Black is usually considered as negative. In personality color, black represents loneliness and seriousness, similar to the stray cat above. Black gives people a firm feeling, calm and restrained, and polite. Relatively mature color. In contrast, white is of course positive, clean, simple, pure, elegant and naive, and it is an innocent and ideal color.
If you don't want it, it means a kind of "giving up", which may be your over-growth, from white to black, or from innocence to maturity to introversion.