I suggest you relax, this difficulty cannot be solved at once.
Maybe this is how you understand this dream! That's not suicide! When everyone was desperate, what they saw was a golden green river. This golden green river is an opportunity. The ancients said: Take water as wealth. Now that you have seen the golden water, this is a good opportunity. Dreams allow you to seize opportunities in difficult times, and the other side of the water is a bright world.