(1)
It was when Yu Le met Zuo Yi that he realized what love at first sight was.
He found her every frown and smile, and even her slightly splayed feet, so cute.
In Song Nan’s words: Our eight years are not worth the eight seconds you and Zuo Yi have.
Yes, after Yu Le met Zuo Yi for the first time, he broke up with his childhood sweetheart Song Nan.
Love that lasts for a long time is warm and appropriate, but Yu Le does not want to be sloppy. No matter what the outcome with Zuo Yi is, he wants to be crazy about love again.
Yu Le thought that Song Nan would definitely make a big fuss, entangle and denounce him.
She didn’t, but said to Le very calmly: “Thank you for not waiting until everyone knew before telling me last.”
Yu Le said: “On the contrary, You are the first person to know about this."
In fact, this kind of betrayal and blow is not the first time for Song Nan.
They started falling in love in high school, but after going to college, Yu Le fell in love with another girl. Then, after graduation, he went to Guangzhou for the girl.
Despite this, Song Nan fulfilled his contract and returned to his hometown city. He first worked in the court and later resigned to run a furniture store.
In those years, his classmates were extremely helpful to Song Nan, not only out of help to his classmates, but also out of sympathy for an abandoned daughter.
However, no one has ever seen Song Nan down, frustrated or complaining. She resigned and went to work in the sea to do business among men just for fun.
She said that sooner or later he would come back, and when he came back, he would have something to do.
"I don't want to be the only woman in Yu Le's life. I just hope that he can finally leave the women who passed him for me." When saying this, Song Nan was very sure.
Of course, she is the only one who firmly believes in this.
Sure enough, Yu Le is back.
Together with Song Nan, he managed the already very profitable small shop. Several times Yu Le proposed to Song Nan, but Song Nan didn’t seem to be in a hurry: “We are still young, why bother to bear the burden so early? Family responsibilities."
Yu Le is certainly happy to enjoy his freedom indefinitely.
Then he met Zuo Yi. At a friend's wedding, Yu Le was the best man and Zuo Yi was the bridesmaid.
Although the dress she wore that day was low-key enough, in Yu Le's eyes, she was more eye-catching than the bride - it was a heartbeat he had never felt before, a desire that he could not extinguish with all his reason. .
On the second day of the showdown between Yu Le and Song Nan, Song Nan left the store. Ten days later, Yu Le heard about the opening of Song Nan's clothing store.
This comforted him a lot. Although Song Nan loves him very much, she has never been a stalker.
What Yu Le admires most is Song Nan's strength to make a comeback at any time.
The introverted Yu Le soon discovered that it was not that he did not understand romance, but that he had not met the right person.
Over the years, he has been pursued, pampered and romanticized by Song Nan. Now, he has given all these benefits to Zuo Yi - picking her up from get off work and bringing her breakfast every day. It's never happened again. Saturdays and Sundays are when business is good, but he closes the shop and takes Zuo Yi on a self-driving trip. Sometimes, he will appear downstairs at Zuo Yi's house in the middle of the night and call her to just say a word. :I miss you.
Often, after saying this, Zuo Yi was still fine, and Yu Le himself was moved to tears...
These are enough for others. Crazy, but Yu Le felt that everything was normal, he was so in love, if he didn't express it in a way, he would be burned to death by his passion.
On the day when Yu Le proposed to Zuo Yi, he met Song Nan on the way.
This was the first time they met by chance after they broke up. Looking at the large bouquet of white roses in Yu Le's hand, Song Nan's eyes felt sad for the first time.
She knew that this time, Yu Le was serious about it.
Song Nan's tears still made Yu Le sad. Over the years, he had rarely seen her cry, so much so that he regarded her as a Xiaoqiang who never cried.
"How about I give you these roses, and I'll buy another bunch." Yu Le comforted Song Nan almost stuttering.
I have never seen such poor comfort, but Song Nan's tears became even more intense.
This is also the reason why she loves Yu Le. Like all men in the world, he likes the new and hates the old, but he has the simplest honesty. Even though this honesty hurts sometimes.
"Yu Le, I will wait for you for a year. If you are not happy, come to me."
Song Nan did not say I wish you happiness, she is not that strong or kind enough to hope The person I love deeply is married to another woman forever.
She replied to Yu Le's honesty with her own honesty - if you are not happy, remember that you still have me.
No matter how persistent and infatuated she is, in her heart, it is difficult to accommodate anyone else except Yu Le.
She is willing to wait for one year to give her love one last chance.
Maybe it’s not an opportunity, it’s just a process of giving up.
Song Nan left and passed Yu Le.
They didn’t know if they missed it for a while or for a lifetime.
(2)
Yu Le and Zuo Yi got married.
Everyone thought that Song Nan would either make a scene at the wedding or cry alone.
However, Song Nan was very calm, sitting in the clothing store, patiently bargaining with customers.
Several classmates who had attended the wedding invited her to go drinking together. She said calmly: "Let's have another day. It's too easy to get drunk today."
Everyone felt that only Only great compassion can lead to such complete awakening.
Before the wine was finished, a female classmate stayed with Song Nan every step of the way on the pretext of quarreling with her husband.
Dinner was at Song Nan’s house. It consisted of four dishes and one soup, which was both homely and delicious.
There was no alcohol, but the female classmate shed tears while eating.
Such a good woman should have the most perfect love.
However, the expression on Song Nan's face was still as calm as before, and she said to her female classmate: "He is just married, not dead. I can still love him. In In fact, it doesn't matter anymore. If you love, you will be crazy. If you don't love, you will be strong. "
In fact, Song Nan was not that strong. When the female classmate left with peace of mind, she sat alone. On the balcony, drinking tea and crying.
Loving someone is more like a solitary joy. You are happy alone and sad alone. No one can share it, and no one can share it.
Therefore, stop complaining and just wait.
Wait for one day to let it go, or never let it go.
After marriage, Yu Le took care of the furniture store business very seriously. He still did not put making money as the top priority as he did when he was in love. On Saturdays and Sundays, he still brought Zuo Yi travels by car.
However, the days come again and again, and the feelings are no longer as strong as before, and gradually become dull.
Especially after several quarrels over trivial matters, Yu Le became slightly bored with this marriage.
When you get tired of it, you will think of Song Nan from time to time.
He had passed by Song Nan's clothing store many times, but when he saw her through the glass, she never raised her head to meet him and his eyes.
The more this happened, the more dejected Yu Le felt.
Some classmates came back from other places. Yu Le, who was not keen on attending class reunions, went there, hoping to meet Song Nan by chance.
Song Nan is born to be lively, and there is no way she would not come to such an occasion.
Yu Le was late on purpose, and then saw that Song Nan was indeed there.
What particularly comforted him was that the way she looked at him was still so gentle and calm, without any resentment. She laughed at all the ambiguous jokes her classmates made about them.
That night, Yu Le was more enthusiastic than ever. He raised his glass frequently, talked to everyone with all his heartfelt feelings, and finally settled the bill while shaking his head.
He hoped that there could be more gatherings like this so that he could see Song Nan more often.
In any case, he satisfied a man's greatest vanity - I got married, but there was still someone waiting at the same place.
When the song ended and everyone dispersed, Yu Le sent Song Nan home.
It was a cold day, but the past came to mind warmly, including the lily porridge she cooked, the black tea she cooked, and her years of waiting without regrets.
He thought that all he had to do was enjoy it, but when he looked back, all of this was engraved in his heart and became a memory that could never be erased.
Yu Le sent Song Nan upstairs. The second before the door was about to close, he rushed in, hugging, kissing, and laughing, from here to there, from late at night to the east. Wei Xi.
After getting married, Yu Le has enough confidence in his body. He just wants to keep giving so that Song Nan can't stop wanting him.
The important thing is that they once lived together, but at that time, Song Nan had never let Yu Le be so greedy, so obsessed, and so volatile.
In his madness, he got to know Song Nan again, her gentleness, her strength, her calmness, and her calmness.
In the early morning, after Yu Le finished eating lily porridge, before leaving, he hugged Song Nan from the back and said, "I'm sorry."
Song Nan smiled and responded to him: "You I didn’t do anything wrong.”
(3)
Yu Le felt that he was in love again.
Although the people are still the same, this reunion is full of mature passion.
Although he will also feel guilty, whether it is towards Zuo Yi or Song Nan.
However, love is love, not to mention that what Zuo Yi, who has settled down, needs is the stability of marriage, while what Song Nan wants is just his love - the love after Qianfan.
When thinking like this, Yu Le even felt a strong feeling of grandeur in his heart. He did not owe these two women in his life, and he was giving as much as possible.
However, there is no such thing as cheating without being discovered.
No matter how flawlessly Yu Le thought he had done, in the end, Zuo Yi still trapped him and Song Nan on the hotel bed.
Zuo Yi was so calm and rational. He turned his back and asked them to put on their clothes. Then, the three of them sat and stood, waiting for one of them to speak.
After packing up, Yu Le noticed that the only one who was panicking was himself.
The two women were both so calm and calm, looking like they had experienced many battles and were in command.
The love scene is like a battlefield. Whoever messes up the battle will be at a disadvantage.
So what about him?
Is it the pearl in the clam shell?
Zuo Yi said: "Yu Le, please make a choice between us."
Only then did Yu Le realize that, in fact, he had never thought about choosing, regardless of love. Which one he is most satisfied with is actually the current situation, but this situation is obviously difficult to maintain.
There was nothing new in Yu Le's choice that day. His unwillingness to give up his family was not because of how much he loved Zuo Yi, but because he was too lazy to bother with the hassle of divorce and starting over.
Moreover, one thing was that he was particularly convinced that no matter what, Song Nan's love for him would always be there and would never leave him.
"Let's go home." Yu Le pulled Zuo Yi.
We are all smart people, and no one wants to make their lives precarious.
However, Yu Le did not give up on Song Nan. He would still use all kinds of lies to deceive Zuo Yi and date Song Nan, from one city to another, from one lie to another, from one lie to another. Spring to another spring.
Yu Le likes Song Nan who never entangles, never asks, and never puts any pressure on him.
(4)
Yu Le was the first to know about Song Nan's marriage.
Just like when he wanted to pursue Zuo Yi, Song Nan was the first person to know.
It’s not that I’m not sad, and I’m not reluctant to give up, but what can I do to keep him?
In this love, she spent the best years of her life.
I can only express my concern in a tactful way. The man is second-hand and has a seven-year-old boy. He is not from a wealthy family, but is just an ordinary working-class person.
From Yu Le's point of view, Song Nan's marriage was definitely self-degradation, or he was deliberately abusing himself to show himself.
But Song Nan still got married, and the married Song Nan never dated Taole again.
Her mobile phone number changed, but the clothing store was still open, so Yu Le could still find her.
However, her attitude towards him was really no different from that towards other customers.
Yu Le had seen the boy talk back to Song Nan more than once. Yu Le wanted to strangle the rude boy to death more than once, but Song Nan was not anxious or annoyed, acting like he was using poison as candy. Eat happily.
After another class reunion, Yu Le forcibly left Song Nan behind. The two of them stood on the street in winter, relatively speechless.
Yu Le struggled to express his words: "Who do you show your pain to?"
Song Nan looked at Yu Le and asked him: "Where am I in pain? Yu Le, I am really Happiness. As long as it is my choice, I will be devoted to you and the same to my current husband." Yu Le said: "How is it possible? I don't care whether he is old enough to do that. Doubtful, you actually said you were happy. Why should I believe it? I only know that in this life, you will never love anyone else except me." Song Nan smiled so vicissitudes of life. Strange, I smiled happily and remembered that sentence - all the years were wiped out while talking and laughing.
"Yes, it's all over, Yu Le. It took me ten years to love you. It only took me half a year to not love you. You never know, when you met me on the balcony of my house I called Zuo Yi and told him that you couldn't return at night and how ugly your expression was when you were about to receive a client. You will never know how embarrassed you were when you were caught in bed and wore your shirt inside out in a panic. , how cold my heart felt when you and I could only date in the dark night. I don’t reject you. It’s not that I still hope to have you in this humble and despicable way. I just hope to change this from love to not. When the road of love comes to an end, I will give myself the most cruel and thorough regret. I will try my best to love you, but if I don’t love you, I will give up.”
Yu Le was suddenly afraid. Well, what would be the point of his life if he didn't have Song Nan's no regrets and determination.
Isn’t it her hard work and uncomplaining attitude toward him over the years that gave him his high spirits?
After losing her, who would still love him so regardless of gain or loss? !
How could he remain content in an ordinary marriage without her?
He said: "Song Nan, let's get married."
Song Nan laughed and said: "Yu Le, ten years ago, this was what marriage meant to me. The greatest gift in life is also my greatest ideal. Then, I spent ten years witnessing the disillusionment of this ideal. Do you know what I loved most about you?"
Yu Le shook his head. Song Nan was suddenly unfamiliar to her. Perhaps, he had never understood her except for the fact that she loved him.
However, this fact has quietly changed at some point.
"Honest. Yu Le used to be extremely loyal to his heart. When you were in college, you fell in love with someone else, and I was the first person to notify you. Later, when you fell in love with Zuo Yi, you didn't fool me first. In the dark. You follow your inner feelings, love or not. Although I am the one who gets hurt every time, I don't blame you, because I know you didn't lie to me. But you got married. You still came to me and lied to Zuo Yi, and at the same time you put me in your lies. Yu Le, please look at yourself in the mirror, why should I still love you? I love you, not for anything. In the end, I just wanted to wait for the moment when I gave up completely."
(5)
Song Nan left, and this time, she took the initiative to turn around. How persistent she was before, she is just as determined now.
Yu Le wanted to reach out, but he knew very well in his heart, how could he keep someone who no longer loved him? But now, to Song Nan, he is no different from a fellow traveler.
The street lights were really bright. Then, Yu Le used the light of the street lights to see himself reflected in the glass showcase on the street.
Momentarily sad - the saddest thing in life is that after you have lived for so long, in the end, you grow into the kind of person you disdain the most.