not be able to do it. I won't even have the following. The money and power we are talking about are naturally not the meaning and value that Ji Lao said.
about life, we all come from kindergarten. To put it simply, don't be too willful, too bitter, and embrace life. This is the attitude of life, and this is the first step to learn to live.
Excerpted from the prose works of Dunzhe Ling, an independent scholar, poet, writer and famous Chinese scholar.