Burning the passion of life, releasing the hope of life [original]
Zhang Yiping, an ordinary disabled girl, was diagnosed with cerebral palsy when she was four years old. The doctor described it to her The "best" prospect is to be able to stand alone and express meaning with a single word. More than twenty years have passed, and even though Yiping is still physically disabled, her cheerfulness, optimism, and strong spirit make even able-bodied people moved. She studied high school courses by herself, can use computers proficiently, can make Flash, can swim, can ride a two-wheeled bicycle proficiently, is also the administrator of four websites, and has a large group of close friends... How did a disabled girl get to where she is today? The ups and downs she went through, the tears and sweat she shed, I am afraid only she herself can explain clearly.
Campus life - my best memory
Growing up listening to the sound of military bugles, I never knew what childhood was like outside of hospitals and military camps. In addition to old retired soldiers, there are uncles and aunts who are soldiers. At that time, I spent eight months of the year in a hospital bed. In my childhood memories, the hospital was the place I was most familiar with and the most feared. Other children entered kindergarten when they were three or four years old and spent their happy and carefree childhood in joyful singing and laughter. But I could only lie in the hospital bed and dream that one day I would be able to go to school like other children. Listen and study in the classroom.
In a flash, I reached the age of going to school. I successfully passed the general primary school examination, but when the examiner learned that I could not take care of myself, he immediately turned me away. In this way, living a normal student's study life has come to nothing. I spent two years in pain and despair, until the Shizhong District Peizhi School was built, and I saw hope again. But when I went to register, the school stipulated that "students with an IQ below 45 must be able to take care of themselves." Although my IQ is 85, I can't even hold a pen steady, let alone take care of myself! Will I never go to school? ! There is no perfect path for everyone. Perhaps my desire to learn moved the special education teacher, who approved me as a probationary student (for 2 months). This is great news for me. Although it is just a trial study, it gives me a chance to go to school. I entered the class of a school for mentally handicapped students as a trial student. In order to pass the trial period smoothly and not to cause trouble to the teacher, I almost didn’t drink water at school for a whole day. After overcoming the difficulty of taking care of myself, a bigger difficulty appeared again. The teacher knew that it was difficult for me to write, so he tried to reduce the amount of homework for me. But just like this, I would stand and write until very late, and my hands were often scratched. Many uncles , Auntie looked distressed and advised me to give up, but I wanted to do my best to prove that I was the same as other classmates. Two months of hard work moved my head teacher, and after consulting with the school leaders, he turned me into a formal student. But not long after, I was admitted to the hospital due to pneumonia. No matter how painful the injection was, no matter how painful the medicine I took, I never cried. I always actively cooperated with the doctor's treatment. I even thought about whether I could use all the medicine for a few days. As long as Just let me recover as soon as possible. But my illness was not cured until the final exam, but I still took the exam despite being sick. I remember that when I walked into the examination room due to a fever, I felt hazy in front of my eyes, but there was only one thought in my mind: I must do well in the examination. Only in this way can I prove that my hard work in one semester is worthy of the hard-earned opportunity to go to school. The results came out, with 100 in Mathematics and 99.8 in Chinese (due to a careless mistake in a word). My father, mother, and teachers all praised me, and my classmates looked at me approvingly. But I regretted it so much, how could I be so careless!
The winter vacation passed quickly and the new semester began, but at this time I was admitted to the hospital again. A few days later, when the teacher delivered the bright red scarf, brand new school uniform, and little yellow hat to my hospital bed, I was so excited that I couldn’t speak; looking at the bright red scarf, my eyes filled with tears. I was so excited that I became Young Pioneers, but unfortunately I still don’t know the scene of joining the team.
I remember one day in the third grade at noon, in order not to delay the afternoon class, my uncle took me to the hospital for infusion after class in the morning. However, my blood vessels were very slippery at the time. The nurse aunt gave me 6 injections and still could not find the blood vessels. , at this time, the uncle said distressedly: Let’s not fight now, and wait until we get to work to find the head nurse. But I said to my aunt: "Auntie, it's fine. It doesn't hurt. Just keep pricking. Haha, I'll give you a chance to challenge." But in my heart, I only looked forward to being able to finish the infusion and go back to school early.
Not long after I had just adapted to school life, the disease struck me again in the winter of 1996. At that time, the doctor said that treatment was useless for me and that 18 years old was the limit of my life.
I cried secretly, thinking: No, I still have to go to school, I must work hard, and I must return to the classroom of my dreams. With everyone's help and encouragement, I finally returned to school two years later. But due to health and transportation problems, I can only choose morning classes on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays every week, and tutor at home in the afternoons.
One day during the summer vacation, I suddenly received a call, saying that he was the new head teacher. After entering the senior grade, the Chinese and math teachers were all changed, and they were all transferred from Pu Xiaogang. I was really stunned by the first Chinese class. The content was so substantial and the knowledge was so broad, which brought a lot of fresh breath. After reading my composition, the head teacher said: "Yiping, I hope you can be more strict with yourself. In the future, my writing requirements for you may be stricter than for other students. Furthermore, I hope you can come to more classes. If you have any ideas, please communicate with me in time." She also said sincerely, "You have to know that there is no limit to learning and there is no limit to skills." After returning home, I communicated with my father and mother, and they agreed that I could do it as long as my body allows. There are classes every morning. Dad can deliver it in the morning, but how will I get home? It happened that the K52 bus was opened, but I had never built a bus myself. What should I do? At this time, my mother contacted the team and asked me to get on the bus through the front door and get off the bus through the front door. The teacher sent me on, and my mother picked me up here. It was really scary to ride in a car for the first time, but when I thought that going home by myself could reduce the burden on my parents and attend more classes, I gained courage and was not afraid of anything.
Because I don’t have classes in the afternoon, I can never participate in duty. During the cleaning, I am always asked by the teacher to collect materials. I always feel sad that I can’t do something for the class like everyone else, so , during the class meeting, I took the initiative to wipe all the desks in the classroom every morning. At first, the teacher thought I just said it casually, but since that day, I have never stopped. What impressed me the most was that in the winter mornings, the air conditioning was not turned on before the classmates arrived. All the classmates who came went to clean the outdoor sanitary area. I was the only one in the classroom. Looking at the water that was about to freeze, I rinsed the rag with tears in my eyes. When I came out, my hands It was all red from the cold, and even after wiping it, it didn’t change even after being warmed for a long time. When the teacher saw it, he felt distressed and said, “If it’s flat, don’t wipe it if it’s too cold.” My answer was: “Compared to other students, I "What is this?"
One day, the counselor Teacher Li unexpectedly called the four of us to the office and said that it was Teachers' Day and asked us to participate in the broadcast. I was stunned. Those three were from the school. The backbone of the team also often participates in cultural and sports activities. I had never spoken to this teacher before, but she said: "No problem, you must believe in yourself." I still clearly remember the first broadcast. Teacher Li held the microphone for me. I was so nervous. My mind went blank and I was dancing with excitement. After discussing it with my teachers and classmates, I proposed to set up a school radio station, and I served as editor and broadcaster. This was the first of its kind in Peizhi School!
June 22, 2001 was my last day at Peizhi School. In the past 9 years, no matter how difficult my education journey was, I never shed a tear. But just when I was about to walk out of school, Looking at the neat farewell team and the special education teachers who have given us love, I cried and couldn’t stop the tears from flowing. For other children, graduation means they can enter a more advanced school, but for me, it means leaving each other day and night. Teachers and classmates, bid farewell to my beloved campus forever.
This is Yiping's short campus life. Although going to school is very difficult for such a child, the strong Yiping never cried out about pain or tiredness, but just tried his best to do it. , but also to help others. During this period, Yi Ping left school for two years due to physical reasons. During this period, a group of special people came into Yi Ping's life. They sowed hope for this disabled girl. Until now, they still play an extremely important role in Yi Ping's life. For their status, they have a touching name: young volunteers.
My eternal confidant - young volunteers
The disease struck me again in 1996, and I was forced to leave the campus and leave the classmates with whom I lived day and night!
At that time, I really felt discouraged and disappointed from the bottom of my heart, and I had lost confidence in everything. At this time, my brothers and sisters from the School of Mechanical Engineering of Jinan University, who were graduated in 1994, came to me and encouraged me to fight the disease. While making up for my classes, they also offered English, computer and other courses based on my physical condition. My brothers and sisters gave me hope again and built up my confidence through their practical actions.
In the days when I got along with my brothers and sisters, I not only learned a lot of knowledge, but also made me realize the value of life. I am determined to be a useful person. Although my limbs are disabled, my brain is normal and flexible. Yes, I am full of love for life. Compared with Helen Keller, I am already very happy. I can be equally good. I believe in myself. I can do it. As long as I work hard, I can do anything. An invisible force burst out from deep within my heart.
So after I returned to school after taking a two-year break, not only did I rank among the best in all subjects, but I also became one of the school’s top students. I participated in many computer demonstrations, founded the school radio station, and joined the dream of my peers. organization - the Communist Youth League of China.
Whenever I encounter difficulties, my brothers and sisters will always come to me in time. With the help of my brothers and sisters, I have made progress in all aspects, such as learning computers. To put it bluntly, when I learned that I could also learn computers, I was extremely happy, because computers could make up for my inconvenience in writing. I stood in front of the computer curiously and took a look, but I couldn't help but step back because I saw that everyone was typing with both hands according to fingertips and using the mouse flexibly. But I can’t use it, what should I do? Just when I was timid, my sister tried her best to set all the functions of the mouse as shortcut keys for me, which also enabled me to switch from one-handed operation to two-handed operation. In this way, I started from scratch and learned bit by bit. Now I can use the computer to write articles, create newspapers, slides, flash animations, etc. Computers have also become my good friends.
My life is happy and fulfilling with the help of my brothers and sisters. If you ask me which day is the happiest, I can't help but think of the time I participated in an outing organized by Jinan University before the "10th Day" in 2001. At that time, I was in a bad mood because I had no plans to continue my studies. In order to cheer me up, my brothers and sisters specially invited me to participate in their outings. The night before departure, my sister took me to their student dormitory. After knowing about it, the sisters upstairs in the dormitory came to visit one after another. I was so excited that I stayed up all night. This was the first time I met my brothers and sisters. Let’s go out and play together! The next morning I drove to the outskirts, feeling particularly happy. The mountains, waters, plants and trees of nature strongly attracted me. The outings were arranged in a variety of ways, including mountain climbing, visiting reservoirs, picnics, laughter and singing. Continuously. In order for me to participate in activities with everyone, my brothers and sisters rushed to help me. When it was inconvenient for me to walk on the mountain road, sister Jin Wei carried me on her back, and her clothes were soaked with sweat. Finally, I climbed to the top of the steep mountain and walked down the "longest and steepest" steps for the first time in my life. Meat skewers grilled by yourself. I personally feel the comfort of being integrated into the embrace of nature and the happiness of being in a collective family. In order to take care of me, my brothers and sisters did not bother to enjoy the bright sunshine and the fragrance of flowers and plants. While experiencing the joy of outing, I was also shocked and inspired by the spirit of selfless dedication of my brothers and sisters, which added to my confidence in overcoming difficulties. Courage enables me to face life with a smile in the future. No matter what difficulties I face, I can face them bravely and work hard to overcome them, because I know that at any time, there is a group of people who care about me around me. They are my strong spirit. pillar!
Some people think that most disabled people are autistic, have a dark heart, and do not communicate with others. However, our Yiping is always so sunny and smiling. Everyone says: "Where can there be such a thing?" Wherever there is laughter, everyone is happy. "Yiping's happiness has infected and affected many people, and many people have become Yiping's good friends.
Wandering on the Internet
During World Disability Day in 2002, with everyone’s efforts, Radio and Television set up a dedicated line for me. I was finally able to fly freely on the Internet and walked out of the Internet. I got to know each other online in a small room, which also allowed me to develop my computer skills. Because I am relatively young online, my brothers and sisters take good care of me and like my naughty character. From then on, I am no longer alone.
In the big family of the Internet, I have made friends from all over the country. Due to environmental and family reasons, I always feel that I do not trust netizens. After more than a year of surfing the Internet, I have never thought of meeting netizens. I am very afraid of losing good friends because of my image. Although they are all members of a special group, cerebral palsy is quite special.
But it wasn’t until brother Leng Feng from Binzhou (a friend I met on Yuliao) was about to leave Jinan for work that he came to my house after a 2-hour drive with crutches. I recognized him at the door at a glance. , I was so excited. At that time, my brother was so tired that he was sweating profusely. This was the first time for me to walk with a friend with a physical disability. I moved the crutches slowly. I could see that my brother was really tired, but we all had a look on our faces. Smiling, it is no different from surfing the Internet, there is no sense of strangeness. After arriving home, my mother warmly entertained me and said distressedly: "It's so far away and it's not convenient. Just let Yiping visit you." But my brother said: "It's nothing. I'm not tired. I'm very happy to see Yiping, because She went to bring me food at work and I was not there. Before leaving, she made sure to come and see my sister. "Because it was far away and it was night, my brother sat at my house for a while and then left, but I couldn't calm down for a long time. My brother's strength and bravery will always be engraved in my heart. After that, it was natural for me to see my netizens again, without any barriers, because we communicated sincerely online, and we were closer than real brothers or sisters.
Dad left the military camp to take care of me and took off his beloved military uniform. After changing careers, although he was admitted to the civil service, it was not very adaptable. In the past two years, my father had two serious illnesses in a row, and my mother had to be busy in the hospital. They have to take care of me again, and as the only daughter, I can't do anything at home. I don't want my mother to worry about me anymore. I try my best to face them with a smile, but what should I do with my pain and fear? At this time, I accidentally walked into the country's first website run by blind people - Night Sunrise. There are disabled friends here who are constantly striving for self-improvement, and there are also caring friends who care about the disabled. They used their voices and texts to accompany me through that difficult time. Soon, with everyone’s help and encouragement, I also joined the management team. In the past two years, I have a fixed time every week to host and serve everyone through voice. Night and sunrise have become another warm home for me. We chat, have dinner, and play together, use our enthusiasm to infect others, and do our best. To help others and let others feel our value. Although we are physically disabled, we are full of love for life and full of hope for life!
Now I am the administrator of 4 websites. While not delaying my self-study, I hope to bring my happiness to others. I have learned gratitude from the many people who have helped me. In return, I learned to care for others and to help disabled friends like me.
In 2003 and 2004, I participated in the National Disabled Persons’ Friendship Event held in Shijiazhuang and Beijing twice. As the only representative of disabled people in Shandong, I know that I must not let everyone down. I am relatively young in the group. During the activities, I always insist on taking care of myself and try not to cause trouble to the group and the volunteers who accompany me. Please, please pass on my happiness to my friends who are traveling with me. At the end of the event, everyone said: "Wherever there is peace, there will be constant laughter, and everyone is happy."
Last winter I I participated in the "Quancheng Night Talk" program as a guest. This was my second time to participate in a live TV broadcast. Others said: "Yiping, you are great, your eloquence is as good as that of the host." Looking back now, I am still excited and excited. nervous. My naughtiness and happiness left a deep impression on Sister Xiaodong, and she still remembers that disabled little girl who talked endlessly.
My thoughts
After graduating from Peizhi School, I embarked on a difficult path to study again. Due to various reasons, I failed to enter campus again. I really didn’t want to give up. Studying, I finally chose the difficult path of self-study. Some people may say: "You have such a good family. You have food to open your mouth and clothes to stretch your hands. How wonderful it is. You should be content." But I don't want my life to be aimless and chaotic. What I want is to My favorite words are: face all the ups and downs in life with laughter, and conquer all diseases with confidence and courage. Even if tomorrow is the end of my life, I will still be smiling today! I want to be a useful person, even if it is just a small paving stone, I will be satisfied. In the process of moving forward, I don’t know how many times I cried secretly, but I have a jumping heart, the belief that I will never bow to fate, and my parents as my strong backing. It was my mother who took me to climb Hero Mountain and learn Bicycling, learning to swim, anything other children could do, she tried her best to let me try.
I know that I don’t have flexible limbs. No matter how hard it is, it doesn’t matter. Overcoming setbacks is a compulsory course for every disabled person. No matter what, I hope to find my own way and have my own pride!
Today, Yiping has already passed the limit of his life at the age of 18, and his life continues in Yiping's own hands. As a child with severe cerebral palsy, Yiping learned to ride a bicycle and learn to swim. Some people would be surprised: How can a disabled child who cannot take care of himself or even master basic balance do this? Yes, Yiping did it. From the basic standing at the beginning to now being able to walk alone on the street, I am afraid only the family can understand how many tears Yiping shed, how much Yiping's parents paid and how much they worried. From Yiping, we feel what is strong and what is perseverance. There are no heroic words, only a girl is walking strong. Although the road ahead is bumpy and full of thorns, our Yiping is still walking perseveringly. We firmly believe that Yiping’s future is infinitely broad, and we also firmly believe that Yiping’s life will always be wonderful!