What do you want from the delivery of the canopy, but you dare not turn over and meet each other.
A broken hat covered the face of a busy city, and a leaky boat was running in the water.
Fierce-browed, I coolly defy a thousand pointing fingers, Head-bowed, like a willing ox I serve the children.
Hiding in the small building into a unified, regardless of winter Xia Chunqiu.
Lu Xun-hometown
I braved the cold to return to my hometown more than 2000 miles apart and left for more than 20 years.
Because it is the end of winter; At the end of my hometown, the weather was gloomy again, and the cold wind blew into the hut through the gap, whining.
Looking out, there are several desolate villages opposite the yellow world, which are lifeless. I can't help feeling sad inside.
Yes Ah! Isn't this my hometown that I have been remembering for twenty years?
None of my hometown in memory is like this. My hometown is much better. But let me remember his beauty and tell him his advantages.
Yes, but there is no image, no words. That seems to be it. So I explain myself: so does my hometown,-
Although there is no progress, it may not be as sad as I feel. This is just a change in my own mood, because I am going back this time.
Township Party Secretary, this is not a good mood.
I came here to see him. The old house we have lived together for many years has been sold to another name, the one who delivered the house.
The deadline is only this year, so you must bid farewell to the familiar old house before the first day of the first month and stay away from the familiar reasons.
My hometown, I moved to a place where I was looking for different food.
Arrived at my door the next morning. The broken stems of many hay on the corrugated board are shaking in the wind, which shows the old house.
It is inevitable that the owner will change hands. The family in several rooms probably moved away, so it was quiet. I walked out of my house, my mother.
Have to meet out, and then fly out of the eight-year-old nephew macro son.
My mother was very happy, but she also hid a lot of sad expressions and taught me to sit down and rest for tea, not to mention moving.
Things. Macro son didn't see me, standing on the opposite side at a distance just watching.
But we finally talked about moving. I said that the apartment outside has been rented out, and I bought some furniture. Besides, I have to put my home.
All the wood in the shop is sold and added. Mom also said yes, and the luggage has been collected a little, and the wood is inconvenient and small.
I sold half of it, but I just have no money.
"Please take a day or two off to see your relatives and family, and then we can go." Mom said.
"yes."
"There will be leap soil. Every time he comes to my house, he always asks about you and wants to see you. I let you stay at home for about 10 days.
Tell him that he may come soon. "
At this moment, a miraculous picture flashed through my mind: a golden full moon hung in the deep blue sky and set.
The surface is sand by the sea, and there are endless green watermelons, including a boy of eleven or twelve years old with a silver ring around his neck.
With a steel fork in his hand, he stabbed a horse with all his strength, but the horse wriggled away from his crotch.
This boy is a genius. I was only a teenager when I met him, and it has been thirty years now. My father was still there.
Whether I am alive or at home, I am a young master. That year, my family was a year of great sacrifice. This sacrifice is said to be three.
It will take more than ten years to turn around, so it is very solemn; In the first month, there are many offerings for ancestor worship, and the sacrificial vessels are exquisite, and the worshippers are also exquisite.
There are many sacrificial vessels, and it is also important to prevent them from being stolen. My family has only one busy month (there are three kinds of jobs here: giving them to a family all year round.
Those who work are called long-term workers; Those who work for people on a daily basis are called short-term workers; I also farm my own land, and I only pay for the Chinese New Year holidays and rent collection.
People who work are called busy months, but when they are too busy, he tells his father that he can let his son moisten the soil to look after the sacrificial vessels.
My father allowed it; I'm happy, too, because I heard the name Runtu a long time ago, and I know he is as old as me.
Born in leap month, the five elements are short of soil, so my father called him leap soil. He can pretend to catch birds.
I look forward to the new year every day. When the new year comes, the leap land will arrive. Finally, at the end of the year, one day, my mother told me
I, Runtu came, so I flew to see it. He is in the kitchen, with a purple round face, wearing a small felt hat and a suit around his neck.
A bright silver collar shows that my father loves him very much and is afraid of his death, so he made a wish in front of the Buddha and used a circle.
The child trapped him. He is shy, but he is not afraid of me. When no one else was around, he talked to me, so it was less than half.
God, we are familiar.
At that time, we didn't know what to talk about, except that we were very happy to moisten the soil. We said that after going to that city, we met many things we had never seen before.
Things.
The next day, I asked him to catch birds. He said:
"It's impossible. It is bound to snow heavily. It snowed in our sand, so I cleared a clearing and propped it up with a short stick.
A big bamboo plaque was planted in the valley. When the birds came to eat, I pulled the rope tied to the stick at a distance, and the birds covered the bamboo.
It's engraved. Everything: rice chicken, horn chicken, goose owl, blue back ... "
So I'm looking forward to snow again.
Moisten the soil and say to me:
"It's too cold now, you come to us in summer. Every day we go to the seaside to pick up shells, which are red and green, and ghosts are afraid.
There are also Guanyin players. Dad and I will look after watermelons at night, and so will you. "
"Do you care about thieves?"
"No, people who walk are thirsty. Pick a melon to eat. We don't steal here. It's badger pig, hedgehog,
Yan. Listen under the moon, la la la la, swallow bites melon. You hold Hu's fork and walk gently ... "
At that time, I didn't know what this so-called embarrassing thing was-even now, I don't know-I just slept for no reason.
As fierce as a puppy.
"Doesn't he bite?"
"Hu fork? When you get there, you will stab when you see it. This beast is very clever. He ran towards you and ran under his crotch.
Yes His fur is as smooth as oil ... "
I didn't know there were so many new things in the world: there were so many colorful shells by the sea; Watermelon has such a dangerous experience that I
All I knew before was that he sold it at fruit TV.
"In our sandy land, when the flood season comes, there are many jumping fish just jumping, all with frog-like feet ..."
Ah! There are endless strange things in my heart that my friends don't know at ordinary times. They don't know a man.
Some things, when they are at the seaside, they are all like me. They only see the four corners of the sky on the high wall in the yard.
Unfortunately, the first month passed and Runtu had to go home. I was so anxious that I cried. He was still hiding in the kitchen, crying and refusing to go out, but
Finally, my father took me away. Later, he asked his father to bring me a bag of shells and some beautiful bird feathers, and I also sent them.
He went shopping once or twice, but he never met again.
Now that my mother mentions him, all the memory of time I'm here suddenly came to Su Sheng like lightning and seemed to see me.
Beautiful hometown. I replied:
"This is great! He-how? ……"
"What? ..... His condition is also very unsatisfactory ... "Mother said, and looked out of the room. "These people come again. Say buy
Woodworking, I just took it casually. I have to check it out. "
Mother stood up and went out. There are several women's voices outside the door. I called Honger to him and chatted with him: Ask him.
Can write, can go out.
"Shall we go by train?"
"We will go by train."
"Where is the boat?"
"Take a boat first, ..."
"ha! This looks like it! The beard is so long! " A shrill and strange voice suddenly cried out.
I was startled and immediately looked up. I saw a woman in her fifties standing in front of me with prominent cheekbones and thin lips.
Hands sandwiched between moustaches, no skirt, feet spread out, just like thin-legged compasses in drawing instruments.
I was startled.
"Don't know? I hugged you too! "
I'm more and more surprised. Luckily, my mother came in and said:
"He went out for many years and forgot all about it. You should remember, "he said to me," that this is Yang Er's sister-in-law across the hall. ...
He opened a tofu shop. "
Oh, I remember. When I was a child, a Yang Er sister-in-law did sit in the tofu shop across the hall. Everyone's name is Yi.
Tofu is beauty [6]. But with white powder, my cheekbones are not so high and my lips are not so thin. I sit all day.
I've never seen this compass gesture. At that time, people said: Because of Iraq, the business of this tofu shop is very good. But this is because
Age, but I was not affected at all, so I completely forgot. However, the compass is very uneven, showing a contemptuous god.
Color, as if laughing at the French don't know Napoleon once, Americans don't know Washington once, sneer at say:
"Come on? This is really a pair of noble eyes ... "
"There is this thing ... I ..." I stood up and said in fear.
"So, I say to you. Brother Xun, you are rich and heavy, so you can't move. What else do you want? Let me get these broken woodwork.
Go ahead. Our small family needs it. "
"I am not rich. I have to sell these before I go ... "
"Ah, you put the Dojo sign, also said not rich? You have three concubines now; Going out is to carry a big sedan chair.
Still not rich? Afraid, nothing can be hidden from me. "
I knew there was nothing to say, so I shut up and stood silently.
"Ah ah, the more rich, the more unwilling to relax. The more you refuse to relax, the richer you will be ... "
Compass turned around angrily, while talking, while slowly going out, by the way, put my mother's gloves in the waistband.
, and went out.
Since then, my family and relatives have visited me nearby. When I was entertaining, I took time to pack some luggage and spent three days.
Four days.
One day, it was a very cold afternoon. I had lunch and sat drinking tea. I thought someone came in outside, so I looked back.
I was very surprised when I saw it. I stood up hurriedly and walked towards it.
This is leap soil. Although I knew it was leap soil at first sight, it was not my memory. He gained weight.
Double it; The previous purple round face has turned gray-yellow, adding deep wrinkles; Eyes like his father, too.
Like, all around are red and swollen. I know this. People who farm by the sea blow the sea breeze all day, which is generally the case. On his head.
It was a worn felt hat with only a thin cotton-padded coat on it. Holding a paper bag and a long pipe in his hand, and then
Hands are not the red and round hands I remember, but thick, stupid and cracked, like pine bark.
I am very excited at this moment, but I don't know how to say it, just saying:
"ah! Brother Runtu.-You're here? ……"
Then I have a lot of words to gush out like beads: horn chicken, jumping fish, shells, clams, ... but I always feel trapped.
What are the obstacles? I'm spinning in my head, but I can't spit it out.
He stopped, his face showing joy and sadness; His lips are moving, but he is silent. His attitude is finally respectful.
Come, qing call way:
"sir! ……"
I seem to have a cold shiver; I know there is a deep barrier between us. I can't say either.
Words.
He turned and said, "Shui Sheng, kowtow to the master." He dragged out the child hiding behind him, which was exactly 20 years ago.
The leap soil is only yellow and fine, and there is no silver ring around the neck. "This is the fifth child, never seen the world, dodge.
Flash ... "
Mother and macro son came downstairs, and they probably heard the sound.
"The old lady. The letter arrived early. I really enjoyed it until my master came back ... "said Runtu.
"Ah, you how so polite. Didn't you call yourselves brothers before? Still that: Brother Xun. " Mother height
Xing said.
"Ah, the old lady is really ... what's the rule? At that time, I was a child and didn't understand ... "Runtu said, also called water.
Born with an arch, the child is shy and sticks tightly behind him.
"He is aquatic? The fifth one? They are strangers, no wonder they are afraid of strangers; Or Honger will accompany him for a walk. " Mom said.
Macro son heard this, then go to recruit aquatic, aquatic but refreshing to go out with him all the way. Mother asked Runtu to sit down, but he hesitated.
On one occasion, I finally sat down, leaned my long pipe on the table, handed the paper bag and said:
"There is nothing in winter. This dried green beans are dried by themselves there, please master ... "
I asked him about his condition. He just shook his head.
"Very difficult. Lao Liu will also help, but he is always hungry ... not peaceful ... he wants money everywhere.
There are no rules ... and the harvest is not good. If you plant something and choose to sell it, you always have to donate it several times and lose money; If you don't sell it, it will only rot.
Drop ... "
He just shook his head; Although his face is engraved with many wrinkles, it doesn't move at all, just like a stone statue. He probably just thinks
Bitter, but indescribable, silent for a while, I picked up my pipe and smoked silently.
Mother asked him, knowing that his family was busy, he had to go back tomorrow; He didn't have lunch again, so he was told to go to the kitchen by himself.
Eat fried rice.
He is out; My mother and I both lamented his situation: many children, famine, heavy taxes, soldiers, bandits, officials and gentry were all caused by him.
Like a puppet. My mother told me that she could give him anything she didn't need to move, and he could choose for himself.
In the afternoon, he picked out a few things: two long tables, four chairs, a pair of incense burners and candlesticks, and a scale. He wants it again.
All the grass ash (we cook straw here, and the ash can be used as fertilizer in the sand), when we leave,
He went by boat.
In the evening, we talk about some idle days, which are irrelevant words; The next morning, he brought Shui Sheng back.
Nine days later, it is the day when we set out. Runtu arrived in the morning. Shui Sheng didn't come with him, but only brought a five-year-old child.
Our daughter is in charge of the ship. We are so busy all day that we have no time to talk. There are also many tourists, some seeing them off and some taking things.
Yes, there are things for me. When we went aboard at night, all the old things in this old house were removed.
It was swept away.
Our boat went forward, and the green hills on both sides of the boat were covered with dark black color at dusk and retreated to the stern.
Macro son and I leaned against the window, looking at the fuzzy scenery outside, he suddenly asked:
"Uncle! When will we come back? "
"Come back? Why did you come back before you left? "
"But, Shui Sheng invited me to his house to play ..." He thought with big black eyes.
My mother and I were a little disappointed, so we brought up the leap soil again. Mother said that Yang Er's sister-in-law and tofu beauty have been in my house ever since.
Since it is packed, it is a daily necessity. The day before yesterday, Iraq took out more than a dozen plates in the ashes. After discussion, he decided to say
Buried in the leap soil, he can move home with him when transporting ash; Sister-in-law Yang Er found out about it and wanted it very much.
Work, and then kill the dog (this is our chicken equipment here, there is a fence on the board, which contains food, and the chicken can stretch out.
To peck in the neck, but the dog can't help but watch) and fly away, but it's a pity that Yi runs so high and low.
That's fast.
The farther the old house is from me; The scenery of my hometown has drifted away from me, but I don't feel a trace of nostalgia. I just think
I am surrounded by invisible high walls, which separate me into loneliness and make me very bored; The silver collar on the watermelon ground belongs to the little hero.
The image, I was very clear, but now it suddenly blurs, which makes me very sad.
Mom and macro are asleep.
I lay down and listened to the gurgling sound at the bottom of the boat, knowing that I was going my own way. I thought: I am so isolated from the leap soil,
But our younger generation is still angry. Honger is missing aquatic life. I hope they are no longer like me, and we are separated again.
Come on ... but I don't want them to live as hard as I do because they want to be angry, and I don't want them to fly like a leap.
Life is hard and numb. I don't want to live as hard as others. They should create a new life for us.
Never lived.
I thought of hope, and suddenly I was afraid. I was still in the dark when I asked for the censer candlestick. * thinks he's always
This is idolatry, and I will never forget it. Now my so-called hope is not my own idol? Only his.
My desire is close, but my desire is far away.
In the dim light, I spread a piece of green sand by the sea, and a golden circle hung in the dark blue sky.
Month. I thought: Hope is nothing, nothing. It's like a road on the ground; In fact, there is no road on the ground, and people who walk
More, it will become a road.
192 1 year 1 month.
□ Notes
(1) This article was first published in 192 1 May, 2008, Volume 9,No. 1.
⑵⑵: In a letter to Shuxin City on May 4, 1929, the author said: ⑵⑵⑵⑵⑵⑵⑵⑵⑵⑵⑵⑵⑵93333
Pronunciation, born, pronounced' stop'. ..... Now that I think about it, it may be a badger. "
⑶ Value Year of Big Sacrifice: In feudal society, big families held activities to sacrifice ancestors every year, and the expenses were paid from the family.
The income extraction of "production" is presided over by each room in turn every year, which is called "value year".
(4) The lack of soil in the five elements: the superstition of the so-called "eight characters" in the old society. That is, heavenly stems (A, B, D, E, oneself, oneself, oneself).
Cooperate with the local branch (ugly Mao Yinchen and Xu Hai in the afternoon of Shen Youwu) to remember the year, month, day and hour of a person's birth, and get two each.
Words, together as "eight characters"; Others think that they belong to each of the five elements (gold, wood, water, fire and earth), such as A, B, Yin and Mao.
Wood, C, D and C belong to midday fire. If eight words can contain five, that's all five lines. "The five elements are short of soil" is eight.
There are no local characters in Chinese characters, so we need to name them with local characters or local roots to make up for it.
5] Ghost Seeing Fear and Guanyin Hand are the names of small shells. In the past, people along the coast of Zhejiang tied these small shells together with a rope.
Wear it on the child's wrist or ankle, thinking it can "ward off evil spirits". Most of these names are based on the meaning of "avoiding evil spirits"
Yes
[6] Shi: Yue beauty in the Spring and Autumn Period was later used as a general beauty.
(7) Napoleon (1769- 182 1): namely Napoléon Bonaparte, a strategist during the French bourgeois revolution.
Home, politician. 1799, he became a republic. 1804, the first empire of France was established, calling itself Napoleon I.
The world.
(8) Washington (1732-1799): namely George Washington, American politician. He led 1775.
1783 to 1784, the United States fought against British colonial rule and became the first president of the United States after its victory.
(9) Daotai: The general name of the official road in the Qing Dynasty, which is divided into a Taoist who is in charge of an administrative position in a region and a Taoist who is in charge of a specific position.
Taoism. The former is the chief executive below the provincial level and above the prefecture level; The latter is responsible for the specific affairs of a province, such as supervising the supply of food and preparing for war.
Wait a minute. After the Revolution of 1911, the Beiyang warlord government also used this system and renamed it Daoyin.
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