In the book "I am also a legacy of Lu Xun-Mr. Zhu" (Shanghai Academy of Social Sciences Press, first edition, June 5438+February, 2009), the author quoted the words in "Lu Xun Widowed": "As for those who have to live alone, both men and women often have mental changes, and most of them are stubborn, suspicious and insidious. The priests in the Middle Ages in Europe, the palace girls before the Japanese Reform, and the eunuchs in China were many times more ruthless than ordinary people. So are other single people. Life is unnatural, and their mentality changes greatly. They think nothing tastes, and people are disgusting. When they see some innocent and happy people, they hate them. " Then he pointed out: "Lu Xun saw the abnormal psychology of celibacy so thoroughly that people could not help thinking of himself, because his life was also equivalent to celibacy." "I quote this passage because it reminds people of many people, including so-and-so ... and of course, myself.
Happiness itself is a powerful paralyzing drug, which makes people don't want to sink down and think. The pain of a sober person is having to face the bloody reality. However, people who indulge in happiness will forget the potential dangers. Half of the Song Dynasty crowed more than any previous dynasty, which may also be explained from this perspective.
However, the most painful thing is to live awake. The more sober you live, the more you can perceive human nature, the more you can understand compassion, the more you will be separated from yourself, and the more painful your spirit will be. Happiness, an anesthetic, seems within reach. Find a person who can be paralyzed with himself and rock the boat together to the end of life in mutual comfort. In the storm, because my boat is still so smooth, I still have the capital to paralyze myself. I'm looking forward to it, too An important factor of Lu Xun's success is his marriage, or his fate in a broader sense. I can't refuse my marriage with Zhu An, but I can't change. I don't know whether to hate or feel sorry for Zhu An Luxun. There must be something hateful about the poor, and it is precisely this sentence that includes the speaker himself. For my people, anger is indisputable; Be angry with yourself. Fate (translated into English as fate, which also means destruction, disaster and death) makes people's spirit through torture. Few martyrs are willing to accept rough days from the beginning. Everyone is not a fool, but they all have obsessive-compulsive disorder of fate. You can't resist fate, but you don't give in to it. It is difficult to get rid of it materially, but it can be surpassed spiritually. Therefore, Lu Xun abandoned medicine and went to literature, from saving people's bodies to saving people's souls. Regrettably, when he saw hope, he was constantly disappointed. Because he is extremely awake, if he knows that he is not awake, there are some treatments; However, most of the people he saw were people who never thought they were sick and were paralyzed by the humble happiness in front of them. For the latter, the general practice of psychological counselors is to go directly to the psychiatric department. In fact, even the former is better than watching his body rot, his spirit separate clearly, and his little happiness lead a daze. Besides, if you say that others are afraid of medical treatment, others will definitely say that you are an old pervert, but you just don't know how to be jealous. Lu Xun will definitely scold "a slave who sits still" in his heart. He didn't say anything because the patient didn't understand. He might as well not say anything. Although some people clearly see their own decay and want to save it, they don't know how to start. Schools of religion and other ideologies give appropriate guidance, so they draw a clear blueprint. Whether it is true or not, this is tantamount to synthesizing a more powerful paralytic drug, and the congregation has become a more stable slave. It must be very uncomfortable for Lu Xun to fight with people who put viruses in order to cure diseases. I think he must be very disappointed. After all, living with so many zombies will make me numb. What's more, talking so much makes you sick. Aren't you sick, doctor? Maybe it should be the other way around. It is the doctor himself who is seriously ill! If life hadn't trained him to be sharp, vicious and extreme, he might have been shaken long ago and couldn't hold on to the belief of finding a bright exit.
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That is beside the point. In fact, Lu Xun just wants to find a spiritual partner, not necessarily as tall as him, but he also wants to match him in his heart. Unfortunately, fate played a joke. Xu Guangping should have a considerable distance from his realm and expectation. Xu, on the other hand, brought something that Lu Xun had been resisting and could anesthetize him. It is sex and love. I personally think that sex is more important than love. Without deep spiritual intersection, the nutrients of love are easily lost. People have been cut off from each other, unable to meet each other mentally, but have to try their best to hide in the language. So there is no misunderstanding on the surface, but there is an eternal night wall between them. If it is understandable, Lu Xun may choose to die early as a soldier because there is no such persistent resentment. But it is precisely because there is no moral perfection in life and the constant impact from the outside world that this anesthetic can't anesthetize this spiritual giant. Fate made him mean to the end, made him criticize the spirit of himself and others repeatedly, and cut the fast knot with a sharp surgical knife. I guess it's in vain. Perhaps, he is constantly torturing himself, choosing to wait and die and live in exile. More because of sobriety, this kind of torture is so biting and heartbreaking. Because he's not the only one involved. So it also made him more bitter.
The wise man said, "Thought has a sharp edge. What really stings and bleeds is the sharp edge of thought. " Lu Xun's sharpness belongs to this. In fact, I think the poem "sharpness is not a problem" is really only suitable for Lu Xun. There may be transcendence in the future, but at least it can be unprecedented.
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After you have patiently read this half of my article, let me explain my personal opinion:
Lu Xun is a giant, and people around the giant are often baptized by the spirit for a long time, and often can by going up one flight of stairs. Guo Jing, for example, had a mediocre qualification, but later became a great soldier. Juan once said that he was like a snail on a giant. He has been trying to climb up his shoulder, but he just tried and failed. That's not true. It's just a general idea. )
Lu Xun is exclusive to Zhu An. However, in terms of sex, it may not be ruled out from the beginning. This has not been confirmed. However, because Lu Xun is a person with aloof spirit, it is difficult for mountains and rivers to meet bosom friends with spiritual intersection. But Lu Xun didn't despair at first. When Zhu Angang married Lu Xun, he did not study without tying his feet as Lu Xun asked (this has not been verified). Lu Xun must think that if he can enjoy learning, at least he will have a common language and the same pursuit in the future.
But what is certain is that Lu Xun experienced the process of hope-disappointment-despair. Because Zhu An is a kind of existence that can't be ignored or ignored for Lu Xun (there are many explanations. On the one hand, Zhu An made contributions to Lu Xun's mother and family, silently; On the other hand, Lu Xun is guilty, so for Lu Xun, Zhu An's way of love is like a black iron rope in the dark, which binds his body. But it is this situation that has created a spiritual giant.
I think, in order to restrain sexual desire, Lu Xun only wears single pants in winter ... This kind of pain and entanglement is cruel to Lu Xun. However, this does not mean that we have an absolutely positive attitude towards Lu Xun.
Great men are not perfect. For Zhu An, Lu Xun didn't do his duty as a husband.
However, as far as Lu Xun himself is concerned, from his achievements to his grave, his soul is lonely.