As for you, there is still a long way to go before the outline of true happiness can make you really happy.
Your friend is both happy and sad. That's because he cares about your mood and is afraid that you will get hurt.
And dreams, after all, are dreams, not real.
If you and your boyfriend love each other very much, you should try to seize the happiness in front of you.
Come on o(∩_∩)o ...