From your dream, I can see that your life is very stressful. You are worried. You want to do one thing well, but you have no self-confidence. Your life is disorganized. You are more likely to forget things. You want to be recognized by others. Some people suffer from loss. It's easy to forgive your mistakes. I always feel that what I lost will come back, but I will pay some price for it. Longing for good things, but realistic, able to accept defects.
Everyone's life is similar, it's all terrible, but it's all good. Relax, you are no worse than others and no better than others. Live a confident life.