My question: My character I am not an ordinary person.

Now you want to fight for a certain goal, but that goal is a little far away, so you have another idea, maybe what you call evil.

But at ordinary times, I may pay great attention to my manners and self-cultivation, and I will be more concerned about other people's opinions.

I have high demands on myself, even if I promise myself, I will try my best to do it.

Give yourself more framework,

So you're ambivalent.

I really can't go on.

Sweet cry