You are a happy girl, aren't you? Since your dream, many people are chasing you, and you still feel the warmth and happiness they bring you, but you finally choose the "Scarab" for sincere and intense pursuit. You think love comes too suddenly, and life is suddenly disrupted. You have some doubts, and some "hide in the cave". Look at the character of that beetle, you'd better keep calm.
I wish you happiness!
Personal guess, for reference only.