? So, why should I say her? Because when I was searching for Lu Xun's life, I accidentally found this unknown and criticized woman standing behind the giant. I feel sorry for her life and want her to be known, recognized and understood by more people.
She is a typical female image in the feudal society of old China. When she was four or five years old, one day she was taken into a small room. The adults first asked her to take off her shoes and socks and soak her feet in a basin of warm water. After that, they pushed her to the ground, took out a special long cotton swab, bent her four toes to the soles of her feet, wrapped them layer by layer with wet cloth, and then pulled her heels forward desperately. In this way, the embryonic form of "three-inch golden lotus" was formed. It seems to indicate that her life will also be "wrapped".
? From an early age, I was taught to be gentle, to learn needlework, to cook and to be illiterate. Everything is pushing her to a traditional feudal woman.
? At the age of 2 1, she and Lu Xun had never met before, and their parents decided to get married. As a docile feudal child, she was powerless and had no intention of resisting.
? 190 1 year, Lu Xun got a scholarship to study in Japan, and the marriage between Zhu An and Lu Xun scheduled for that winter was put on hold. 1903, Lu Xun returned to his hometown to visit relatives, but the Zhou family did not arrange his marriage with Zhu An, nor did they propose to break off the marriage.
? After waiting for seven years, she finally ushered in her wedding. However, she didn't know that her fiance Lu Xun was lured back to China by his mother to marry him. On the wedding day, everything was carried out in accordance with the ancient and complicated ceremony. She knew that Lu Xun didn't like feet, so she put on special embroidered shoes and stuffed them with cotton, hoping to please Lu Xun. To her surprise, when she got off the wedding sedan chair, because the sedan chair was too high, she soon stepped on the ground and the embroidered shoes fell off, revealing a really small foot. Her elaborate scam was exposed.
? What makes her even more unimaginable is that on the night of the wedding, she will sit in bed and wait hard, which will be a lonely life for more than 40 years. Hearing the sound of someone pushing the door in, her heart beat faster, and she was nervous and expecting her fiance who had been waiting for seven years to unveil her veil. However, all night, she just heard the sound of turning pages, and she could only sit by the bed silently. I don't know her mood at that time.
? The next day, Lu Xun didn't take her to the ancestral temple as usual. That night, he moved to the study to sleep. On the third day, he hurried to Japan with his younger brother. From then on, Zhu An began her long and lonely waiting life. She suddenly changed from Miss Zhujiajian to the daughter-in-law of Zhoujia, but she didn't know what she had done wrong. The only thing she can do is to be a "daughter-in-law" and hope that her husband will change his mind one day, although she doesn't know if that day will come.
? It was a long thirteen years, and she changed from a flower girl to an old pearl. For thirteen years, she has been serving Lu Xun's mother conscientiously and running all the housework. I don't know how many hardships and loneliness she has endured silently, but there is no trace of Lu Xun's change of heart. Even though the place where Lu Xun worked was only a few minutes away from home, he would rather live in school alone than stay at home. Even if he has something to go home, he comes and goes in a hurry. And all this, Juan is to see in the eye, she also knows that "Mr. Big" (Zhu An's name for Lu Xun) is like this, and it is completely to avoid her.
? 19191kloc-0/October, Lu Xun sold his home in Shaoxing, Zhejiang, and Zhu An moved to Badaowan, Xizhimen, Beijing with Lu Xun. Although the whole family was finally reunited, Lu Xun's attitude towards Zhu An remained unchanged, as if he were a stranger.
? /kloc-in the summer of 0/923, Lu Xun and his brother Zhou Zuoren turned against each other and wanted to move out of Badaowan and find another place to live. Before leaving, Lu Xun asked Zhu An, "Are you staying in Badaowan or going back to Jia Zhu, Zhejiang?" In fact, whether staying in Badaowan or going back to Shaoxing Jia Zhu is not what Juan wants. As a result, she said to Lu Xun in an almost pleading tone: "You always want someone to help you with laundry and cooking. Shall I go with you? " Lu Xun didn't refuse, so he took her to "there are two trees in front of my house, one is jujube and the other is jujube." Xisan hutong This is a hard-won opportunity for Juan, and she can finally live alone with Mr. Da. To her disappointment, Lu Xun didn't change her even though she lived in the same room (Lu Xun still insisted on sharing the room). They communicate with her almost every day except for simple and trivial conversations.
? However, even such days did not let her "enjoy" for long. 1926 On August 26th, Lu Xun and Xu Guangping left Beijing and lived together in Shanghai at the beginning of 1927 10. Lu Xun left in this way, leaving only lonely Zhu An to accompany Mrs. Zhou to spend the rest of her life in Xisan Hutong.
? 1June, 936, Lu Xun died in Shanghai. Juan wants to go south to attend Lu Xun's funeral. Mrs. Zhou is 80 years old, in poor health and unattended. She had to turn Lu Xun's study before he left Beijing into a mourning hall and silently wake for Lu Xun.
? After Lu Xun's death, Zhu An's life became more and more stretched. She lives on millet flour, vegetable leaves and some homemade pickles every day. After hearing the news, many people asked her to buy Lu Xun's posthumous works, but she refused them one by one. She said, "I would rather suffer from it than suffer from it." What makes her even more angry is that Lu Xun's students went directly to her house to sue her after hearing that she was going to sell Lu Xun's legacy. She yelled hysterically at Lu Xun's students: "You always say that Lu Xun's relics should be preserved, preserved! I am also a relic of Lu Xun, you have to save me! "
? 1in the early morning of June 29th, 947, Zhu An died alone with no one around. One day ago, Lin Song (Zi Pei), a student of Lu Xun, visited Zhu An. She can't get up, but she looks sober. She said with tears: Please tell Xu Guangping that she wants to be buried next to Mr. Da after her death; Besides, give her some water, eat some rice and read some classics. She also said that she missed Mr. Da, Xu Guangping and Yinghai.
? On the second day after Zhu An's death, he received three prayers and was buried on the third day. The cemetery is in Fu Bao Temple outside Xizhimen. There is no tombstone. She disappeared as if she had never existed.
? Sixty-nine winters have passed, spring has come, and the long wait of more than 40 years has been buried in the soil with her coffin. The wife of this famous great writer is little known. I dare not judge Mr. Lu Xun arbitrarily, but I hope to clear the name of this criticized woman.
? Some people say, "Zhu An is a victim of the times". Indeed, one is a feudal traditional woman and the other is a radical youth in the new era. It's really hard to combine the two. What puzzles me is why Lu Xun didn't resist at the wedding. Another nosy person said, "This is what Mr. Lu Xun has to do in order to be filial." However, can it be said that women's happiness can be used as funerary objects for Mr. Lu Xun's own "filial piety"? This is what I don't understand.
? In order to please Lu Xun, she carefully designed and prepared, but Lu Xun didn't understand it, but she was disgusted. Candles in the bridal chamber, but living alone. If these things are put in today's world, I'm afraid a hundred brides will leave. Of course, the society at that time did not allow her to do so. However, complaining is always allowed! However, she didn't complain. She knows why Lu Xun did this to her. But what can she do? She entered the bridal chamber with great expectation, but she never expected to be treated like this by her husband. She worked hard to run the family business, took good care of her mother-in-law, and hoped to improve her husband's attitude towards herself, but she got the lonely lamp Leng Ye for thirteen years. She blamed herself for not continuing the Zhou family and advised Lu Xun to marry a concubine, but she was despised by Lu Xun. But has it ever occurred to her that this is really her reason?
? She was deeply saddened by Lu Xun's elopement with Xu Guangping, but she never resented Lu Xun or Xu Guangping for it. She once said, "I am like a snail, climbing up from the bottom of the wall bit by bit." Although I am a slow climber, I will climb to the top of the wall one day. " But now I have no choice, I have no strength to climb. No matter how good I am to him, it's useless. It seems that I have to wait on the empress (Mrs. Zhou) and give her a pension. "After all, she is kind. Even though she has given up Lu Xun, she still bears the responsibility of serving her mother-in-law.
? She is more generous and open-minded. Zhou Haiying (the son of Lu Xun and Xu Guangping) once recalled fondly in his book that in the month of Lu Xun's death, Zhu An asked someone to tell their mother and son that they were welcome to move to Beiping to live with them. She said, "Xu Mei and Yinghai are deeply loved by the whole class. If you are willing to accompany them day and night, you can comfort them, that is, settle down. " She is willing to "support the orphans in the class through thick and thin". She not only arranged housing for mother and son, but even said, "If Xu Mei hesitates, please make suggestions", and she "accepted everything". Years later, Zhou Haiying was still impressed by her generosity and consideration for Xu Guangping and his son.
? Zhou Haiying and Zhu An showed motherly care. When Yinghai was fifteen or sixteen, she began to write to him directly. I once said in my letter, "Do you have a recent photo with your mother? Send me one. I miss you very much. " She still remembered them until she was dying. From the heart, she thinks that Yinghai is the heir of her incense. She loves her husband, she is loyal to him, and she regards his relatives as her own!
? This is Zhu An. By the time she died, her wish had not come true (referring to her request to be buried next to Lu Xun's tomb), and there was not even a tombstone! However, I think such a kind, generous, open and loving person should be known to the world!