You have encountered many things that others forced you to do recently or since childhood, and you are bored to the stage of fear. You are afraid of meeting things you don't like and always ask your permission. In fact, you need to adjust your mentality. You're mentally ill. You're a little autistic. You just need to have a good attitude, so that you can face it bravely, take responsibility for yourself and say no to things you don't like or want.
For your own psychological root problems, first think about whether there is any problem with your current lifestyle, and if so, correct it as soon as possible! I wish you health and happiness!